He's rough around the edges
So I keep my heart protected
He says he loves me
But I have second guesses
He says "You're a Queen to me"
Then why is he mistreating me ?
In my eyes , hes a King to be
I treat him like peasantry
To see if he can handle me
I know im hard to please
Really I like the simple things
I wish I could maintain my mentality
Of being used to the casualties
Or the fact that he's blind to me
I would change drastically
But he's a man to me
So hopefully he can handle me
To conquer my insanity

He was everything I loved
And everything I hated
He kept saying he loves me
Just to keep me sedated

He told me the sweetest tales
Only to unveil
My body's greatest secrets
And my minds biggest regrets

He warped my mind to see a vision
They tried to tell me but I wouldn't listen
He promised me everything I could ever imagine
Anything I asked for he made it happen

Then I had to repay him
What I know now, I wish I knew then
His tales became gruesome
As my body grew with bruises

He said his name was Lucky but spelled it like "Luci"
And Fer like a mink
Dear God... please forgive me
I should've never danced with the devil

Hes breaking my soul
He doesnt even know
He sees a light in me
Im just tryna enlighten me
Im fighting me
Its frightening
He cant see
Hes blind to me
What am i to me ?
Nothing but a broken piece .

He was amazing. Which sort of scared me. Everything I've ever wanted was sitting right next to me holding my hand. I just starred at him gazing off as he spoke, watching his lips move. My pulse kept racing as the rain poured down harder and for a second I finally felt like the girls in the movies. Everything was so perfect in this moment and in this exact moment I wanted it to last forever. What could this turn into? Of course I wanted it to be love but could he see himself loving me? Could he ever think that I could be the one? Or was I just a fulfillment for something he was missing... someone he was missing. But that's just my insecurities jumping to conclusions. I was supposed to be saying all the amazing things about him but somehow I just got off track.

Everyone was so worried about... well nothing
I wanted to experience life
I experimented with things that could **** me
But made my soul feel... alive
Instead of feeling alone I wanted to feel vibrant
To feel like I was more than existing

I'm so tired of being on the verge of crying