Sleep holds me as my eyes
Reflect and absorb the light.
I'm driving, sleeping, eating
blind and deaf and complacent.
I am only here when you are here.

I waste centuries waiting.
Finally, you come to me.

Love, take me with you and we'll
Crackle and burn and smother ourselves
Together till the end. You have kissed
Your princess awake from her slumber
And your fairytale has become your own.

But, what of when the night ends?
Am I only alive when you're breathing into me?

No matter how much
  you bandage a lie

The truth
—bleeds through and through

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)

seeing
the hunter
in the forest
he never know
his death
even hunting him

There are two roads astray
Both leading the same way
One is right, one is wrong
One is filled with light but the other doesn't belong
I assume I know which is right
It's obviously the one with light
But it leads me to the labyrinth that is my mind
I'm scared to death by what I find;
I see the battle going on within
Both sides fighting but neither will win
A few small words are all it takes
To save the lives and lower the stakes
To stop the battle before its begun
To prevent deaths caused by a sword or gun
To the outside world I show a neutral face
All sorrow vanishing without a trace
But inside my head lies a scattered mess
And no one to save the damsel in distress
Prince Charming is fighting in the war
Not knowing who he's fighting for
Until it finally comes to one a side
Both charging forward prepared to collide
The battlefield is no place for anyone...
So why do I stay still instead of run?

A moment of pain
Turned into a moment of bliss.
Time stopped
And our eyes met
Drawing closer and closer until space did not exist anymore.
Butterflies fluttered within me
Then it seemed as if the missing puzzle piece was found at last.
Soft lips tasting of bitter alcohol and mint brushed over mine.
Hesitant but determined.
With increased intensity you swooped me off my feet and a calm embraced me.

always afraid
she kept looking for
monsters
under her bed
without realizing
the real monster
was sleeping
next to
her

It all starts today. I'm now 27.
It's my new beginning, my new year.

The person who hurt me the most doesn't know the 27 year old me.
The person who ***** me doesn't know this version of me either.

It's like I've been cleansed. I can start again.
Better things are ahead.
I feel it in my bones.
I'm stronger than ever and
I have a new person in my life.

Life at 27 will be mine, and only mine.
I'm washing away the sadness from the past,
taking a deep breath and feel new life inside me.
I can't wait to explore the new me.