You couldn't tell by looking
Or even asking for that matter.
That I'm not alright.
Every day is the worst day of my life.
It's just a cycle
I think.
**** everything.
For the most part.
I mean. I do smile
When I see someone **** up.
Satisfaction comes from sadistic reaction.
That's just me.
I hate me.
But...
Who really likes themselves anyways?
Even the most narcissistic animals
Bathe in self pitty from time to time.
Though I've seemed to have drowned in it.
I like the smell of it.
It's hell.
But...
That's just me.
A selfish ****.
But you could never tell by looking..
Or asking.

I've built these flames so high
With passion that's eating me alive
They once served me
With their warm
Graceful licks
And angelic light
Guiding me
Comforting me.
Now,
Becoming so out of controll
I can't stand within one hundred miles
How I wish I didn't work so hard
To gain everything at once.
I just want it now.
I just want it all.
Consume me and take my body
Leave the ashes as proof
That
Slow and steady wins the race.
You will get there.
Don't let greed's vicious-
Serpent like tongue
Taste upon your motivation
It will rob you
Of everything.

It can't
Ever be
Like before
Before it was
Was before
And before it was
Was it ever be ?
So it is.

Silence
Unsolicited silence
Barging into the very midst
Of a lucid daydream
With intentions
To suffocate
A train of thought
Destined for elightenment
Perfectly executed
It despises all intentions
To become conscious
Blaring in monotone fashion
Silence
Deafening the very ears
That fall upon it.

Just a voice
Inside a void
Of lustful emphasization
His mother quick
To silence him
Before the deposition
In fear of recognition
Of her actions to be held
Accountable for raising another
**** stain like herself.
One time stand
Engraved with blood
Stamped across his head
The quiet voice
Inside the void
Spoke louder as he fled.
"You ******* *****
You wasted me
I never had a chance"
The tiny voice
Inside the void
A Victim
Of romance?

What do you want now
doorknocker?
Is my soul a seed
that which you'd like to take?
I know you come by
to shuffle your guilt
You promise me sufferings
from the grips of your gods hand.
Enter my household
Enter my house *****
Your words
they will leave you
Your words
they will not help
Behind enemy lines
I want your death
Stabbing, killing you flatline.
I know your name
Jehova, why do you run from me
I wish to give you pain
Visit me

If only it was easy
To peer inside the mind
And find a bench of solitude
Beneath a darkened sky

Where hopes and dreams
And all desires
Flourish upon the dawn
A place to gaze
And fellowship
Where nothing can go wrong.

If only I had courage
To venture on my own
A journey into mind
Can daunt a failing tone.

Oh mind can you hear me!
I'm calling in the dark
Hear me, hear me
Hear me now
I'm willing to embark

No guiding hands
To share this struggle
The echos of my cry
My mind has left me lost again
For that was it's reply

I Press my lips upon the pane
Of windows to the mind
Fog up the glass
And leave a note-
to try and **** some time.

"You were here, but now your gone,
I'll wait for your return. I cannot help to think about what my thoughts may learn"

The message quickly dissapeared
And left a haunting trace
A Reflection scattered in the mist
My hands now hold my face.

In shadows will I wait
for daylights guiding view
For now I'll watch upon the past
It's all that I can do.

Life always seems to surprise me
When your up-
Your only half way up
When your down-
There's more to go!
Get a grip
End this ****
Stick a shovel in the ground
And dig. my. grave.
Before it's to late
A prisoner of self entrapping thoughts
I can't be held responsible-
for all the time that we've lost.
Finish it- Dig my grave
Finish me- dig my grave

It's always growing
Collecting dust
This mountain of thoughts
Harboring rust.

Omitting a dark reflection
I can't help but stare
To ominous to wonder
How many might be there.

Unfocused, unkempt
Far to entangled to muse
This mountain of thoughts
Has left me confused

Too soon had I lost
Controll of it all
This mountain of thoughts
Needs to withdrawal.

Bleed out and purge
Alleviate the Pain
This mountain of thoughts
To much for my brain

A single serving of average
Nothing special
Less to salvage.

There's just one thing I long to do to you.
My minds fed up;
Frustrated.
I want to give you a *******
Facelift!
Staring at yourself
have you ever seen-
Your face so beautiful?
Have you ever been replaced
While watching it all go down?

I can't erase you from my mind
I can't controll the way I feel
Your memory
Consumes me
Like the cancer that you are.
I can't erase-
Or turn back time.
I'm so ******* sick from this
DEPRAVITY
CONSUMES ME
time to **** this ******* *****.

