The requiem for your soul
The corkscrew of words
The iron, wrinkle your folds
The messenger of dreams
The insider, the mole

Your repose from the turmoil
The engine of your love
The labour of your toil
Your eternal defender
The rescuer of despoil

All I ever was
All I ever will be
All you need
I am all you need

Tides of the seas
Of the long lost rebellions
and
Tides of the
Tempest around you and me


The skies had surrounded me
But now all that is left are ashes


I remember when you said
I never understood what you meant
Though whispers flew near my heart
Taking me all the way back to the start


Tides of the seas
Of the lovelorn islands
and
Tides of the
Tempest around you and me


And even though as final as death may seem
I can yet wait an eternity

It can never matter, how I feel
now and then
Its all about you
and always has been

Remember the warmth
Of my love,
Never forget
The things that you said

Tears fall
and hearts break
Love crumbles
But is never dead

It can never matter, what I say
now and then
Its all about you
and always has been

Hold the bright side of the moon
Never surrender
But to yourself
The rekindling fire

Mighty callings of the world
Never believe
But in yourself,
The force of nature

It can never matter, where I am
now and then
Its all about you
and always has been

Still learning what to say
What to feel and what to wear
Deranged and damaged goods we are

Like madmen running naked wild
Like old men trying to play with fire
Deranged and damaged goods we are

A Generation in a haze
All our dreams have been tased
Too many noises all around
Too many hearts broken abound

Running and jumping
We're just desecrating
The flesh and blood in the fire
Screaming and shouting
We're just all repeating
The anthems of denial

A generation in a haze
All our dreams have been chased
Too many noises all around
Too many hearts broken abound

Like psychopaths defile
Like those in pain who smile
Deranged and damaged goods we are

Like demented empty shells
Like a living regret
Deranged and damaged goods we are

The easiest thing
Is to live a lie
Slowly tempting your body and soul to an event horizon which has no escape here
Its the easiest thing
Done by a broken heart
When it is lied to
Always remembering each goodbye and moments of affection piercing through
A list of melancholic ways to die
Staggering your brain
Inviting you to dance and sing
For when you lose home
And when you lose hope
Its easier to live a lie

Fall from the clouds
Never looking back
Fall into the sea below
Never coming back

An eternity shall pass
But the shadows of your being
Will endure forever
Thoughts do trespass
The unliving, believing
Delaying the delayer

A fall of freedom
Shattering the bonds
Here comes queendom
And betraying chords
Of lovers and justices
For words are never the same
For another unbeliever

Falling down
Memories will catch your heartbeat
Rend your soul
Into a thousand brilliant suns
Beyond control

An eternity shall pass
But the fragrance enduring
Will linger forever
Thoughts do trespass
The unliving, believing
Delaying the delayer

When my old friend
Walks through the door
He's come a long way with me
Constant companion
My fiercest combatant
An old corollary
Of my ****** up existence
I simply take him
Close in my arms
And rest while weeping tales away
Waiting till he wanders off
And someday he'll be back again

I just wish
When my old friend revisits
I'm jolly stocked with hearty ale
And songs to sing of old and new

Tied to the train tracks
Sometimes its impossible
To walk away
To run away

Caught between the headlights
Sometimes its impossible
To look away
To fly away

Darkness makes mockery
Out of all your suffering
Beaten black and blue
Always forgetting
Yet never forgiven

Shaped by destiny
Way out of here
Is a place where you lay
And sacrifice yourself
But its not here
You're immortal here
Except for the beasts
Carrion for the late
Game for the devils
Epitome of hate

Wingless tragedies
Sometimes its impossible
To cry away
And to deny

She fought for you
A ride despicable
And you saw the truth
The truth undeniable
In her womb lie mysteries
Mysteries of love
Love and hate


She whispers
In slow shallow words
The song of a mother
The lullaby
She whispers
In the toughest times
The song of a defender
The warcry


She taught you fear
Fear from your own demons
Fear of the depravities
Fear, that makes you dead
She taught you love
Love for all the things
Love for the unkind
Love, that makes you alive


