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Roberta Day May 2014
Sheets of ice are melting
and so is the ice in my glass
I’m drinking it fast so I can spit
words about you, like why are we
doing this dance in sneak shoes?
Why don’t we throw them off and
everyone else and come together
before the caps melt and get
lost in the weather; let’s converge
my high pressure and your low
and blow everything away when
our winds merge and spiral out
of controlling hands—there will be
little sands left to lay, but our plans
will involve nothing and no one
day after day until we drown in
the global flood pooling closer;
if you’re not ready to stay
I guess we’ll die alone
like we’re all meant to anyway
Roberta Day Jul 2012
Insignificant this day has been,
which I predicted far ahead
So why do I still hang low
my soppy, untouched head?

Expect the unexpected, and
you shall never be surprised
How does one not expect what’s
expected to save one’s cries?

My expression dismayed,
my heart flutters not
For on my day of birth,
my mother has forgot

I do not deserve a celebration,
I have come to understand
Those close in relation to I,
I failed to grasp their hand

To take hold of what is false,
my importance and existence
If thy blood shall not think of me,
why exhibit anything but resistance?
Yesterday was my birthday and my Mom didn't even remember.
Roberta Day Dec 2011
My infatuation meter is
on the fritz
It hasn't worked
since the reading of you
When I come in contact
with others,
no sort of result is
produced

The spark inside
has finally died,
and you're the one who drenched it
in crocodile tears -- claiming you're too weak
to face your fears...it's like looking
at a reflection of
myself this year...

We could have battled them all
      together
But instead we're settled to
     friends of fair-weather
I am the one who is suffering;
for
still today, you appear
                                      in my dreams

Decades from now,
I envision my
solitary conquest:
Success;
from recording my innards
I've always repressed
And of course,
an unfilled void, I fear not
to attest
All because that spark
inside me remained
unaddressed

But I have no more patience
or time to invest
in a folly; I'll rid
of my broken meter I
now detest
It died with you, now perhaps
your memory too
may be finally
laid to rest
Revised and retitled version of "Your memory may be finally laid to rest."
Roberta Day Apr 2012
You’ve shown me the light
at the end of the tunnel
But your words of steel
didn’t stop the train,
Nor did your hand on the lever

I’ve been hit with realization

The cloud of smog you’ve bellowed
Will no longer linger overhead
As the light funnels to a close
I pray the ring of this last call
Echoes throughout your skull
Roberta Day Dec 2012
Empty space
I've got an average face
And I've misplaced
My feelings on life

Howling for love
Is never enough
Whining is tough
To keep up for deaf ears

Preparing for the end
Arguing no one understands
Just hold out your hand
Someone will brush past

Making sense
Making cents
How does one save
A decent amount of pride?

I forgot to ask
The questions that matter
Too much mindless chatter
From my dry, tired tongue

Words bare and old
Actions rarely bold
This time I fold
And think myself to exhaustion
(so I accidentally forgot the first stanza when I posted this, whoops)
Roberta Day May 2012
There’s a harmony in my mind
I cannot achieve with my voice
I need one to accompany me
Singing solo is not my choice

A blend of soprano and tenor
or an enticing alto to carry
the faltering sound I emit
to make the sound less airy

Sweep me off my feet
with the beauty in your tone
and with vibrato to melt my ears
I no longer wish to sing notes alone
Roberta Day Mar 2014
10.

Why don’t you speak to me anymore?
When those winded instruments sound
descending down an imaginary tree
I wonder why you lied and
told me you were intrigued
You were so quick to vanish
and so difficult to find, securing
yourself in your own solitary confines
Even with your curiosity piqued,
I have not seen you in weeks.


3.

I see myself in you
and fear you see transparency
Time has never been accommodating
and I’m a terrible keep
Scattered, strewed, my mouth remains
We speak in text just the same
but our shades of color are too faded
to be seen by eyes so jaded

1.

