mary has gone with the wind,
lost herself finding the hope hiding within
jumped impulsively to the world so unknown
filled with lights and lies, smokes and flaws
but the road's one way, there's nowhere to go
she is as naïve as a young soul,
silently screams while the winds control her

curled on the bed as though a shrimp was elizabeth
countless questions started flooding her mind again
"hello darkness, what's on the other side of you?"
never will she know the answer, she supposed
colors were splashed all over the world but darkness conquered hers.
she, then, thought maybe it was better to just have her eyes closed.

with a pounding heart i walked closer towards the end of the cliff,
my eyes were closed and my senses were all ears; then i heard
"perfect was you, the body and face screaming of Aphrodite,
perfect was you, adored by the hearts of many,
perfect was you, the root sometimes of most's jealousy and insecurities
perfect was you, dearest Olivia…"
but never did i want to be perfect, i've always wanted to be loved.

choking because of the problems wrapped around our necks,
we hold on to battle the biggest challenges that come our way
until the world becomes so exhausting to live in
until the purpose is no longer the reason to live
may you be Mary, Elizabeth, Olivia, or yourself
as long as you can feel me easing your pain
do not give up just yet
; please.

On a warm Tuesday,
the scorching April fire ball helped me paint
4 feet 11 sized short canvass
Sunburnt tan color was poured all over me
The porcelain white skin of mine
Was gone and couldn't be described as faint
A salmon coloured glow
Stained my pale cheeks with its own hue
While a real smoked salmon
Came back to its home inside of me down there
Pair of black buttons on the upper part
Of the canvass
Mirrored the icy calming blues
As I looked at them adoringly -
and unexpectedly got splashed at
Discovering the hidden wonders under
I met a weird creature
A star, but is orange
Living in the blue crystals
Instead of spending its whole life
Floating in a jetblack background
Current was strong!
My foot was numb!
I couldn't swim up!
So I held onto the long muted yellow rope
And went back with heavy breathings
Sat on a wooden brown furniture
Stared at the big gray and greens
Parading on my sight
Passing by real fast
While I am on a humble white boat -
Everything happened,
While I am on a humble white boat
Which introduced me to his friends of different colors
I lifted the corner of the red line upward
Revealing the not-so-pearly whites
And looked at my artwork
Which I shall call
Happiness.

in the middle of the vast calm sea someone threw a bottle with people locked in there instead of a letter. the sea was in chaos after the bottle came. but crashing waves wavered no bottle, storms broke no tiny vessel. rather than calling it tough, the bottle fought because it was scared. no more.
escape. don't we all just want to escape from the bottle-
the suffocating bottle where you meet various people with different personalities, we never realize but we sometimes try to please.
win. don't we all just want to win the battle - the tiring battle between what kind of person you really are
a beautiful rose with thorns
from what kind of person you try to be
the circular puzzle piece for a rectangle-shaped puzzle quiz.
don't we all just wanna ruin our bottle and be who we are -stunning, unique, mysterious or what your personality is in the calm sea where you can be free

sweetest dream

i always see your eyes at night,
in the dark, they shine so bright
when your gaze landed softly on mine
your twinkling eyes found my dreamy eyes screaming my desiresㅡ screaming you.
It was a sign.

the fire of our lamps was so close to ignite
you were so close,
but it doesn't feel right.
and then i blinked twice. thrice.
and almost thousands of times.
nothing has changed.
only the stars have welcomed my sight.
suddenly, a bitter smile was painted on my face,
it was right afterall.

in reality, you're a star.
you were close enough for me to see you glow
but not close enough for me to see upclose.
in my dreams, you are real.
for you are all the good dreams
my reality couldn't bear to hold.

at the end of the day
you still matter
to me
a lot
but i wonder
my love
do i even have
just a small
space
in your
heart?

No one can break me,
I swore
I am the black and white full of colors
But your hurtful words,
came rushing down my shore
I am indestructible,
I swore
But I fell five, stood up four
You hurt me
like I asked you to do the honors

you never had hands and arm
to touch my heart
you never had the ears
to listen to my tears
but
all it takes is a paper and pen
to have you as my friend