Black casket
The lid closed
To many scars to cover up
Crisscrossed, up and down
Down her stomach
Across her wrist
Along her ankles
The priest insist
That no eyes will see
What the "devil" has done to me
Fresh tears
Cold fear
Fills the room
All pain
All doom
No meaning to a life so wasted
I left the world before I had tasted
Now nights are cold
On the plains of earth
Because I was thrown from heaven
And rejected from hell
What was worse was that I never fell
Alone in the dark
Because I couldn't stand the pain
I'm locked up in a box with my shame
The screams haunt my brain
This wild beast I could never tame
I climb the walls
Just hope I won't fall

Goodbye fragile soul
Sadness overwhelmed the heart
Of a fourteen year old today
He fought and he fought
But the dark swallowed him
I shed these tears for him
I whisper his name to the stars
And scream it to the clouds
The words scraped across his already bleeding heart
"******" "loser" "poser" "freak"
Each another cut into his flesh
Until they added up to the rope around his neck,
Swinging there lifeless the angles cried for him
And we lost him, and then they all care
Not when he pleaded for the help when we had a chance to save him
Not when his heart still beat firmly in his chest
Not when his skin was still warm
Only now do the tears splash upon his cold body
Only now do they ask god for him back
When he no longer breathes
When he no longer smiles
Or laughs ...or lives
I hold the memory of you In my arms
As I struggle not to leave myself
As I fight not to follow you home
Because though it hurts
I will live for you
I will go all the places you can't anymore
Breathe for us both
Smile and laugh for your spirit
Just promise to be at peace
And rest your eyes
Good bye

I'm so tired
Of crying myself to sleep
The pain of those awful memories
Sometimes It's like no one knows me
I am so broken
No one understands
I was crushed and defeated by those hands
And now I sit wasting away
Hiding beneath covers to scarred to face the day
I can feel it like a thousand daggers
Beating into my flesh
But I can't cry
And I can't feel
I'm starting to doubt if this is real
Maybe I should run
No I'm so done
I might as well say goodbye ...

In the dark I follow this path
Unwritten and unpaved I might crash
Hollow I walk alone
My bones carved and made of stone
My wounds were open to bare
I could feel the crow and raven's hungry stare
Infected by a governmental disease
The growing hunger was a painful tease
Devour the souls it told me
Swallow it whole it told me
I was trying to fight the urge but it over came me
Like a wave , I was eaten by the sea
Destroy was my main cause
I wasn't human I was only flaws
It was a curse but it felt so good
As I slaughtered the whole neighborhood
The only guilt I felt was at the bottom of my heart
It was a small tingle that pulled me apart
No conscience  to tell me to stop
I fought and killed to the top
I was a body without a core
A dead hand pulling open the basement door
A limp and a shimmer as I made my way
The evil pledged inside me would stay

On my knees praying
When today is tomorrow
And today crumbled

Holding in my tears
When people you loved **** you
Desperate in despair

City lights blind you
While you try to get away
Escape all your guilt

Maybe selfishly
You took what you needed so
You could be at peace

Just for a minute
You give up everything for
Them to be happy

But you always give
And you never take a thing
Yet your torn apart

By consuming guilt
That you wish you couldn't feel
But you do anyways

She pretends she's invincible,
She pretends his words don't sting,
She pretends that when he knocks her down,
That she can't feel,
I wish I could ease her pain,
But she avoids it,
She doesnt want anyone to know,
That she might need a hand,
I wish I could be strong for her,
I wish I could take her pain,
I wish she didn't cry herself to sleep at night,
I wish she hadn't had that fight,

We don't know who we are,
We all have are scars
In my heart it's ripped apart
But I'll never let you  know
Though my eyes are closed
The sounds still let me know
That your near, I can hear you close
And your tears still fall
And I say **** it all
We will never be perfect
Never be perfect

Put my hopes on the ground
Get up turn around
Because nothing ever comes my way
Anymore

Now I see that there far away
Now I know, there's no future day
Might as well just put down the faith
And leave
Walk out the door can't care anymore
I have been broken to many times
To ever rewind

