the other day i think i broke someone's heart
kissed another outside in the rain
holding hands in the back of the car
dancing my cares away at the party
while he watched me spiral into someone's arms
wrapped tightly
i invested everything into myself
i invested everything into someone else
should have listened when he said he loved me
should have listened when they said he was lying
broke all my feelings
he loves like he doesn't care about tomorrow
he looks at me like im the only girl in the room
and i can't get myself out of this problem now
overthinking about why i did what i did
him wrapping his fingers over mine
my arms around another's waist
a drunk kiss i can't quite piece together
whatever happened i know it was a moment in time
a moment shared by another moment of too much tequila
the other day i think i broke my own heart
kissed someone out in the rain
holding another's hands in the back of a car
dancing till i felt nothing but the air around me
not realizing he was watching me spiral into someone's arms
wrapped tightly

thirty minutes left I am restless
I am afraid of sitting here for too long
my legs are moving
I need to get out of here
walk
drive
something
these meds are making me crazy
but far better than the alternative
catatonic
depressed
dead.

I've been thinking about what it is to die.
And what it is to live.

We inevitably experience both.

Life is like a gift.
You may love, you may hate.
Some unfortunately return it.
You might waste it and throw it away unused.
You may be thankful, grateful for it.

It's all about what you do with it.

We are all marked with an expiry date
One we won't know until it's too late.

So take this gift and thank the giver.
That life is as good a reason to live for.

Remember that old uphill trail
We used to meander along
With matching footsteps
Under the sunlit canopy of leaves
Carving words for each other
On the bark of aged trees
Who may have known
what would become of us
But nevertheless smiled
acted as a blank canvas instead
And watched the moments
Filled with playful laughter
Peachy smiles
Lingering gaze
Warm caress
Unfold lazily between us
The winds of time
May have blown us miles apart
Our footprints may have long eroded
That sunlit canopy may have withered
And we may walk that trail
Only in our dreams
But those words are yet to fade
they were the voice of our soul
Etched into the lap of nature
And as I run my fingers along its rugged edges
I reminisce about you
And hope that wherever you are
You are thinking about me too