I look happy, don’t I?
there are no cuts on my wrists
all you see
is the smile on my lips
maybe even a spark in my eyes
and all you hear
is me telling everyone i'm fine
maybe even a laugh once in a while

but when will you look deep into my eyes
look beneath the spark and the blue color
see the emptiness and the darkness in me

   when you will realize
the smile is a facade
i'm not happy, it's fake, i'm hiding my tears
   when you will see
the spark is a blur
i'm not happy, i’m on the edge to tears
   when you will hear
the laugh is a scream
i'm not happy, i’m choking on pain

did you check my heart? it’s filled with scars

*(s.m)

If I had seen it coming I wouldn’t have cried so
much I might’ve been more prepared
as if I could pack a survival kit
for months of recovery.

But instead there were no warning signs

nothing to give me a clue

for when you would crush me hard
between your fists,

ugly, and ******, broken on your floor.

I had seen it coming I could have forgiven you
as I grew smaller, held your hand,

said I love you more than you’ll ever know.
But it was sudden

overnight within seconds you left me, an old glove
fallen out of your warm coat pocket
into a puddle, too old and used up to save.

Sometimes I appreciate pain. It is the only gift from you to me.

Hope has finally ended

And pain into it’s bed once again

It’s more beautiful when the skies finally set its dim

To be reminded that pain was once more real

If ever the valley would sing lullabys

Let it sing once again

Though pain is once and will be lost

It’ll be not as painful as it is before

Sometimes it is bright to see

That even the stars would loose its light

Even birds will loose their flight

And even oceans will never to be sight

Broken I have sung my song
Broken I have bean for so long
shattered by this signal thought
Would you miss me if I were gone?
True am I to my word
I will not forsake the world
I am not the girl I once was
Songs of beauty have lost the once loved
now and agene '
I will sing out a second
but, broken have I stayed
a dream that longs to fade

I love your smile,
I love your laugh,
Let me hold you a while,
And let the time slowly pass.

You're beyond too good for me,
But you let my heart roam free,
No longer worrying myself silly,
A feeling that would someday **** me.

You in a sense are my soul savior,
So please, please, please let me do you a favor.
Hand me your heart with all of your trust,
I promise I wont treat it unjust.

You are all that I adore,
And every thing I am looking for,
So you and me should be together,
And never break up, but last forever.