So sing for her
For not just her pride
For its her life

Naturally you wonder
Why gravity pulls on us
Why insanity asunder
That dastardly love
Makes you and I, Us

That dark rain
Separation down the street
Still is, yet I wonder
How I got to remember
How I got up to my feet

Naturally I wonder
Why the heart beats
Optimistic bequeather
It still hopes and beats
Where the aurora sleeps

They came marching for Us
They hated what we had
They came marching for Us
They wanted us to flee
Flee for all we had

Drilled and enforced
You're nothing but
Dependent and controlled
And you like being told

Humanity uncloaked
Firefights stoked
Denial is justice
Denial of malice

You're the children
of hammered satire
Automatons on fire
Automatons and liars

You run around the world
But you're not asunder
You're the atlas too
The weight is on your shoulder

Prententious thoughts
Remembrance is fraught
Denial is justice
Denial of malice

You're the children
of limbless desire
Automatons on fire
Automatons and liars

And thats all you are
All flesh and bone
Only an automaton
Only an automaton

Rivets of words
Like swords in a gunfight
Silence roars
Like love, without light
A singularity
of frightful might
Ravages the desert
and storms the memories, in
That little backyard of your own

Stories you shall tell
of places far and near
Reminiscence is cute
But it won't last, dear
A billion sparks
Drive you close to tears
Won't I wonder, whats inside
closing your eyes, its
That little backyard of your own

Denial is just a game
Still you run forever
Looking back again
A dreadful fever
Nobody wants to die
Nobody can live forever
Won't you hold my hand
For a moment, in
That little backyard of your own

Scream out
with my brave heart
on the edge
Inside, a rage

Perception,
is unworthy itself
judged to death
Stop smokin' ****

Tick tock
A bomb inside
Fall apart, the second you look at me
A billion suns rage in my heart
Poseidon roars in my head
Worlds fall apart
And we're back to the start

Two pieced
My bones are wilting away
****** inside the wonderland
Two pieced
My two souls are drifting away
Stuck inside a corner on the edge

Up and down is immaterial
Only thing real is then and now
Two pieced
My heart has been tormented
Pieces don't recognize
The wholes of themselves

Like shattered remains of children
From a warzone dismissed
Everything is broken
Two pieced is my name
This way I still remain

Buried in a minefield
Or a meadow of stars
A shackle or a shield
Inimitably reducing
Any conformity and its need
Creating its memories
Killing its creed

I'm dying slowly
Or living fast
Falling in love
Falling out
I fall in a different darkness
I chase a different sunbeam
Each moment

Buried in a minefield
Or a graveyard of affection
A repentance of a curse
And a wretched reflection
On an artificial iron lung
An everyday chore
In galaxies far-flung

I'm dying slowly
Everything is
Slowly
Even the sun will go cold
I'm dying slowly
Everything is
Regret

With my bones I made a cage
I wanted to keep you safe
But who knew I'd be dangerously close
To drift off, drift off in space

So I tore the cage apart
And you went back to the start
But who knew you'd tether me down
Tied down with the strings of your heart

And you unravel
Unravel till the end of time
And I drift off
Hoping I could see you once again
As you were

For the weird stuff
That life holds in its miniature existence
My life
For the weird stuff
That life calls its essential essence
My life

Numb everything that I felt
Slowly pushing it all away
I resist from the night hereby
Slowly sinking inside
Forever is too far away

I shall die when my breath stops
But my heart has stopped already
I have died but a thousand times
Disdainful laughter from destiny
I have died but a thousand times
In this cozy bubble wherein
Hurt is supposed to be further
Than we're supposed to believe

Numb everything that I felt
And everything that is
Shut up I cannot take it anymore
It and everything that is
Slowly drowning inside
Forever is too far away

For this is not weird
And neither am I
Its but a mystery
Too seek and find within
Its but a conspiracy
Or maybe I'm out of my mind

Numbing doesn't work any more
Nothing does
ANYMORE

Close as can be
Her voice sears through my very existence
Shallows my grief
Taints my fury with glows of humor
Close as can be
Her breath shatters all my delusions
Swallows my fears
Shames my desires with her mighty gravity
My soul in this world
The final tether to my being
The final piece of my resistance

