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When I was a little girl,
About eleven years old.

I saw how the world ended,
And how it turned cold.
 Aug 2019 Rickie Louis
Mari
I suppose it wasn't
because I scared you off
But rather
you cared about her
More
than you cared about me
5-28-18
Just a little something that's been sitting in my journal for a while now
I visited my girlfriend in the hospital
after her appendicitis operation.
she looked good
and her smile made me smile

"I made a friend," she told me.

There had been another girl in the room with her
and this girl,
she was in the hospital because she sprayed a whole
can of bug repellent into a cup and drank it

"Why?" I asked.

"Oh, well," said my girlfriend. "You wouldn't understand.
Let's just say she wanted to **** the butterflies
in her stomach."

"Okay."
otherwise I would keep
a diary or a journal instead

I sing to be heard
otherwise I would sing
in the shower

some like me
some don’t
most can’t figure me out

most can’t figure themselves
out either –

ya’ll just need to take a breather
 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
Lighter
I wonder how much longer I can go on like this
When is sick sick enough
I know im not right
I know I need help
But I fight with myself on how bad I really am
In my world 60kg isnt low enough
Whats wrong with 55kg?
Is a day without food guilt enough to have some the next?
Or will I yet again draw that blade across to remind myself that I gave in?
When is enough enough?
 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
monica
she walks the winding path,
between the dawn and dusk.
a sennight of her wrath,
the empty shell-like husk.

a girl that used to be,
was a privilege to know,
now a burden; dare agree,
keep her safe lest she shall go.
 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
monica
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 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
monica
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i will be awake to watch the day bleed into night,
when the sun is replaced by the bitter moon.

retrospectively, i feel i should be contrite,
alas, i am not one to change my tune.
 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
monica
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 Jul 2019 Rickie Louis
monica
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the shell of a girl i once was,
walks in my place with a smile,
small talks from my repetoire,
makes me seem worthwhile.

i regret the lines i have written,
remorse what i have not yet done,
with the fake image i hence became smitten,
no lies may second to none.
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