sometimes it gets old
watching you shed those clothes
in the light
every night

if i loved you,
maybe i'd marvel
like those men

but it feels so grotty
so sleezy

nothing like those fantasies
i used to have

you're mine but you're not
every night

you belong to everyone
but no-one

i try and i try and i try
to feel something

but you gave yourself away

Your eyes are empty, love, so impossibly vacant
Devoid of any emotion, dead of dreams


Because your tears flow away,
ripping the feelings, the pain


And I reach out but our ways are separated
As misery seeps through the space between us


You walk on broken glass and still smile
I walk on flower beds but still scream


Because we're one and you can't see
I feel your pain, and with every fake smile you **** me


I'm trying, love, just close your eyes
I'll take you far far away from all this agony


I won't say I'll tear the moon for you
Or clench the sun within my hands


But, love, if their shine hurt your eyes,
Because you're too deep in dark


I promise, I'll shield you,
And heal your dark wounds


And gashes of loneliness
And scars of memories.


And I'll hold your shattered pieces
until the storm inside you ceases


I'll put them together and fix you
I'll steal your breaths away from the death


And I'll fill you again with hope
And I'll show you what's light


You're scared, love, I know
But just hold my hand and don't let go


I know you're afraid to leave the ground, love
But if you stand once, I won't let you falter


I'll hold you until you can walk on your own
To your destination of dreams all alone


I will let go then and you won't fall ever again
You'll break through all those metal chains


And through those thunder clouds you'll rise
Like piano notes and wind chimes


Love, my life was always yours,
I'll give it away if I have to


But till then I'm here, watching
As your smile flows towards realm of reality


And your dreams strengthen
With hope and my light I gave you


Its okay, love, I can stand the darkness
I'm just wishing to see you face once


But don't turn around, love,
For you've left the past behind,


And I'm amongst your past now
It's okay love, I'll live with your scars


And your memories, your broken dreams
Those dreams that you left with me


I still have them, love,
Your dreams have become mine


Only to protect and cherish
And love and remember


Until the last breath leaves me empty
Like your eyes in the start of this journey.

Astonishing
Bewildering
Caring
Dissing
Educating
Fulfilling
Gravi­tating
Healing
Inspiring
Joking
Keeping
Loving
Motivating
Naming
­Organising
Praising
Quizzing
Restoring
Smiling
Trusting
Uplifting­
Varying
Willing
Xoxo-ing
Yelling
Zesting

Despondent people are not puzzles to decipher
and we are not broken vases to be fixed, either.
We are not projects for you to put together
just so you can boost your ego over "saving" another.