Now I plea to god, that he will save me
But I know that's a hopeless road
And I've tried to see, a light holding opportunity, but it escapes me Every time
And I look for a way, to get out of this place
But it seems that I'm held back in this space

  Put my hopes on the ground
Get up turn around
Because nothing ever comes my way
Anymore

Now I see that there far away
Now I know, there's no future day
Might as well just put down the faith
And leave
Walk out the door can't care anymore
I have been broken to many times
To ever rewind

Take this pen and write the words
Slow as I watch them shape into meaning
Sad and sullen I write my tragedies
I write my pain and my happy
I write the dark and the light
I write the flight and my fights
But I can't seem to write how I feel
I can't even speak the words
It seems as though I'm writing a novel
To a strangers life
As though I don't even know who I am
Too bad I can't write my way back home
To that place inside of me
To bad I can't write my sight
So my blind eyes can see
To bad I can't write the pieces of me back together
To bad that my life seems like a work of fiction

The darkness smelt of death and fallen tears
Blood painted to spell your name on the walls
The stench of the remaining fear pasted here
I stand before fiery waterfalls
The darkness eating away at my being
Spend  eternity lost inside a maze
The graphic things I found myself seeing
I thought was only a meaningless daze
Time grew slower creeping by, I went on
I was lost to fight demons of my past
I had no knowledge, was it dusk or dawn?
The path I follow, a mirror of the last
This enigma I find myself alone
Hell is a sinners last and only home

They library was hushed
The faceless man
Across the table
Quite
He tells me
Stay silent
You wouldn't want your mommy to hear
Would you?
So naive
A child could be
I close the book
My attention caught by the closet
Small footsteps
Cautiously taken
Afraid to be caught
Palm on the door ****
I open it
Inside lies a beast
I'm petrified
Scared to blink
But the beast slumbers
On a burning photo
What are you doing!
The faceless man yells
And now I'm terrified
He's been awaken
The beast won't let me go
I've made him angry now
Only my screams echoing
Through the quite library
To keep me company

I watch the blood drip on to the cool tile
Watch it pool as my brain numbly
Focuses on the throbbing in my arm
I was so strong for so long
And then you knocked all my efforts over
And that's what urged my hand to wrap around
The cool orange bottle
I didn't know what was inside
But i twisted the cap off
Look inside at the long white pills
A tear slid down my face
Being human was my greatest weakness
I want to swallow them all
I want to tear my wrist open and let it bleed out
I just want it to end
But one face in the angry mob i'm surrounded by
One face stops me
One that held on for me
Gives me the strength to put the cap back on
Gives me the will to stumble to my room
Close my eyes, and write it down

You hold me in your arms,
Try to keep me from harm,
You try and be my shield,
Every unwelcome guest made to yield,
This pain I seem to feel,
Only thing that keeps this real,
My only reprieve ,
From this tainted world,
Is your whispers in my ear,
Your the only reason I'm still here,
Don't want you to leave,
Surely the hurt I'll receive,
Keep my mind from the past,
My first breath is my last,
Ive given up my sun,
To stay in darkness so I don't have to run,
From the memories that sustain,  
There the core of my pain

Dancing alone
My eyes filled by tears
A smile hidden to fragile to be shown
Incomplete
A puzzle left without a piece
Empty hearted
Cold and frozen
The lock hung broken
My hair lose around my shoulders
You used to pull it away from my neck
I can still feel the warmth of your fingers
A ghost of you resides beside me
A rose a top your body
A tear ****** into the earth
Until it travels through the soil
And lands upon your cheek
A smile rest on your pale face
Time will eat it away
Dying beside your soil bed
My black dress scattered along side me
I was asleep while you still sang to me
And now that you're gone
I'm wide awake
Sad that it was this that it had to take
Swimming alone the waves disguise my tears
Slowly every picture we took together
You fade from
I only pray that I will still see your face
I will meet you when I walk the golden bridge
To our paradise