Maturity at its peak
but time has its own agenda
and so do you (and your libido)
Distractions are brief
but I still feel my chest warm
when our eyes meet
Words can’t express the
splendor you induce.
Almost makes me want to puke.
The numbers are letters
Roberta Day Sep 2013
I’m ready to SHOUT

and yell

and scream

and cry
when all of you, faceless sapiens
drag on by, blissfully unaware
of the plague slaughtering droves
in my mind;


I’m ready to confess

and disclose

and attest
to the reasons why I shy away,
cold and detached as a lizard’s tail
lifelessly existing for a purpose
left in the dark to find;

                                                          ­      I’m damaged
                                                         ­  and I’m scared
                                                          ­                         I’m alone
                                                     I’m damaged and
                                                             ­    scared of being alone
                                                           ­                 

                            but shouting your fears
                               to those who don’t listen
                                  only carries to their ears
                                       as a minute *whisper
Roberta Day Aug 2011
You were my first slow-dance

Gladly, my first true romance

So delicate, so passionate

a fruitful leap I took with you

With trust and beliefs

in whatever we do

You profoundly adored me

and I achingly cherished you…

Hovered over me high in the air

On that menial item we call a chair

Sadly, it was I, the one that put you there
Roberta Day Apr 2012
A poet doesn't lie,
       a poet omits
the suppressed thoughts and sensations
she will never forget
The painful memories she hopes to create,
       The ill-tempered words
       tied to strings of hate that
L o o p--
             a reoccurring
             pattern of
              maladjusted
             thinking

  A sense of dread churns in your gut,
writhing behind your chest cavity,
invading your consciousness,
shutting it down

       Perspiration begins,
and the rattling in your bones
Nausea sets in,
    reeling your blood
   It's happening again,
            this you know,
but time will not tell
when this attack will go

Your throat constricts
                   while time afflicts
everything you've kept inside--
the emotions you've kept alive
       when you should have set them free
captives of your debauchery
they've transformed into something ugly,
           the wretch of scorn and self-pity
and have unleashed their vengeance
for smothering them with poisons
       depriving them of breath,
and of their destiny

They're doing unto you,
what you did unto them,
       killing you tediously,
disrupting your mind with
   irrational fear
and depleting the dopamine
transmitted through your system
to plague you with indifference
towards reality
          The symptoms it carries
manipulate your thought-process,
restarting the l o o p--
                     a reoccurring
                     pattern of
                      maladjusted
                     thinking
Tried something different with the formatting. Feedback appreciated :}
Roberta Day Oct 2011
I want to sleep forever and reside in my dreams
           To frolic through a collage of different spectacles and scenes
                An escape from the insufferable, cruel world at large
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever so I can live in my dreams
           The ruler of the lands, the queen of all kings
               With nothing to fear but the darkside of the conscience
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever and fight my inner demons
        Provide peace of mind for all bothered and exhausted
              Float on utter bliss; those monsters, I'll never miss
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever and never show sadness again
        Bright, long-lasting smiles on weekly sullen days
             Created and maintained in a variety of ways
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever to erase everything
       I want to sleep forever and feel warmth again
           To bathe myself in content that won't ever end
Let me sleep forever
Roberta Day Feb 2015
Creature of magnificence
I am ecstatic to see you glow
You’ve been lost in shadows cast
by those you want to know
You are more than what you think
though at times it may seem
your worth is less than zinc,
the final page from a ream
  I know the light is there
I can feel it in your stare
your fingertips move mountains
and quiet fountains of despair
Your words can build temples
  and leave them in ruins
Your mind screams for purpose
while abiding outside influence
  The system is broken
and we are broken too
and we fill our cracks with darkness
but the light always shines through
:]
Roberta Day Jan 2013
I was raised well and right--
kind, loving, and bright--
but I do not glow
nor drink in light,
for this world I know
teems with walking plight--
preying on silent sighs
cracking loony smiles,
leaking crimson through
pearl bones baring
unfathomable truths

One lesson I've learned
from this congested city
is to remain optimistic
Bathe in the cold
that is the shoulder turned
Keep your eyes wide
so they dry faster when burned
and your cheeks glisten like
the dance of water's reflection