Blamed it
Irresistible gravity around
Blamed it
Sinking in the ground
Faster than the speed of light
Blamed it all
On a tunnel of hyperspace
Faster than the speed of light

Waiting for explanations
Hope and retributions
Waiting for you

A moment passes
Or is it a year?
Questions become mundane
A moment passes
Inimitable carrier
Waiting for explanations

Faster than the speed of light
Blamed it
On nothingness
And blamed
My existence
****** in with no escape
The tape stuck in my head
My resistance
Slowly being replaced
By despair instead

Jettisoning off all
Wilting away all
Like an autumn memory
Like an instant tragedy

Crumbling away
Moldings of affection
In a nuclear winter
Without armageddon
I died
A soft shell annihilation
No dreams but nightmares
I died
A lovely execution
Nothing but emptiness

Eradicating away all
Except you, nothing at all
Like an autumn memory
Like everlasting banality

Singing songs
Of promises and perhaps probabilities and possibilities
Unforgivably forgetting
The selling of your soul and its forbearance.
Provocation upon provocation.

Do not make me promises.
Do not cut open your veins to show
How you bleed my very soul inside you and outside
Do not love me more than I can love you
Let me be so sane
Do not gift me a piece of your soul so raw and blisteringly breathtaking
Luminosity unparalleled and the strength of the womb of a dying sun

For I shall sell even my soul
Rub off my existence from each scrap of nothingness
Rein in my existence to the void
For I shall not stop searching the vastness of this universe situated in my twisted mind
To bring you the most beautiful of sacrifices just to show
What you are to me.

Provocation upon provocation
Upon the existence of life
Of rationality
Of stories old and new
I love you
As much as I can with this hollow temporary shell
On a spinning ball of rock
For an infinitesimally small a moment
I love you
As much as any being of stardust can
And more

The snow melted
As the sun rose up raging
Creating and destroying
All of its creations

She came by with a smile
Into the cold damp place
That was my heart
Filling up the space

She whispered quietly
Do you want to build a snowman?

Awakening from
the dust
Leading me into the open
Each time I heard her say
Do you want to build a snowman?

The sun and its storms
Can't destroy it all
Everything perishes eventually
Yet the last inch of you remains
That is what your heart contains

Deepening my
long lost trust
Of this world so frozen
Each time I heard her say
Do you want to build a snowman?

Alone here
Another soliloquy in my head
Only desires live
and the living dead
Alone here
An abyss for company
Only desires live
and the dreams faraway

Million voices swirl
A black hole in a milkyway
They sparkle and shine
While I drift away

Million voices swirl
The Sun and the Moon and the stars
Collide to condense
****** in an apocalypse
Licking their fresh scars

Darkness cuts into the deepest corners
Living off the bright
Out of mind
Out of sight

Alone here
As the fates divined
Dark and Light
Intertwined

There is a pain inside my chest
It slowly unfurls
To show its hideous face
And yet its not hideous
It terrifies me
Because its no manifestation of a physical condition
It is the child of the small imbalances triggered by the moving of a thousand suns and their descendants
In mysterious ways

There is a pain inside my chest tonight and I cannot tell you how much it hurts to have not felt this before
To see and think and feel the way a hundred thousand have done before and I'm going insane
Stuck in this battle inside my head
Roars of machinations faraway and souls so close to my own it terrifies me

There is a pain inside my chest
It wants me to live again
A demonic beast
With a distilled heart of magnificent proportions demands action
And it lives inside all of us
We simply learn to live with it, like some lifelong pain of heartbreak or the smell of flowers you liked or the the warmth of the sun upon your skin after a long winter night or

The smile on a face so akin to mine
I'm looking for definitions but I'm out of words now
I need a gun and bam
Shoot myself where it hurts the most
But I won't
The pain inside my chest is a story
Of a thousand years
Of pain
Of suffering
Of loss
And the slight cracks from where light escapes and flirts with the darkness
And the life that emerges out of nowhere to defy all
To defy even god
The pain inside my chest is the same as the one inside yours
Veiled by a smile
Or thoughts
Unavoidable disasters
Manifesting its own life, its sorrows and tears
Its own joy, its own love and its own sun

