I want to ******* to your favorite song, so every time you hear it you think of me.

I'd ask you if it looks real but you're nowhere to be found
     I call your phone
           It rings
   But that's the only ******* sound
       I wonder the man I'd be if you had chose to stick around
             As I'm smoking on these rocks and not the ones thats off the ground
                 The ones that cut deep and not just bare feet
     The kind the police always be searching for with the hounds
        I don't sleep or eat I feel cold in heat
        I can't ******* think unless I'm surrounded by a cloud
      But I start to crack, I'm not safe but claim I've got it on lock
             I was taught how to smoke by the boys up the block
            See they were there in your place and I forgot your face and its to the point the only thing I love is my squad
          I'm done talking to God
          And my dealer won't pick up
          So I keep up the facade my smile is not a mirage and my desert of cracked lips actually budge and the muscles push up and it isn't that hard
          And I'm talking just to myself
          Watching as I grin
          Trying to make a fake into perfection

Narcolepsy* hard and heavy watch me fall asleep
            Lulled to bed in a cunning thread of the tangled web we weave
    I dream in pristine colors, windows of my mind anew
No fingerprints or ***** looks or evidence of you

         I find comfort in forever wherever it may be
        I may have left my home but it will always stay with me
                 The smell of all the smoke with the sound of all the rain
   On constant playback every second deep within my brain

        I found that time is all that matters and everything else faded
        I spent years and years learning how to forget everything I hated
    I've only gotten older and have nothing left to show
              Except a ringing alarm clock and blood on my pillow

     Narcolepsy** hard and heavy watch me as I sleep
     Another pill, another high, another date to keep
      If I shall die before I wake, I hope that I'm with you
    Then it won't matter where I go, cause you will see me through

You don't miss someone at 2 in the morning, you're all alone.
You could miss anyone when you're by yourself.
You miss someone when it's 2pm, and you're surrounded by other people, but you just want that one person.
You miss someone when you're busy at your job, but you still find yourself reminiscing.
You miss someone when you're working-out, going for a run, and they're still in your head with every step.
It's easy to miss people when you have the time, when you're lonely.
But, the people who truly mean the most, the ones you really miss, are the ones you think about when you don't have the time to.
2pm people.  
The ones that occupy your thoughts no matter what.

One time, I asked you why you do things with me.  
You told me it was because you ******* loved it.
You didn't say me, you said "it."
You only see me for what I can do, and not for who I am.
That makes me sad.
And by sad, I mean sad for you.
I'm not just a sum of my ****** abilities.
I'm worth so much more than what you've defined me as.
Maybe you will only ever like the "it" about me.
But I will love all of me.

If you walk away,
Don’t try to come back
Because if you come back,
I can tell you how it’ll unfold
No matter where I am in my life,
I’ll automatically let you back in.
I’ll forgive you,
Even for things you haven’t yet forgiven yourself for
I’ll open back up
I’ll let you be in a position once again where you can destroy me
From the inside, out.
I’ll trust you.
Despite all of the negativity you have caused me,
I won’t be able to resist you,
And you know that.
You’ll stop chasing me
I’ll begin to chase you,
But we both know you’re faster
You’ll leave me shattered,
With cuts from my own broken shards
I’ll hold you accountable for my pain
I’ll hate you once again,
But I’ll hate myself more for handing you
My ability to be okay
I’ll slowly begin to pick myself up
And someone else will come along,
To help me glue myself together
Many pieces will be missing
The pieces you took with you,
Because you couldn’t admit that you didn’t want to let me go
I’ll move on
I’ll give my heart to someone else
And I’ll forget about you,
While you realize you loved me more,
Than you thought you would
You’ll begin to miss me more and more
Until you can’t bear it anymore
But I’ll be with someone else.
So please.
For both of our sakes,
If you walk away,
Stay away.

Always searching
Before I met you
Constantly longing for the
Day I'd find meaning

Eager to experience a
Feeling of tranquility
Guilty of impatience
Hardly alive

Incessantly awaiting
Joy and pride, with a
Kiss you showed me
Love like never before

My present, my future, my
Night and my day, you
Opened my eyes to
Peace and sweet serenity

Questioning love, no longer
Rather, I recognize that my
Soul and heart are yours until
Time comes to an end

Underneath all my flaws, you saw
Value and strength
Willing to love me unlike anyone else
X marks the spot which
You hold in my heart
Zero doubt now exists, my meaning is you.