The young girl had so many letters, words, sentences, and paragraphs that she pondered
but every time she opened her mouth
the scratchy invisible barrier, that was dug and buried deep inside of her halted her

I'm not the kind of tired that can be fixed with an hour nap or full nights rest
I'm physically and mentally exhausted
I'm tired of the world and the harsh reality that there is cure of depression
Some days i wish i could just go to sleep and never wake up
But i'm so selfless that continue putting on a fake smile and trudge through the days
Its so ******* exhausting
I don't know how much longer i can go

I could hear the silent tapping from the snow against the window
The only light to be seen within miles being the round moon
It was a cold, grim, and dark night
The sadness in the air was overwhelming
The black page sitting on the dark wooden table
No thoughts no feelings to arise

I wanted love and a soulmate
He was kind and really funny
And with a smile that could have females swooning over him
As i got to know him more
He became distant and toxic
I was blind to it all
I keep telling myself that he wasn't like the rest
I heavily believed in forgiveness
And second chances
I really thought he was the one
To sweep me off my feet and away from the crude world we live in
But i was living in a dream, hoping on a fairy tale to come true
But the real world is cruel and fearful
He eventually got tired and bored of me
And threw me anyway like i was trash
Like i was a little game for him when he got bored
Tell me Why should i trust or try
When everyone leaves and breaks me in the end

He was kind and sweet
He made the promises
That girls like me admired

I was naive and innocent
Was neglected from those in my life
Desperate for attention and praise
I believed and trusted him

Days went by and he changed
He started to manipulate me
Promises of fulfillness broken
Made me feel worthless

And like i had no worth
Soon i looked in the mirror
And only saw what he saw in me
I looked in the mirror and did not recognize
who i was anymore

Forgiving is more than difficult and challenging

But if to not forgive or forget

You will live your life in regret and denial

Resent will build and build

For we are humans for we f*ck up and do things we deeply regret

For not to be excusable but responsible

If to imagine a world with them gone or hurt

Remorse and resent in yourself will imperfectly mix

Building a lifetime of continuous persistent regret

The question being is it worth it to not forgive and forget

For will you ever truly move on?