There is a pain inside my chest
Guess this is what it means to be human

A palace on the clouds
A dream on my skin
A love unaffordable
A life in my rein

Shallow doubts
on the existence
I know not who I am
A part of the resistance


Anyone can run
Some may still fight
But I shall stop
Jump off the horizon
A sea of serenades
Awaiting my return
A time of waiting
A time to mourn


Break a glass ceiling
emblazon the heart
With a wail of the proud
A never-ending run
A forlorn start
A piece of the brave
A piece of the strong

Returning a favor
I had once owed someone
Much more than all of this
More than all of me
Returning the favor
I had once seen far and wide
Feelings my spirit screamed for
Trembling
Overwhelmed

Innocuous as it seems
I have owed others too
They who turn the wheels
On this broken down station wagon
Crank it up
Or slow it down

I had once heard
Deeply, freely
Music that emerged
Cacophony unbalanced
But innocence immaculate
Returning the favor
As I return to where I was
Holiday's over

But as I return home
Something has changed
The sounds of musicals
Something has changed
Ineffable, invincible
I have owed a lot
I hope I've given enough

Robbed
Of light and sanity
Recourse
Is dead and buried
The final frailty
The fallen saintly

Your breath is slow and sure
But time reels off on its own
Just another trip around the sun
Just another destiny set in stone

Robbed
From the event horizon
Flung
To the galaxies far
The final mercy
The fallen star

The revelry of wanderers
The mystic hunger of lovers
The amusement of the wise
The sun shining for the flowers
Falling in, you realise
The love and its wonders

A speck of shining metal
And memories ethereal
And the plots you devise
Can only get more surreal
Falling in, you surmise
The love is corporeal

The thoughts make you shiver
And you shall surrender
To memories you fraternise
Though one must remember
Falling in, memorise
The love was real

Somber, the wind calls out
Another storm out here
Despairingly you go seek out
All that you despair
Death won't came at you outright
She only sits and stares
Like footsteps in shallow water
She calls you to her lair

Come out all the waylaid
Its the sun inside
Devour your demons
Your heart and your might
Your smile and your pride

Its too dark in here
And I can't seem to escape
The burden created
All let off on my nape
While the soulless go on quietly

And as we slowly march on now
Sunshine from our hearts bellows
A warcry never heard before
Of the Flood of Mutiny

See the blinding flash
The ray of hope falling around
And I can feel the rush
As though the sirens sound
The doorstep of destiny

Over the meadows that I played
All the sunshine, all the rain
All that made our life worthwhile
Taken from us

All the things I loved and lost
All the things I want back now
You know how you feel inside
As the sirens sound
For the Flood of Mutiny

Butterfly
Fly close
Close to me
Flutter By

Reminders
Coming up
Sinking back
Remind us

Running
Away from
Who you were
Who you are

Floaters
Not for you
Suicidal
the hearts bled

So Butterfly
Keep close
To this heart
Flutter by

Close your eyes
Listen to your heartbeats go slowly
It is but a slow countdown
And there are no lies
No lies, when you close your eyes

Set inside
That human part
The clockwork that is taken apart
Though the gears never melted
And the storms that never settled

Your blood sleeps
Through the days and nights
Cold and dead
Waiting to burn bright

Once said he
A great humane being
Listening to the countdown
And all the truth
All because he closed his eyes

"That wars may come
And wars may go
But my soldiers, they remain eternal
And always have done so"

Place your dreams
In the graves
As you have done forevermore
Though the lights haven't all gone out
Though the darkness hasn't won out

That silence crept up behind you
And you didn't have a chance
Unfailingly it shall remind
The seas you've crossed
The times when greed made you blind

Stopping round the corners where
You find some missing parts around
Where you find these lovers abound
That is when you know it all
And you just go stop and stare

One hand up and one hand down
Scooping up the stories around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

That the story left incomplete
And left you wondering
What might have been and what may be
The skies you've seen
The times of utter frivolity

Strange creatures all making homes
Light and dark all make it gray
Calling you for a permanent stay
That is when you don't realise
And your heart still roams

One hand up and one hand down
Searching all the hearts around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

In a rapture, you just forget
You sway and tumble in a haze
Startled you keep steady yet
You want to stay eternally awake
Till your dreams would let

Over the storm and rocks you swam
Till you find the place you want
Its as though fate brought you here to taunt
As you don't have all whom you love
Was it all a ******* scam?