The rooms were dark
The halls all abandoned
My steps echoed like screams in the halls
There was blood on the stalls...
Tears stained the floors
Pain in the air
No hope left In here

Could this all be a dream?
Did I imagine the screams?
Is this real?
I cannot feel
Sliding down the walls
There was blood on the stalls

Like every other horror film
There was only one to survive
The rest weren't alive
They had taken a fall
There was blood on the stalls

His mother lay cold in a puddle of blood
I'd seen the room flood
Petrified by fear
I'd shed one long tear
To never hear her call...
There was  blood on the stalls

Please tell me how you can look In her honest eyes
And try and break her down, with vile words
I can see her struggle to keep it inside
I can see that shes hurt
I can see her tears unshed
I want to hug her
I hate that she's so sad
I hate that those people are so cruel
I wish I could take away her hurt
But all I can do is give her
One reason to smile
Make her time worth while
Make her days brighter
Make her load lighter
Read her when words are to hard
And hold her up when the weight collapses her
I can bare her pain
I've seen it's dark hellish face
I've ran that same pace
I've been torn apart and fed to the beasts
I've cried and scarred myself for life
But if I could save her
I will fight forever
She is my best friend
The light at the end of a dark hall
The best of them all
If I could be just the slightest bit
Of the friend she's been
I would do my very best

In time we all must fall upon the one we call
"the one", a story of love and passion
That always seems to end
A block in the fire lit path
One that stops the world
Your world
Once so perfect now tears you apart
One you never thought would end
But no story goes on forever
Happy endings don't exist
Love in my eyes was beautiful
Now is foolish
Heart scarred and bruised
Took too many blows
Would rather stay put in place
Then skip a beat, that will never be returned
For a temporary "love"

A hundred shots fired
Until it was silent
The smell of blood roamed the halls
His soul had fallen
Evil had found its way in
Children without eyes to see
So vulnerable
This event has shaken me
The tears fall down my face
As I listen to the news
The deaths in Connecticut
Thirty met the afterlife
Pray for them
I rest on my knees
God tell me have we all been killed?
Are we all doomed?
Open your arms to those we have lost
I beg of you give them peace

The night is my mother 
Holds me, calms me 
Listens and doesn't judge 
Knows my secrets 
Doesn't tell 
Whispers sweet advice in my ear 
Brushes aside my hair 
I can hide in the silk folds 
Of the shadows the night brings 
I'm okay in her embrace 
I can wipe my tears knowing 
That she won't mind 
If only my biological mother 
Could see 
That her words sting me 
Put tears in my heart 
Push me farther away from her 
Makes me want to leave 
Permanently 
From this world 
From my life 
But the nights motherly caress
Spares my ebbing life

Suns gone from my window 
My pillows lost its comfort 
My blankets seem to strangle me 
I don't feel like myself 
Woken up from a dream 
That had seemed so real 
My bones are aching 
And my hairs a mess 
I wish the dream was real I must confess 
I was running from my past 
I was running to safer arms 
But just as I leaped in the air 
You pulled away 
And you disappeared 
Stupid dreams false hope

My heart sang to the sweet melody
Of my crying piano
I was so sad, my lashes wet with tears
If only my prayers could cure my fears
My fingers moved slowly from white key to black
As I bite my lip to keep from sobbing
These are the moments I miss my viola

Will you be the one
To free my heart
Will you be the one
To put together the torn apart
Will you be the one
Who never let's me go

Can you be the one
Who can love when I'm not strong
Can you be the one
To show what's right and wrong
Can you be the one
Who cares when no one else does

I will be the one
Who lookis into your eyes
I will be the one
To give you a heart that never dies
I will be the one
That will give you the hand to help you up

You don't know my pain
You've never worn my chains
Only I bare my shame

You don't wage my fight
You can't cage my might
You don't walk in the night
With me....

You haven't felt my tears
You haven't faced my fears
You've never cheered
Me on...

You don't have to wear my scars
You don't gaze at my stars
And I don't know who you are
Anymore...