Seethe with laughter
under our calm,
cratered companion
Bleed placid volumes
of heightened reality
and inject the poison
of furrowed brows and
whimpering pleas into
every failed attempt
at hiding your shadows cast
by the foreboding full moon
Be what's been shining
towards a better you
Roberta Day Apr 2021
You maniacal clown
Disguise your desires
with a ****-serving brow
and a ****-eating grin
Thicken your tongue
with salivary persuasions
tingling with malintent
Shredding my mouth
so it hurts to speak
Infiltrate my neurons
until they’re rewired
and I have no more desires
I'm jumping in late but better late than never.
Roberta Day Apr 2014
I am happy
I am bursting tears
eyes pouring like faucets
at every facet of being

I can feel, I can fly
I am floating to the sky
trailing chemicals of dopamine-
induced highs

I am not scared
without gravity's hold
falling is easy, fast, free
death is instantaneously

The wind is roaring
my voice quivers
my body shakes as
as your body shivers

I am spiraling
in love, in vain
I am aiming for death
to keep myself sane
It's happened again.
Roberta Day Apr 2015
I lied again and said some words were
the last I'll say about you
but I thought of one more pretense;
I ******* hate you, you know
You're just like my Mom
in the sense of saying things you'll never do
and saying you'll do things you've never done
Delusional and high strung
Determined but so done, with everything and
everyone.
I don't know why I still hold out
waiting for your words, I laugh they're so absurd
coming from the horse that can't fix its own hooves
Please don't say you miss me
or want to see me
or you'll be there
Because it's all lines to feed -- your ego
and my need for reassurance
just to put another hold on your obligations
a little bit longer
some sort of attending to your problems
that have built up so high they're bound to spill
any time now, very soon
because you're awful at staying connected
and getting back to people
and showing you care -- because deep down you don't
and even then you're more dead than alive and repeating lines
you stole from somewhere, someone you felt thrive
before you decided they weren't unique enough
Roberta Day Feb 2014
It's surprising I
am no longer surprised
   I am not shocked
I am not fazed
  I've pictured and calculated
every possibility
of every outcome
spooling through the wheel
of the dual-coded reel
  It helps me to feel
like I'm in control
like I'm protected
like I can handle being rejected
   but it's ninety percent ineffective
It's dark in here
this film is wrecked
flashing the same scene
skipping and flickering
as if not meant to resume
  ultimately never to end
I can only pretend
between what I see and what is real
is where I'm meant to be
robotically ethereal
Roberta Day Jan 2014
Tired, too tired to think anymore
mapping who's taking the bed and who's taking the floor
when it's bedtime for one + one more
I won't sleep easy on the other side of the door
How many drinks was too many for him?
Is she as drunk as he or merely attached to his hip?
Why didn't I drink til my vision blurred
so I wouldn't care to hang on every enunciated word
Stuck on the tricycle, always the third wheel
without an outlet to express the feelings that I feel
I stow away behind my teeth the words I keep because
I'm weak and wish I had the strength to speak,
to know the change I seek
The tension is seeping from my dead eyes and
this endearing disguise will be all you will see
Roberta Day Feb 2014
to write feelings is painting
language upon the fabric of time
and space to see your face’s
true expression without alteration
in mirrors or shiny surfaces
get lost in the mirror when you’re
seeing shapes dance—watch your skin
melt and your eyes bulge; fall into
yourself and emerge anew
encapsulate all the good you can do
time-released splendor
swimming through your system
giving temporary wisdom yet
exhausting vision—seeing the world
as it was intended to be seen
vibrant, saturated—nothing unclean
and being crushed by gravity
when your kaleidoscope filter fades
remember the sensations and
wear them as security
Roberta Day Dec 2014
why try anymore
why stand from the floor
why speak over a roar
why commence action
why repeat interaction
why sentence construct
when I'm interrupted
why decide when time
keeps on--why contemplate
why this apathy
     despond
melancholy
why this grim mask
life moves so fast
brain's slowing down
mouth stops speaking
thoughts flicker away
no memories today
feeling sedated
tranquilized
catatonic
mute
Roberta Day Apr 2014
It travels to my toes and
  tingles my extremities
It’s the peak of an early morning stretch
  the last sensation of a sneeze
It happens when you laugh or
  when I envision your face
It matters not the time or place
I’m left staring at blank walls
  just to picture you
I could write a book of all
  the feelings I want to spew
I anticipate an eruption
to happen rather soon
I fear I may smother you
  in my molten affection
and you’ll run for safety to a
far place for your own protection
And only I, because I too strongly yearned
  will inevitably be the one burned
(still terrible with titles)
Roberta Day Sep 2011
A burning desire for change;
A lack of courage or will
A loathing for what revolves the world;
A face printed on a pine green bill

