i miss writing,
even more than i miss you.
but you were my writing,
my hopes,
my inspirations,
my dreams,
and my heartbreaks.
but now you're gone...
and so is my writing

I tell him to go deep.
Deep into my soul

I tell him to go harder.
To break down my walls

I tell him to go faster.
I needed our ******

All that's said and done.
I lay here legs shaking & out of breath.
Exhausted
Now I'm alone.
He did all that work.
Built me up.
*Just to leave me to pick up my pieces

Today i had a terrible day
So bad that I don't know what to say
I won't let her see the tears in my eyes
As we're saying every single goodbye
I know its fast but I truly care
And for her I'll always be there
Whether in a way as best friends forever
Or as lovers sharing passion together.
But what makes love
What makes these feelings shove
Shove their way into our hearts
Hearts that bleed and yearn displayed as arts
Arts for all to study and askew
Askew that which they mean and their views
Views are all that we require
Require morality to light the fire
Fire inside of each of our hearts
Hearts with burning passionate parts
Parts that push and pull our blood
Blood that makes these feelings flood
Floods that bring love in our lives
Life filled springs cut short by knives
Knives that slice right through our flesh
Making us feel like just mere mesh
Mesh with the world and discover love
Love that conquers all of the above

i will never feel lonely as long as your name can float up on my phone.
you are the ocean surrounding me, but i don't feel like you'll sweep me up.
because you won't.
you just gently rock me over beaches.
you know where to take me.
i thought, since i was so surrounded by you,
i needed oxygen.
so i found oxygen in another.
but after sustaining me for 9 months,
he left.
i felt panicked, because surely the water would drown me.
i was wrong.
you kept rocking me, gently swaying me back and forth.
i underestimated you, i had no faith in you.
but you never let me drown.

It hurts
You feel empty
Like no one will ever know

The pain is crippling
Takes you down in a moment
Impossible to stand back up

Where's the light at the end of the tunnel
The rainbow after the storm
The color in the picture

It's all gone
It's disappeared
It's empty

But you have to stand up
You have to hold your ground
You are important

There will be a light
There will be a rainbow
The color is still there, just open your eyes

Stay, stay, stay.