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Sep 2018 · 316
presence
natalia reese Sep 2018
my skin crawls when you enter the room
i feel your eyes glued on me and i go stiff
it becomes hard to breathe but you would never know
i swallow hard, your eyes not leaving me
i feel the glares through my back and i forget how to act
your presence makes me forget how to be myself
i started a knew life with out you
but somehow you found a way to come back
Aug 2018 · 199
sleepless
natalia reese Aug 2018
i stay busy during the day to keep you off my mind
i physically exhaust myself, so i will fall asleep quickly
but you still keep me awake
the thought of how you're not mine
how we aren't together and i have nobody now
you were my everything
i lost you, along with my world
my smile,
my happiness.
so i lay here, unable to sleep another night
while you sleep soundly, all comfortable and tight.
Aug 2018 · 259
i miss you
natalia reese Aug 2018
i miss you when i lay down to sleep at night
i lay on the cold sheets, the ones you used to make warm
the emptiness keeps my eyes open and mind awake
i can still smell your cologne and my heart breaks
a chill goes through the air and you're not there to hold me
a tear slips down my cheek and you fail to wipe it away

i miss you when i wake up in the morning
i lay on the cold sheets, the ones you used to make warm
the emptiness surrounds me with an uneasy feeling
i can still smell your cologne and my heart breaks
a chill goes through the air and you're not there to hold me
a tear slips down my cheek and you fail to wipe it away
Jul 2018 · 149
together
natalia reese Jul 2018
i think about you every second of the day
even when i try, i can't get you off my mind
you're like super glue on my brain
tape on a present
butter to toast
two things that belong together
two people that belong together
but our force wasn't strong enough to keep us together
so maybe we don't belong together
but i like to think we do.
Jun 2018 · 171
on my mind
natalia reese Jun 2018
i lay here with you on my mind
the way your lips curve when your happy
how your eyes light up when you get excited
the way you tap your fingers on the table,
and the way it annoys me to no end
how you smell like a cloud
the way that i just want to jump into your embrace
have your strong arms wrap around me
have you whisper sweet nothings in my ear
the way that i can imaging your sweatshirt hugging my curves
how your the only thing on my mind
and how i wish i was on yours too.
Jun 2018 · 314
an endless cycle
natalia reese Jun 2018
you meet someone on accident,
wether they were in your freshman year calc class, or you ran into them at the grocery store
something about them draws you in
maybe it's their radiating smile, or their intoxicating eyes
they find a way to make your lips curve up in the happiest way
you start talking to them
this person makes you laugh,
they make you smile for the first time in a while
they start to become special to you
your interactions start increasing until you two are closer than ever
you have told them things you thought you'd never be able to admit
your long talks take hundreds of pounds off your shoulders
you don't feel trapped anymore
happiness can't help but flow through your veins
but after you've hit this peak, things will start to change
you won't talk as much anymore
your laugh will start to become weaker
that smile won't be as bright
their radiating eyes lose that certain effect on you
your talks become shorter and less meaningful
soon enough you will talk for the last time, but you won't realize it at the time
one day you will part like you usually do,
but that will be the last time
your calls will become vague, until they are nonexistent
you won't talk anymore
you won't effect each other anymore
and you won't think about each other anymore
you go back to your daily lives,
until you find someone new
and even then, the cycle continues.
Jun 2018 · 242
evil fortune
natalia reese Jun 2018
my mind wanders to the unknown
i live in an abyss of loneliness
my life is like a broken mirror
scattered and jagged, laying motionless on the ground
come close and you will get cut
you get warned to stay away, but that makes the desire even stronger
the want pulses through your veins
you give in to the temptation
my imagination fills your life with demons
the reality of me brings spirits to your door
the dark truth brings pain to your mind
i'm the corruption that ruined your life
you were warned i was dark
but you discovered i was pitch black
everyone knew i was the one to ruin you,
but did they know who was the one to do it me?