A fixed way of life;
A reoccurring depression
A longing for something nonexistent;
An evolving experience to teach a lesson

A loss of interest;
A depletion of confidence
A slew of captivating faces;
An overactive conscience

A bond lost to dishonesty;
An end to faith in humanity
A new outlook, new perspective;
A bundle of positive thoughts collected
Roberta Day Aug 2022
Savor it
Entwined limbs
circulating warmth
Lips sealed together
A misty evening,
thanks to the weather
Minds connected
Harmonious scents
from private places
Serenity among faces
Calloused hands
rubbing forever
A feeling I want
to last
Roberta Day Nov 2018
Have you met my friend Shame?
He’s not really my friend, he’s kind of a **** actually
Yet I keep him around
He’s not the best company,
he really brings me down.
I don’t ask for his opinions, he just barks them at me
telling me you’re stupid, you ****
you’re not good at anything
you don’t care about anything, really
you’ll never be where you want to be
He hovers like the annoying office-space pusher
and drones on, and on, and on
about how it doesn’t matter if you feel good
because you’re never gonna be good
and how everything you do is inadequate
(compared to whom, I have no idea)
and everything you say is incorrect
(on what scale, I can’t imagine)
and how you will never be able to accept
what you think you deserve
because you don’t deserve anything
(how dysfunctional to say)
And while this nihilist is that and more,
I continue to bade in his company
Buying into his lines a little deeper each time
He has quite the convincing nature,
for he just keeps going on and on
He says I don’t deserve anything
I definitely don’t deserve this
Roberta Day Jun 2014
I feel for so long like I’ve focused
on selecting the right words
and stringing them together poetically
my speaking voice has suffered
and word ***** ensues, bits of
chewed up residue from when I
had a coherent thought
I speak in breaks
          pauses
I peruse my inner word bank
and waste time deciding on
which ones to choose
rather letting them flow
as a stream of consciousness
Roberta Day Nov 2012
Long ******* day
Short night
They say there aren’t enough hours in a day
I don’t think they are right
Darkness can shroud me in its
suffocating void for many
blue moons and I would still loathe the light
For the day brings headaches,
annoyances, a disgust for humans,
and the familiar, which I wish to leave behind
The light is a blaring reminder of the opportunities
I have not seized, the automatons that drive the streets,
and in the grand scheme of things, this life
I am too frail and meek
The night provides peace from
the overwhelming sun-inspired activities
that I don’t have the strength to sustain
I feed from the void, tasting the insane,
satisfying nothing but a harrowed
mind with empty thoughts
I am hungry for the night
Roberta Day Jun 2014
Early afternoon rain
crusted eyes cracking open
at the trickling sound of
pattering puddles

Moisture conforms you
hugs dry skin tight
frizzing stray hairs
leaving them a flight

There is peace
tranquility in this moment
Waking the mind
resolving the heart
Roberta Day May 2014
I used to think there was something
I dunno, attractive
about disorganization—
a scattered mind, having too many thoughts
to say at once, unable to focus on just
one thing because their attention is caught
by so many things they consider interesting
or insightful—I found it quirky, intriguing; a mystery
to be explored, a mind in need of dissecting
But it’s really more of a burden than
anything endearing, because it’s frustrating
to never feel like your words are correct
or your own, like you ripped them from a book
or only spit them for this poem
it’s disheartening to never be taken seriously
because of how frantically you lose track
of your subject and yourself
It’s shameful to be invaded because of this quirk,
but only for a short time
because the baggage is too heavy
and everybody’s hands are too full
Roberta Day Feb 2013
i. He takes at least five breaks for fuel
And four breaks to ***
He strolls in a half hour early
To eat alone in peace

