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GODNYX Oct 23
Maybe we can—
but I can’t.
I can’t continue on this path,
I can't destroy myself for you.

I cherished my life,
gave everything I had,
but I know,
it’s not enough.
I understand,
but I can’t do this anymore.

I’ve had enough.
I want to live,
live my own life,
not in your shadows.
I can’t be who you want me to be.

I want to escape.
To breathe,
to be free from all of you.
I can't even breathe here

"Calm down; you’re overthinking it."
No, I’m not.
It’s not me
It’s you.
You’re the ones playing with my mind,
driving me mad.

I’m scared.
Terrified of living like this,
of living with you.
I beg you,
please,
let me go.

Let me go.
Let me go,
and let me live my life
GODNYX Oct 23
I Am a Sinner
I am a sinner,
My mind is a mess.
Where I find comfort,
I sleep the deepest rest.

I should say,
I am a sinner
For I sleep
While my mother is dying.

I am a sinner,
For I eat,
While my mother is starving
GODNYX Oct 18
Degrading myself for entertainment bring's me joy
Talking down to myself bring's me pleasure
Which i never had with any women
My friend said women are something to mess with
I don't know if that's true
But my land lady, she is a beauty who came straight from heaven

I want to ravish her
I want to degrade her
To drag her by legs into my world
But that feels like a crime
I am a criminal
Punish me
I am a sinner
With a mind gone rouge
I cannot think straight i am sick with vulgarity
My hands feel empty Is that why she doesn't **** with me?
But can with my friend
Who is a dog walking around streets for food?

Maybe she muses animals
I know she has a loose ****
I should focus my mind somewhere more productive
Where i can do something
Where my mind can stop wandering in the day light
But the dawn light
Isn't that inviting criminals?
To ravish women like slaves
I am sorry. i don't know why wrote something like this but i feel like a dog. i shouldn't be alive. i am sorry if anyone felt offended
GODNYX Oct 2
You're telling me everything's changed now.
But who changed, and what even changed?

The man you loved,
the one who never respected you,
who never treated you right—
he’s changed?

The house you live in,
where you're treated like a slave—
that place, that hole, has changed?

Or is it the fact
that your man killed your child
because he wanted a boy—
did that change?

And what about the guy who waited outside
while you cried?
The one who shared your pain,
stood by you,
the one you pushed away
because he asked for your love—
has he changed?

Yet here you stand,
telling me everything’s different,
even though your eyes are still red,
and you didn’t sleep a wink last night.

Your man was drunk,
beating you,
and you remembered your child.

Nothing’s changed, my love.
You’re still the same girl who dreams,
even though they’re just dreams.
And I’m still just a guy
in love.
It's more like a story. i want to convert this into novel. i hope if i ever start, i can continue writing it and can even finish the novel so wish me luck
GODNYX Oct 1
If the devil saw you,
he'd kiss your eyes
and might turn back to the Lord,
for in you, his creation is nothing but beautiful.
Even the angels are at a loss.
Those gleaming eyes,
and soft lips calling my name—
how could I forget such a thing?
I am just a man,
not a being who can resist the urge
to keep you close.
I saw a similar haiku, so I just added more, making it a short poem. I am still learning, so if you guys have any advice, do share it with me. Thank you so much
GODNYX Sep 29
Simple but never dead
The words left hanging in the air,
Unable to catch them,
They fall to the ground,
Buried deep inside not to live,
Not to die but remain unknown,
Hidden from people left alone,
Covered in a blanket
Not long ago, left behind.

I still dream of you,
Not too much,
But sometimes, when it rains,
My mind wanders to your home,
Thinking of you.
GODNYX Sep 29
He fell in love,
watching her dance in front of the crowd,
each movement a whisper of freedom.
But once they were together,
he caught her grace,
never allowing her to dance again—
not once, nor did she rebel.
Is this love?
I see people thinking it is about love, but it's actually not.
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