This times for real *****
Deep breath in!
Beauty...
It's only skin deep!
And so is my knife,
I'll erase you!
This times for real now
So let's begin!
Maybe it's always been me...
It's all in my mind,
I'll replace you.
REPLACE YOU!
IT'S ALL IN MY MIND [I'LL REPLACE YOU]

A N D
Nothing
Determined
                      Her value more
                      Than an injection-
                      Of opiates...
                                            In binary form.
It was a sad day for that lonely narcissist
When her battery decided....
                                             To toil no more.

I'm a monolithic man
           Forged from one grain of sand.
    When I die, I'll decompose as planned
                    Return back to ashes
                        Become the filth
                        That's consumed
                           By the masses

As I pass
Over and beyond you
I can feel the weight
of your envious eyes
Being lifted from me
As I pass
Over and beyond you
I can feel the weight
of your envious eyes
Being lifted from my shoulders
Why must you hate those who can fly?
Why must you hate me?
Your becoming smaller
As I ascend
Up this path towards myself
See you ******* later!

You've become a heretic
With every passing moment
As you search for the creator
You've become what's wrong-
With this world
And you will never find the path
The path to the saviour

Creating a god
From your own demons
Your consumed by uour own flame
Consumed by your own flame!
Return back to ashes
Return back to ashes
Return back to ashes!
I resent your ways!

My anger has gathered like a cloud
Ready to give birth to a new hell;
I'm no god of love!
You will be left astray,
To blindly-
Walk a path that cannot reach me
You will never reach me!

I'd like to whisper....
......I'd like to whisper....
                                          In your ear....
                                          With
                                          A
Shotgun.

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Lost inside
I'm falling to pieces
Darkness surrounds me but-
It's comforting
To know I'm not awake
I tried to be there for you
But I'm just to ******* selfish
To care at all
Anymore

Im tired of giving you everything
Haven't you taken enough from me?
I tried to find a way
To guide you through your mind
But we both got lost inside

The lies
Were pitiful
but they were our disease
Your eyes
Are beautiful
But they can't see through me.
Your not taking any more from me
Struck in a world of fantasy
I'll lay here by myself
In my own shallow grave
While I rot
And fade
Away.

And I drown myself
Inside this bottle
Once again

And all I have
To think
About

Is you
Again

If these walls could talk
They'd say we hate
The way you've been

Now all I'm left
To think about
Is how it
Ends.

Come and join the fun
This world has just begun
to get crazy
There's room for everyone
**** your life
It's not worth living

So follow me
Down this road
That No one knows of
Just the moon
And the stars
I'll take you
Far away
From this place
No one
Will find you there.

Once you leave with me
And finally see
What you've been missing
You'll never want to leave
They say that time
Is never ending

So follow me
Down this road
That No one knows of
Just the moon
And the stars
I'll take you
Far away
From this place
No one
Will find you there
As if youve
disappeared
I'll think I'm in the clear
But this is just an ordinary fix
For dealing with a world like this
End this
Is the end
Is the
End this
is the end
Is the
End this
Is the end
Is the
End this
Is the end
Is...
Jonestown.

One step over the line
With nothing left to dissect
You **** our innocent minds-
We the
People
Mindless follows
Divided by invisible hands
Plagued with fear
And
Deceit
To destroy the common man.
The floodgates have opened
We're all going strait
To hell
The floodgates have opened
And there's nothing you can do
To stop it.

Harvest the sheep
Nowhere to roam
Harvest the sheep
Unvail the wolves
Missapropriated minds
Cloth the people in
Blood
Stained
Wool

We've lost our innocence
It's all our fault
With Noone left to blame for our sins
Feast upon
the blood
The blood we spill.
Our only sustenance
Is the addiction of
Addiction of power.
We are going
Strait
To
Hell.

Purged by violence
Body distorted,
Weathered by ignorance.
Miles of shame beneath your feet
Exchanging pleasure for disease.
Lifeless and wrought
Contempt with your miserable life
Owned,
By a hypodermic puncture site.
Willingly you undress,
Your shamefully reflection;
To wolves of prey
With violent intentions.
Mentally inapt
Incapable of discretion
A spirit void waste of flesh,
Used for others accession
Your foreboding creation
A ceremony of pain
Unable to have an objection.

Flies on the fruit of your body;
A maggot nest
for nature's protection.
Falsified hopes
Stem from paralyzed delusion.
Drug induced comma
Keeps your pain in remission.
Transfixed by your own demise
7 masked figures lure you inside.
Thrown into the back of a van.
Oil soaked rags
Bind each of your hands
No sirens to chase you Down
Adorned in a bag,
Is how you'll be found.
Violently emancipated;  
cleansed of your pride.
Washed with gasoline,
To help you subside.
Set ablaze,
With violent reactions
***** no more.
Welcome to the procession.