ii. His walk has a cadence
An enlightened stride
Like he’s never late
And always unwind

iii. He is seemingly not bothered
By minor inconveniences
He does not mind when I
Apologize for obstructing his path

iv. Sometimes he says goodbye
Sometimes he does not
Sometimes I say hello,
Sometimes, I cannot
Roberta Day Sep 2014
My heart aches from your words
Don’t make assumptions of me
when you don’t know who I am,
only what I reflect of you
We’re moving too fast
Emotionally I’m unstable
Mentally unable to understand
why I feel such grief at the
idea of happiness within
my reach? Because on the
other side there is terror
of unknown waters, and I
will definitely sink instead
of swim because my legs are
tired of kicking back the demons
of uncertainty; drowning in
my own ocean of sobs,
all because I’m sensitive to
the pain of others, and I want
to hurt none or leave anyone
to ache as I do; so I hoard all
of me and what I give to you—
serenity dissolving to apologies
when I owe nobody but me.
Roberta Day Oct 2015
We’re so bad
Partners in crime
Breaking house rules
Ignoring the time

Scheming in the night
Intensity matched
Struck together

a fervency as active
as a constant eruption
filling our lungs with gasps

Keep my hands to yourself
and I’ll keep yours close
Don’t give them back

Reawakened, I kindle this fire
for it is a precious warmth
I will put out if I breathe too deeply

and it’s getting cold out…
Roberta Day Apr 2017
I emptied my chest;

An old casket encasing

a dying blood pump.
Roberta Day Nov 2014
I guess I’m really the fool
to keep tripping over beards
that have no intention of being kept,
just spreading the seeds of leftover
crumbs and dried up *** from
one pair of legs to the next
I should’ve known, I had been warned
The signs were seen miles away
but I’m an aimless wanderer in search
of I don’t even know so I missed
them by a year of ******* around
Eight in nine—a personal best
but on whose bedpost do I perch to nest?
Roberta Day Nov 2020
I want to stay up late and write about everything I hate
Everything stemming from a lack of humanity
Why am I living through this time of insanity
Is it to make me stronger, capable of anything great?
It is more pain and struggle to endure
More thoughts to flood my waking mind
and stifle my gasping breath
What a time to be alive
when close contact is killer
and true vulnerability is exposure
When connection is weak and the circuits are short
Isolation is preferred to stave that depression wave
that everyone rides at some breaking point or another
The swell is huge and I have had my fill
Swimming to the bank to cash my earnings in clothes
Drinking alkaline for balance over all of the swill
Doomsday prepping for anything goes
Leaning on what’s left of my will
Quarantine life kinda blows.
Roberta Day Dec 2014
I think it’s hard for me to stay open
because I’ve been securely bound together
by a thick bind of resistant glue
I snap shut because I’m not used to
displaying all my content for eyes to peruse
I’m written on pages to send your soul on a walk
through caverns with deep trenches of fear
I want to be known through the words I select,
the ones I need you to hear
Read a little deeper, give me your attention
follow the sequential bouncing ball
I’ll whisper through these dry pages
what I feel before I ruin us—ruin me
from not professing to you at all.
Been in my drafts for too long. Always relevant.
Roberta Day Jul 2013
I’m tired of silences,
lingering and vapid,
exhausting our connection waiting
to be founded by our lips too busy
sipping distilled influences so
that we might have the courage to
give ourselves away
Promise me your gaze
by showing me some truth
and swear on your last sip you've
never been this exposed
Confide in me your current thoughts,
despite the dancing static generating
from the nerves bubbling your insides
Let's spill our guts rather these beverages
and soak up our regurgitations
with dry expression, absorbing every
last bit of dejected rejections
Speak erratically and emphatically;
my preference is your face bolded
with a gleam in your eyes,
quotationed brow, and when you blink,
I'll drink your experiences, glean your aimless
journey, until I'm intoxicated by your
imperfect perspective
Roberta Day Aug 2011
Passive-aggression?
I'm withholding feelings I'm afraid to mention
You'll judge me with your intellect and wit
I'll deal with myself how I see fit

I'm comfortable, yet always on guard
This isn't how things are supposed to start
I only care to please you
But I've failed myself, and can't help but continue

I've put you on a pedestal, despite your flaws
You're everything I want because you're everything I'm not
I seem to be losing confidence in myself
Constant contemplation, refutation...

