The only guy in this world which I hate the most. I just don't like him. He is the reason why my grades go down, why I have so many sleepless nights, why my pillow is wet because of tears, why my mood suddenly goes down just by the thought of him. He is also the reason why my grades go up, why I have so many beautiful dreams, why I hug my pillow always, why my mood suddenly goes up just by the thought of him. The facade of our relationship is really fragile, breakable. It's more like walking on a vulnerable line. The thought of seeing it break in front of my eyes is just so unthinkable. As you can see, I'm pretty crazy about him. *Even some thoughts are just making me crazier.

I should have realized earlier
what I pondered this day
because there is nothing better
than admitting what you want to say.

My love for him is not eternal
cause maybe even feeling dismal
though I'm not taking back what I said.

And as selfish as this may sound,
I want to keep his company
on any type of steep and ground
and be with him eternally.

It is too much to ask
for I know that fully well
and to be true and stark,
his life with me would be hell.

Although I see his patience
in the three year pursuit,
my trust in him bends
for only a little of it was true.

It is futile to deny
that I forgive not forget.

One reason is limited to one cry,
and my mind is usually always set.

we used to wish that we were someone's wish

you wish you're my wish
and i'll take that command

i wish i'm your wish
and you didn't take that command

i know i'm not the one
and i'm so idiot taking your wish

you were my best friend
and it hurts

that we will never step closer to commit ourselves in front of the altar


i love you

It's Christmas time and romantically,
we're exchanging our I love you's.

You are my devil's hour thoughts,
you are my demon in my eyes.
My love of my life.

3:08
I'm waiting for your reply.

3:09
I wonder that you are sleeping.

3:10
You left me hanging,
with my thoughts over you.
That we will be forevermore.

I love you so much, my love.