How can someone's smile
Easily break somebody's heart?
How innocent can it be?
To not notice the pain of others
Is she numb?
A clueless?
Perhaps inexpressive?
Taking all in everything by herself
Was her smile a facade?
To hoard the sadness inside

Believe it or not
in my twenty three years of life living on earth
i have never fall in love
not even once

But look at me now
being in a relationship with someone i just met
asking someone i just met to be my girl
im truly pathetic

being her my first girlfriend
and soon might be my first love
and who knows
she might be my first kiss as well..

right now i dont know what comes into my mind that i get my self into this position
the very first minute that we've been in a legal relationship
i already want a break up (im cruel!)

coz for this is a forbidden love
between two forbidden persons
if i did fall
im afraid to have my first heartbreak.

We meet in the eyes
I look at you
Assuming that you're looking at me too
People says that you admired me
But they didn't know that I adore you
They said you like me
But they didn't know I'm in love with you
I'm always one or two step ahead
But our status is always unsure
That I found myself in a dilemma
I always heared a thing from them but not from you
Should I pursue my love for you?
Or let it pass just like our gazes..

One day I found myself holding back
It was my first love
A unrequited love
It hurts
Its worrisome
Its bugging me like crazy..
I wanna let her know but couldn't
I do think if she found out
its friendship over...:(

its been a really long time
and finding love is like looking a piece of rice in the middle of nowhere
i have been waiting
and its hard to have a short patience
but who would have thought that i could wait this long
so long that i have routed  my self in this place
and let my feet to have grown its own roots
and then i let go of the feeling that love will come my way...
i guess not!
i met and fall in love with her
shes not beautiful
not popular
but shes the kindest person you will ever wish to have
in short everyone will fall for her eventually due to her kindness
and that includes the pathetic me
whose been waiting for his whole life but afraid to actually give his heart to someone he likes -- great, i know!
we're friends and going to and from the work
and we stayed that way for four and a half months
until i found the courage to ask her out (though just a pact/agreement or lets just say a PRETEND relationship for a month) haha... stupid i know!
i don't know whose worst, she or me?
she told me why month when we can do it for a year or better yet for life!.... and me OO................O..K
dumbfounded and so totally...malfunctioning XD

in a long night
when the storm is frightening
every trees strikes down by the lightning
while the thunder is roaring
i was in the middle of the warmth embrace
of whom i believe my sun and moon..
they were my end and my beginning
to whom i go through happiness and sadness
though we fight each day
we struggle together
no moments too long
no moments too short..
we go as to where the wind may take us
we cherished each time that goes by
and remember each day that passed by
i am who i am today.
because of the loves and cares
given by the moon and sun
who guides me from time to time..
and watched me day by day..
now that the stars was added in my story
how could my life be in vain?.
im glad that those stars are my siblings..
and the moon and the sun were our parents..
#im glad that im with you ..

We always fight
We always do
To the extent where I no longer knew
As to what and where we started the fight
Many words have spoken
& it clouded our minds
No reasoning’s can come in our minds
We can no longer accept nor think about it
All we can do is complain & debate
With the most stupid things we remembered
We both throw a stone with anger & madness
We fought & fought & fought
We ended up hurt both in body & mind
The wounded physically heals
But the scars inside will never be mended

It’s easy to accept the changes that comes
But when that change changes us
Why is it so hard to accept us?
When we face that fact,
Reality slaps us with a very painful truth

Ever since I met you..
I started looking forward for our next encounter,
And not seeing you somehow disappoints me...
Ever since I have known you i started laughing and smiling like an idiot and not being in that state made me think of myself strange..
Ever since we get to know each other I think I have fallen for you...
You have change me
Because I have you that I started liking my life...
And how I live now is all because of you too...
Doing things that may hurt you scared me..
You getting hurt hurts me
Somehow...
Does that mean you're my everything?.

Even though I’m oblivious
And might be more than just an idiot
I’ll spent money, time and life if necessary
But it looks like misfortune seems to favor me
Because I had nothing but life and a little time left
I’m useless,
I can’t say a word,
I can’t hear a word,
I’m only capable of reading moving lips,
Looking how much time of happiness this illness took away from me
Seeing how futile my life have become
I can’t help but cry
I’m just a child longing to be a normal kid
Playing around, helping around, smiling a lot and working hard a lot
I’m hoping to be that kind of kid
Who’s capable of making everyone happy not broken
Although I’m like this
Just like any other human being
I also wish for something
I only wish of one thing
Just this one time,
I want you to say
“Im proud of you”
Even though I may not be able to hear your words
Even though it’s too late
Just for one last time
Before we depart
Make my wish come true
“Please utter my NAME once more”

I don't asked for too much
Only just a bit of your time
If you can't even give a thought
Nor do at least your part as my other half then
Does that mean I'm the only serious here?
Have I fallen deeply to a wrong person
With no intention of becoming real to me?
Your mean
At least do tell me of I'm not the one for you
So at least I can start moving on now.
I'm not like you
It takes me forever to forget the things I love.