There are so many things I wish to say
I feel the opportunity continues to slip away
I'm too slow to grasp the concept of initiative
So this passive, ambiguous life, I'll continue to live
Roberta Day Aug 2013
I can’t stop dreaming of you
  and your astral projection
won’t stop sauntering
into my alternate universe
where our bodies collide
and you wriggle and writhe
underneath me.

I’ve become fixated with you
  and all the sounds you make;
your ragged breaths
and guttural guffaws
and the quiver
in your libidinous voice.

I find myself daydreaming
of your magnificent eyes,
bristling bright with fervor
as my vocal chords
give more pleasure
to your skin
than your ears.

I wish I could sleep for days
just to have you
      All to myself
on the alternate plane
of pleasure
Weak title but meh.
Roberta Day Jun 2015
I wish people stuck
around like they like to
stick you with feelings
Roberta Day Jun 2016
Inspired enough to write a touch
about what’s been going on
To review, let’s hop back to when
I redacted my word, regarding the only one
who prompts me to bite my tongue
when I say something absurd
which is rarely, more like I never show
that unsavory side of me, though
I know I really should
Because he has little shame when
attempting to diffuse pain so he
dished it the easiest way he could
But my philosophy is some things
just aren’t meant to be,
but I am the only one who declares,
though it’s never that easy;
If you believe, things can happen
so I never lost hope on that one
and we tied that knot by our tongues,
crossed our pinkies and our legs
and fell for the diamonds
in the rough of rotten eggs
Finding happiness with each other while
finding happiness within ourselves
is what I’ve always wanted
but without the wedding bells
A stretch of land measures between our hands
and is the ultimate wall of separation
But life is paving the way for some kind of break
from all these trials and tribulations
I believe we’re on the right path so as
long as we don’t stray, the future will be
a full and satisfying plate
In the span of a year, we've come so far.
Roberta Day Mar 2014
With you, it’s all mechanics.
Engineered reactions, if they register at all.
The gears never stop turning until
you ask me what do I want, and the
only thing I can think to say is
Not you" so I say I’m unsure.
I lie, automatically. I’ve been
programmed to hide how I feel, but you’re
the engineer trying to fix me, to
rewire my intangible feelings.
I like to play with you, and lay with you.
But I can not see myself staying with you.
I care for you, about you, but I will never
fall in love with you. Your scent fills my nostrils
when we are together, but doesn’t linger
after we part. I want you to stay in my life, but
there is no special den for you in my heart.
My heart is heavy with the absence of passion,
the weight of the guilt bogs down my senses.
I lay lifeless, cold.
Roberta Day Aug 2011
You are all hollow bodies with vacant minds

I sadly continue to waste my time

Ignoring my instincts, complying with you

Such a fool I am to disregard the obvious truth

You’re all designed for social situations, never obligations

Engineered for leisure, whatever is easier

Too blinded by toxins, too apathetic towards authority

You are the majority of this dispersing minority
This was something I wrote late at night on tumblr. I'm sure I was inebriated, also.
Roberta Day Aug 2014
Redundancy.
I read my words
and I’m sickened,
that you had this
effect on me. I read
them and I’m fatigued
by the redundancy.
I have nothing to say
that hasn’t been said
in the same way
only reconstructed
to better play the illusion
of new ideas and
some sort of change.
There is always the basis
the substance of being
the substance being
my overactive feelings
and constant repression
of what makes me alive—
this feeds the depression
and I cry when I think
and I’m dead when I don’t
I’m lying when I speak
and lying when I don’t
I’m fighting every day
my feelings when I
have them, and finding
every day, I have more than
I can fathom, and I can’t
always put into words
how or why I feel things
so I tend to repeat
what comes naturally
and when I reread
I am exhausted by
my own redundancy.
Roberta Day Feb 2012
Death is among us

