A deep dilemma I was in
Should I ask Santa for a reindeer or an ELF
Then a voice whispered
Why don't you ask for the courage to love yourself ?

You can make her smile ..you can make her cry
But first make her feel safe ...then give it a try
You are no man if you surrender to evil and lust
You will be a man if you can give her respect and earn her trust.
No one feels safe here ..be it police or doctors
Because the hell now resides on earth and roaming free are monsters

You are the faint shadow of darkness in a twilight sky
To my dreams you are the nearest eye

On a pensive full moon,  you are the chirping of a lonely bird
You are the silent storm of emotions that makes me bite my lips hard

You are that uneven road I have never been
You are the last turn home that my eyes have never seen

You are a world where regret is the essence
And want means abundance

Where every end brings a new beginning of its own
A world whose address is still unknown

You are the biggest possibility of a brand new morning
A ray of sunshine to sooth my soul's mourning

You are the mesmerising reflection of sapphire grey sky
You are the last line  of an untold poem depicted by my inaudible sigh.

The mark you left on my soul is still there
Stating your claim on me without a care
The sweet nothings you said are now barely a whisper
The beautiful flowers you gave are now ready to wither
The cottage where we spent the dark long night
I can still hear the murmurs of our love fight
The sea shore where you swept me off my feet
Only the roaring sound of waves now are there to greet
The warmth of the blanket where you cocooned me in your arms
Seems like every single thing has lost its charm
The way you soothed my nightmare by singing a short song
Everything was perfect but now they seem wrong
The gap between my fingers yearn to be fulfilled by yours
Now they are all memories which leave me in tears
I still remembered the day I slipped like dried sand
You were the one who vowed to never leave my hand
I faintly felt the kiss on my head when I was asleep
I let you roam free thinking your promises you will keep
As the time went by I gathered words from the start
Thinking when you return I will pour all of my heart

But the promises were lie, giving me hurt & shame
I waited and waited.. but the season of you never came.

Hold her hands as tight as you can
With her , you want to be a better man

Hope you see the stars twinkling when you look into her eyes
Hope her soothing whispers make your heartbeat rise

When she lets her soft lips taste your soul
I hope you hear the sound of angel's call

When your arms wrap her in a tight embrace
I hope you realise she is your saving grace

When you wake up to her hair sprawled on your chest
I hope you see yourself having that for eternity and rest

I hope she giggles when your date nights start
I hope you feel the butterflies dancing in your heart

When her eyes accidentally shed a beautiful drop of tear
I hope you see the living image of fear

When she hides her face in the crook of your neck
I hope you wish the moment to never break

When she pecks your lips , you wish for her lips to linger
I hope you wish to put a rock on her finger

When your hands cup her gorgeous face
I hope you realise the world is a beautiful place

You dream to have her until the end of time
Then I hope she breaks your heart like you broke mine.

Looking at the moon I smiled

a sad one,

Why was I alone? Was I that

bad one?

My eyes were dull having no

Light in them,

My heart felt empty cause no

one Ever came.

My arms itched for someone

who I could hold,

Solitude was this painful

no one had told.

My wishes were the flower that

could never bloom,

One thing I could utter 'my life

is a lonely doom'

The dried land of my soul

needed  a li'l rain,

But I got only thunderstrom , I

got only pain.

Glaring at the moon I threw

a nasty frown,

How could it shine while

my spirit was down?

A delicious smell in air made

my heart-beat rise,

I saw you standing there talking

with your eyes.

You whispered "I'm there for you,

Darling, can't you see?" ,

I replied ," Take all of my heart,

take all of me! "

She looked at the moon with a jealous stare
Unlike her ,the moon can show its scar without Care.

My breathing stopped the moment

you confessed ,
I mattered no more

You desire to break my heart ?
Good luck ,because

I am already shattered to the core.

You say I am stone cold you say I am bad
You say I don't say why am I sad
You say you want to be the smile on my lips
You say it hurts you when I hide my griefs
But have you ever noticed that it's not a one way road
You have my silence cause you stab me with your word
You want to know the reason I shed tear
Go to your room and look at the mirror
The demons I have, already eat my core  
And the actions you take makes me hurt more
I know I am an option ,not a choice you have made
Then why does it matter what I do what I said
I can be hopeless I can be dead
You have many more shoulders to put your head
I know you love me and I love you too
But only love is not enough I knowe from you