-But why did I think
that carving your name into my thigh
would make you love me,
like it was some kind of sick ritual I could do to make you come back?

I never heard her say your name but I felt it in between each line she said. I could feel it in the quivering of her voice how much she missed you and needed you back. A mother should never have to bury her son.

We are the sun,
And we are the moon.
We rise for each other and sink back down too.
Together we're needed to make life move.
You need me,
And I need you.
You hide me in the dark when I need a break from day, and I lighten up when you need saved from night.
We light paths and save from the night.
Without darkness, there'd be no light.

I lost a part of myself when I let you in. You took me over slowly and then all at once, the way waves do in a storm. It all starts calm. It's truly beautiful in the beginning, but the damage after the tempest is often left not completely repairable for years. They say time heals all wounds, but maybe all time does it help us forget how broken we really are.

Just one touch,
come on
dont be scared.
Look me in the eyes,
tell me you'll be there.
send a shock through my body,
Run your fingers through my hair.
Melt my heart
with your laugh
and set fire to my cheeks
With you lips.
I don't need much,
But just a little touch from you.

Speed up my heart and stare into my soul
I'll show you all my deepest secrets
And you'll make me your fool.

When it's 3 in the morning
What haunts your mind?
what makes you weak and weep and whine?
Is it thoughts of me that break your heart?
Is it thoughts of us that tear you apart?
What makes you cry?
What hurts you inside?
What makes you flood and fear and hide?

Mom,
Come home quick.
I'm feeling suicidal
and i don't know if i can stop this.
I need you here.
Help me please.
I'm drowning here.
Breathe into me.
sometimes i slip, i cut and bleed.
Hold me close,
Hide the knives,
I've got deadly thoughts running through my mind...