it breathes and lingers,

capturing the unexpected

with its alluring fingers

It's so overwhelming

knowing each breath could be your last

The things that get you

are the things from your past

Some don't deserve it,

some crave its touch

Some have decided

that they'd like it very much

To see the light,

to see the dark

To see the one

that bares the mark

Something more powerful

is out there for sure

Everything happens for a reason

I have to concur

Death is among us,

taking the selected

But to take Ethan Khan,

that was just unexpected
I wrote this my junior year in high school after someone I knew died.
Roberta Day Feb 2015
I need to trust in love and not make a fuss
when a day or week passes without reassurance
  that what was said is still believed
when I have no reason to disbelieve
I just love too deep and when you don't exercise
you're weak and I've repressed my heart for
so long it yearns hard when it's unguarded
Ultimately, the fence falls because I've been rocking
on it too long and then I'm uncertain where to stand
I want to lean on you but worry you've had enough
of being somebody's crutch
I just want what we all desire;
an unhidden connection with someone
who loves me as much as or more than I do them
It is said patience is a virtue
but who cares about high morals anymore
when commitaphobes run abound
because everyone's at least once given their hearts
to someone on the opposite spectrum
to leave them in pieces by misdirection
But like a 10,000 piece puzzle, with time
and patience, it can be put together again
If all hearts are broken or closed off completely,
how will I ever find one to reciprocate my love so freely?
Roberta Day Jan 2015
I like tight clothes
for they still hug me
when everyone goes
Roberta Day May 2012
My eyes don’t meet your mystery ones
because I’m afraid you’ll see
the absence of light in my cores
and conclude we’ll never be

My eyes shy from yours,
but not for why you think
I’m hiding the lack of twinkle
behind closed lids when I blink

Empty, which of us is empty?
At this point, I can’t tell
Your touch doesn’t titillate me
Au contraire, it makes me dwell

I don’t wish to discourage
though I do it rather well
I’m tense and distant, yes
How ever could you tell?
Met a guy. Didn't work out.
Roberta Day Aug 2012
Words have escaped me

There is nothing left to say

I’ve swallowed my emotions

It’s just another day

Another day of self-hatred

For everyone else’s actions

I’m hoarding all the blame,

For I have no distractions

This unnecessary guilt

For things I haven’t done

Is tearing me apart

From myself and everyone
Roberta Day Jul 2014
Caffeine curdled with cannabis
a rushing stream of nerves
corrupting my senses
  stalling the hunger
  arousing the amygdala
     to focus on what?
Connaturally knowing
through text I display
sketchbook paper smudged
with charcoal black
the color of my mood
  keeping my will at bay
Too many words
not enough time
   relative to all
   conceptually absolute
  mentally resolute
emotionally destitute
Roberta Day Mar 2012
Sleep; an essential part of life--
a non-essential part of my night
I shall not travel to the land of slumber and
imagery that leave me to ponder and
decipher the undertone of my unconscious desires

Sleep, you will not store my memories tonight
You play as something illusory occuring past midnight
You vanquish the beginning of my day
and I fall victim of the bed to lay
for hours and hours when there is much to do,
much to ignore, and to fail to follow through

Sleep, I won't succumb to your relieving wiles
You interrupt my mind's process of files
and collages of information
Admittedly, you aid in the retention
of the aforementioned,
but I'd rather learn than burn away
precious time improving myself--
documenting my imbalanced mental health
or recreating art I wished I produced

Sleep, though I love the lucid dreams you induce,
sometimes they make me become more of a recluse
because I never want them to end,
so I stay alone to reenact and pretend that
for just a little while longer,
I can feel passion again

I've been desensitized in a chimerical fashion
I cannot endure this now so I'm commencing action
Sleep, I'm taking a break from your comatose spell
and the ephemeral dreams you compel
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