you meet someone on accident,
wether they were in your freshman year calc class, or you ran into them at the grocery store
something about them draws you in
maybe it's their radiating smile, or their intoxicating eyes
they find a way to make your lips curve up in the happiest way
you start talking to them
this person makes you laugh,
they make you smile for the first time in a while
they start to become special to you
your interactions start increasing until you two are closer than ever
you have told them things you thought you'd never be able to admit
your long talks take hundreds of pounds off your shoulders
you don't feel trapped anymore
happiness can't help but flow through your veins
but after you've hit this peak, things will start to change
you won't talk as much anymore
your laugh will start to become weaker
that smile won't be as bright
their radiating eyes lose that certain effect on you
your talks become shorter and less meaningful
soon enough you will talk for the last time, but you won't realize it at the time
one day you will part like you usually do,
but that will be the last time
your calls will become vague, until they are nonexistent
you won't talk anymore
you won't effect each other anymore
and you won't think about each other anymore
you go back to your daily lives,
until you find someone new
and even then, the cycle continues.

i sit here and watch from a distance
my head angled down
i don't want you to see me looking at you
i don't want you to know i'm hurting
as i look at you, at your family
i remember everything
not just the bad times, but the good
sometimes the good memories hurt more than the bad
because we know that they will never happen again
they've just become a distant memory
a thought that will only bring me pain and hurt
a part in time that was pure joy, that you turned into torture
as i remember your words they cut me deep
a knife slices through my heart, leaving me with just the memories
the bitterness of the wind dances across my flesh
a shiver of loneliness goes up my spine
i sit here alone in the distance
pure hurt running through my veins

i am layered under books
i am buried by knowledge
my brain cannot escape
my mind isn't stable
i don't know your grammar
i don't understand your equations
my mind won't go uncluttered
my body can't relieve its stress
so i lay here
drowning in notes
with no knowledge in my brain
i take this final
to go home and take away the pain

i miss you when i lay down to sleep at night
i lay on the cold sheets, the ones you used to make warm
the emptiness keeps my eyes open and mind awake
i can still smell your cologne and my heart breaks
a chill goes through the air and you're not there to hold me
a tear slips down my cheek and you fail to wipe it away

i miss you when i wake up in the morning
i lay on the cold sheets, the ones you used to make warm
the emptiness surrounds me with an uneasy feeling
i can still smell your cologne and my heart breaks
a chill goes through the air and you're not there to hold me
a tear slips down my cheek and you fail to wipe it away

i dream of meeting you every day
the icon you've become inspires me to no end
your beauty intimidates me
your advice saves me
your kindness brightens my world
the words of wisdom that you speak keep the blade from hitting my wrist
the proof that **** gets better is shown through you
my last glisten of hope sparks in your eye
i know i can go on
because you keep me going
even if
i'm just another face.

i lay in bed with thoughts racing through my head
my body lays weak after a long days work
my lips slightly parted, leaving room for my breathe to escape
my hands grasp on to the blanket as a chill goes through the air
my eye lids fall heavy and i let sleep take over my body