Heaven or Hell?
It's an obvious answer.
Nobody wants to go to hell.
Even the worst of people don't want to spend a whole other life of pure pain.
Everybody wants to go to Heaven.
Even though nobody even knows what it is up there.
Or if it even
**exists

I go back and forth.
My world's always turning, tilting. Its poles constantly changing positions South becomes North.

I never honestly know.
What to look for or where to go.
I wish for a sign to show.
They've said: "Find your path."
Well, I'm trying to but I'm sure that whichever one I choose to follow, I will encounter someones' wrath.

For I compare God to my
Anger; just because you don't see
It doesn't mean it's not
There. So I'll sit
H**ere on this fence without care.

There are days
when I am certain
that there is a god.
Because,
Somehow,
I found you.

Can doubt be a faith?

There's a comfort in being a doubter,
To be swayed by passionate conviction
As well as logical cognition,
If nothing can be proven then how can that be confirmed?
I am a doubter
I live in dim-lit twilight of faith unknown,
I doubt the doubter and all of faith
Is doubt not too a faith to move nations?
I am a doubter, an undecided,
Hopeful, hateful, shameful, trustless
Devoid, lacking any certainty
Don't doubt me! I'm not weak, not mean,
Not judgmental or hypocritical,
Just so uncertain and conflicted—
How can anyone believe
In anything, at all?

I try hard to pray
I'm waiting for you to say or at least display
that you are here
I volunteer and adhere to all they say I should every year
Even when others sneer
It's all unclear
But I'm beginning to loose my faith

I don't attend church
Just trying to search
In a holy building I won't find you
But the truth is overdue
It must be untrue
For everywhere I pursue
Leaves me blue
I'm just asking for a clue
Because I'm beginning to loose my faith

Some say you're in the air
I stare in despair
Beware of the lies
Some say you're in the sky's
Maybe it's just a guise?
A disguise which denies me my eyes
I was baptised
Does that mean I get to share your Celestial City?
What a pity
You see I'm beginning to loose my faith

Just come down and denounce your scripture
It's all just a contemporary mixture
I can't see the picture
Maybe you're in my mind
Created by an unkind humankind

I am suddenly no longer inclined,
I am suddenly no longer blind
Never mind

I have not lost my faith, I never had it
It was never innate, I must admit
There are no big pearly gates
Just our small debates

For I have truly lost my faith.