And after awhile
the scary world
became silent
and small
letting me breathe
in the fresh sunset air
until I became,
revealing my wings,
I kiss you goodbye
and I fly away.

And I have died
softly
a million deaths -
drowning,
bleeding,
choking.
And yes, I remembered you.
I have found you
in the pictures,
in the screams
of broken tables
in the ghosts
and in the glass ceilings...
You were with me
every time
I died.

And in the early mornings
that I kept all for myself,
jealously holding them hidden
in the back of my mind,
I found myself,
the woman in me.
The serenity of the village
that's just started to wake up,
still sleepy.
And nobody saw me
dancing naked and barefoot
without any music,
nobody saw me smiling
or writing a new poem,
it was all my little secret,
the little life i lived
when I needed to find my strength again.
Nobody saw the moments
I felt the most alive,
nobody saw my soul rising above
the whole world,
singing to itself,
being free.

And now I know
About the love
You spoke about so fondly
I never believed
It was mine.
And now I know,
From the way you hate me,
How much you have
To love
This broken soul
Of mine.

It's as if my body never forgot you,
Your softness, your warmth.
It fit with me so well,
In every curve, in every corner.
Like a missing part.
Its like your touch was always there,
Just softer, more airy, more loose.
Lingering on my skin,
Your lips touched way deeper
Than they should.
It's just as if you never left,
As if you were never gone.
How could you ever really go
When my hand was made to rest in yours,
When your eyes were ment
To look in mine.