The
             curves
                      of
          my
body
laid with oblivion;
We didn't love
with the same intentions.

The softness of my
skin roughened;
Your touch lacked
admiration.

The whisper of my
voice grew volume;
His voice lost consolation.

       But Please,

Acknowledge me,
Even if I become
any less beautiful,

      today.

Not once, have I tasted the thickness
of your lips.
nor have I felt a shallow hug
lacking passion.

I have only closed my eyes
and dreamed of us
in the darkness of my
bleak imagination.

I have feared
the intensity of your stare
but missed the scarcity
of your comforting voice

But dear,
this lust will only demolish us.

     ever so slowly
        in the comfort of our own
          inconvenience.

How standard and usual
A pathetic attraction
Oblivious of two
Ignominious lovers

I crave diligence
While ignorant to the thoughts
and intensions of his mind
Save me, Lord, from destruction
  just this once,
For his heart can match perfectly with mine

How typical and useless
rejecting our relations
despite wanting his effort
to love me, dearly

I crave remembrance
ignorant to the thoughts
and intentions of his mind
Save me, Jesus, from repulsion
  just this once,
For my feelings I can no longer hide

How standard and usual
A pathetic attraction
oblivious of two
Ignominious lovers;
blind in the love shared
for each other

Her once beautiful
brown skin
is now only
captivating the
negativity ruining
her limited life

Each moment
is once again
shadowed by a
Nightmare
We ever so
Happily label truth

Never would she claim
such a place
rewarding our evilness
with money
to further enhance
our mistakes

This is why
She cant bear
to withstand
a creature so bruised
with cuts and pain
that once was so beautiful

I refuse to forget...

A woman who was judged
and rewarded false ownership
for they
will never understand
the purpose of your
short presence
like I

Days like this,
where sorrow exist,
I want to goto space
Sit upon the moon
admire bright stars
and erase my swolen
remains

Maybe then,
in a place of darkness,
and hope,
I won't feel so alone

I'd drift in space
passing motionless objects,
hoping to find someone
of the same sadness

Maybe then,
in conversation
and story telling,
I won't feel so abandoned

Temporarily,
our hands attach
almost refusing to part
Forever, I blush
the moment he looks
claiming me as
the pretty girl
butterflies in my tummy
I adorn the moments
If only they'd last forever
 
Then,
He leaves my sweaty palm
unattended
for the red head
I secretly despise
The butterflies are replaced
with a bitter sadness
as she walks away
with my lover

If love is perfect
Why do I suffer
My heart only wants his
comfort

two months
I've been single
I finally surrender,
no longer needing loves'
painful affection

I'm desperate, but young
dependent, but strong
and all I want want
is TRUE love

I could forever
be captivated
by your beautiful
brown eyes

How I dream
of knowing
how good your
lips taste

But holding your hand
we part too soon
I plead more time
but am left unwanted

Negativity
weakens the soul of those
who are blinded by destruction
of  the  world.

Negativity
manipulates the concept of life
while painting the limited world
with  strife

Negativity**
is simply Earth in its place
consuming the good
that  sadly  effaced

Turn my sorrow into gold
Mending my broken heart
put love in every single stitch
As you sew what's torn apart

kiss away my silent screams
expunge unbearable pain
Stroke my face and pretend,
those horrid words never came

An open view
from the tallest window
could'nt reveal my prince
Patiently, I would wait
stumbling upon heartreak
only to find closed doors

An open view
with extrordinary heights
Would never offer
a love TRULY right
only to find a bitter sensation

The tallest window
it's farthest views
leaves me forlone
with a love unused

So I fell for you
Off the cliff of the hill
into an everlasting love
Forever would I feel
your sensation

So I fell for you
Hoping to land in your arms
that would comfort me into long terms
But I was wrong

I fell into affliction
Which was subliminally hidden
In the words you’d smuggle

Borrowing my time
You’d laugh from pity
I’d try to climb up
But the fall had me weakened

Exhausted I lay
With nothing but my choice
Then you left;
abandoned the promise
and what you felt

I uncontrolably cried
A river that could feed two
But I felt stupidity
When I fell for you

Love is a wicked war hiding it’s affliction
toying with the vulnerable
Who fulfill its destructive missions
Many side effects are given
Which are hidden in its label
So love becomes a drug
Creating the disabled


Its forlorn passion to weaken those in pain
Are only always winning
When they play this wicked game
Making the poor weak
And the rich much wealth
It plays its deceiving way
Injecting those who seek help

I remember the shadow
that followed my sorrow
It promised me happiness
I only smiled

I remember the tears
that fell like rain
how your lies would
fill the seams

I remember when I loved you
But then it started to fade
I could hardly remember
The remnants of my dream