Jun 2018 · 156
distant memory
natalia reese Jun 2018
i sit here and watch from a distance
my head angled down
i don't want you to see me looking at you
i don't want you to know i'm hurting
as i look at you, at your family
i remember everything
not just the bad times, but the good
sometimes the good memories hurt more than the bad
because we know that they will never happen again
they've just become a distant memory
a thought that will only bring me pain and hurt
a part in time that was pure joy, that you turned into torture
as i remember your words they cut me deep
a knife slices through my heart, leaving me with just the memories
the bitterness of the wind dances across my flesh
a shiver of loneliness goes up my spine
i sit here alone in the distance
pure hurt running through my veins
May 2018 · 197
drowning
natalia reese May 2018
i am layered under books
i am buried by knowledge
my brain cannot escape
my mind isn't stable
i don't know your grammar
i don't understand your equations
my mind won't go uncluttered
my body can't relieve its stress
so i lay here
drowning in notes
with no knowledge in my brain
i take this final
to go home and take away the pain
May 2018 · 284
role model
natalia reese May 2018
i dream of meeting you every day
the icon you've become inspires me to no end
your beauty intimidates me
your advice saves me
your kindness brightens my world
the words of wisdom that you speak keep the blade from hitting my wrist
the proof that **** gets better is shown through you
my last glisten of hope sparks in your eye
i know i can go on
because you keep me going
even if
i'm just another face.
May 2018 · 276
sleep
natalia reese May 2018
i lay in bed with thoughts racing through my head
my body lays weak after a long days work
my lips slightly parted, leaving room for my breathe to escape
my hands grasp on to the blanket as a chill goes through the air
my eye lids fall heavy and i let sleep take over my body
May 2018 · 217
you know who you are
natalia reese May 2018
have you ever had that one person who is always there for you
i bet you they just popped into your head didn't they
that person that makes your problems their own
the person who you call crying at three in the morning
the only person who has truly been there for you 24/7
the person who nobody else compares to
the only person you trust with your deepest secrets
the person who you can tell absolutely everything
the only person who can tell when your lying
the person who knows when your hurting inside
the only person who cares enough to know everything about you
well i have that person too
she's amazing actually
her soothing voice makes me want to listen to her talk all day long
just hear the well needed advice she has for me
the way i can't resist a smile when i know she's content
how i feel so over joyed every time i see happiness spark through her green eyes
she cares about me in a way that nobody ever has
it makes me feel special
loved
but i wish she knew how much she means to me
i wish she knew how much she's effected my life
how i would be in an scary place without her
the handwritten notes of inspiration are what keep me going through the day
her hugs make it all worth while
so by now you know who you are
and i hope you know that your above sub par
May 2018 · 280
an empty word
natalia reese May 2018
what is love?
it's just a deceiving word that just leads to heartbreak
you tell me you love me
and when I'm not so sure you reassure me
but only to leave me in the end
all the empty promises you gave
all the lies you said to my face
all for what
love?
but is love really love,
when nobody uses it correctly?
May 2018 · 277
you ruin me
natalia reese May 2018
you ruin me
you verbally beat me with your words
but i embrace you in my arms
i give you all my love
while you push me away
you insult me
but i don't stop
in fact, i give you my heart
i give you my trust
but i get nothing in return
nothing besides hurtful words
nothing besides lies
nothing besides your anger
but i give you nothing but love
nothing but honesty
nothing but positivity
and all you do is hurt me
you break me
you ruin me
so i run
i run as far as i can
i run to get away from your lies
i run to get away from your abuse
because you don't deserve me
you don't deserve any part of me
you don't get my embrace
you don't get my positivity
you don't get my trust
you don't get my honesty
you don't get my heart
you don't get my love
you don't get any of it anymore
because you don't deserve me
and i know that now
so don't come running back to me
because i've already run as far away from you as i can
and i can't run anymore.
natalia reese May 2018
my heart burns as your name glows across my screen
the memories all come flowing back to me
the heartbreak you brought me
the internal pain that now stays within me
the gut wrenching regret that won't leave my mind
i see your name and can't help but feel all those feelings again
all the different emotions come flooding through my unhealed wounds
the wounds that you gave me
the wounds that had almost healed
the wounds that you just reopened
from those two words that appear across my screen
those two words that never fail to bring back a world of pain
those two words that just so happen to be your name.

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