Words are what own me
You string together those letters in a way that controls me

Waiting for phrases laced with clause
Falling victim to a precondition that I never saw

You speak in tangled tongue
Twisted vines of a past coming undone
Linguistically speaking
The damage is done

your lies are so pretty
your words are so sweet
you kiss me on the mouth to bring life into me

I'm not obsessed with the future
I'm obsessed with right now
         obsessed with the rain
            obsessed with your face
               obsessed with a moment
after moment

Why is it
that when a boy writes his feelings
you praise every heartbeat

But when I mention fondness
you break each part of me

I don't wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your neck
I don't want this empty bed, or a text left unsent
I want a sip of coffee
That tastes just like you
I want the feeling of euphoria
One plus one doesn't have to equal two

I didn’t text you today and I’ve never been more proud of myself.

*If you want me in your life you’ll do it yourself