My entire life I was told that  death was bad bad thing. I still remember that day when I was about 7 years old and my mum was locked upstairs in her room, crying. I quietly unlocked the door and I asked her what was wrong and she hoarsely replied"My mother is dying." From that day on I knew that no matter what I saw or heard death was a bad thing. Time went on as it always does and here I am 7 years on. Now I believe that death is a good good thing. I am baffled by why everyone fears death because to me death seems like the only certainty. Death is my escape from the terrors and pains of this world so once again I ask why is everyone so afraid of death? Destiny is all a lie and we all have the right to craft our own way to die. On the next shooting star I see I have already decided what my wish shall be. My wish is to die.

When someone is gone
it hurts your heart
the way no one can describe or compare
a different kind of hurt
you don't know it because it's their hurt,
their love
their memories
that have vanished from
their heart.


When someone is gone there is an empty spot in your day
there is something missing, that they do
there is something missing, that they say
there is something missing that you feel
it feels lonely and dark
sometimes it doesn't feel real.

the moment you know,
everything changes
they are here and gone in a flash.


your heart is heavy
your eyes are sore
your stomach is queazy
your legs are weak.

what do you do without your love
pray?
cry?
scream?

you have to live and live for them
you have to thrive and thrive for them
you do the things you want to do
and you do the things they cannot do
you do it all for them
you do it because they can't
you do it because they didn't want to.

How dare you think you have the power to take your own life.
You are loved,
you are worth it.

you hurt me
with your eyes
you hurt me
with your words
you hurt me
with your style
you hurt me
with your absence
you hurt me
every time
yet
i am so glad
that
you once thought
to HEAL ME
IN MY DREAM.....

I wish I wasn't stuck over here
Powerless as you shake with fear.
I wish I could run over there with haste
and wrap my arms round your perfect waist
Protect you from, your terrible dreams
and calm you when you wake with screams.
Hear my voice, then forget your fears
I'd kiss you and I'd dry those tears
I'd help you fix your broken sleep,
embrace you when you start to weep
You shouldn't deal with this alone
I'd be there with my loving tone

I used to think that I wouldn't be able to live without you,
Without your care and affection,
Without you laughs and secret smiles,
I used to think that I wouldn't be able to live without your sly comments in class,
Without your silly hair flying everywhere,
Without your rainbow eyes dancing around judging people but not being fair,
But that is all the past now and this is where we are now.