One hand up and one hand down
Keep gathering the stardust around
I've got them in a bag inside
While I twist fate in a frown
Gathering all the dreams inside

Cut to the chase
giving you a brand new leash
Returning to what I was
Never forgetting
What you've been

Bite the knife
'Cause you've got another day
and Another time
to be another gambler
Another vindicator

Get up off your knees
and smell the rain
The smell of death
mingles in the air

Old knees creaking
Never really running and never giving in
And their souls are screaming
For the graves beckoning

Deep in the hearts of flowers
Where the fragrances lie dormant still
There are burning desires
Where shadows flirt
And minds still deny
A destiny unfruitful

And that is where my heart does lay
Where your feet walked upon the earth
And your smile rushed through the mirth
And that is where my heart does lay
Where your fragrance still is felt
And your lips touched mine
And no war will erase this memory

Speeding down paths I never knew existed.
My troubled mind and troubled heart always had you for company. I could have died in your arms. I was at home finally when I was close enough to your heart that I could hear its beats.

It seems odd now that I have to stay away. That your arms are a shield around the very heart I helped mend, which was as much yours as mine. That I never took back my heart from your *****, where it will always stay.

And though I may become bitter, or I may try and erase you from my head, you will always be there. Like a meteorite on earth, you hit me at full speed, right down to my core. I was changed in ways I couldn't have imagined possible.

I'm homesick now. I try find you in other people. I try building new homes. But I buried my heart near yours and that is where it will always stay. I could have died in your arms. I was at home. Finally.

In isolation
Alone, without you
And no consolation
Could console
My heart, my soul
One day, you walk to me
And an angel smiled
Upon my heart and destiny
Decided what was meant to be

Cheated death by living
But in a moment with you
And I wonder
How do you?

The hurricane, melting away
the memories and the pain
Your eyes, created the storm
Your smile, killed me a thousand times
To revive me, to forget pain
To stand up, again
And I cheated death by living
But in a moment with you
And I wonder
How do you?

I was a kid, immature
Hurtful and ignorant
How would I have known
What I'd lose
For I lost heaven itself

Left your side
When you were fighting
Sulked out
When you were leaving
Yet you smiled
And you said, 'Don't worry'
And all I did was
Wonder
How do you?

Stifling my sorrow
Cold to the bone
Slow stoked fire burning
Through the hell below
Turning back I think
It was only a tomorrow
In my head

As the tempest whispered in my ears
Foretold of the impending doom
I looked at your fair face
And I knew, whatever the shadow
Together we'll embrace
And I knew, whatever the fate
Together we'll lay to rest

Reminiscence floods
The earth kissing
your feet caressing her
On all the flowers
And all the thorns
Turning back I think
It was only a tomorrow
In my head

Hard to forget but its hard to stop
As fate cuts a way open
The walls are always broken
The windows are always shattered
But she had held on to you
The doors are always open
But she had held on to you

As my memories fade
Eternal damnation awaiting
As I lose myself here
I never will lose you
Never again
Turning back I think
It was only a tomorrow

Its all in my head
In my head after all

A stream flows
In a dark place
Sunlight flitting in
Making its own plays
Uncovering the face

The silence isn't deafening
Except it lacks hearts that are beating
Wishers and wishing wells
Womb of unbridled starts
Building of the building blocks

Aeons pass
And the stream never stops
For its dormancy
Was well worth the stop
Aeons will pass
And the stream won't cease
Like the falling leaves
Like the summer breeze
And the wintry trees

Though nothing stays forever
There exist eternities
All the times that have ever been
Are or someday will ever be
Turned into a soliloquy

A stream flows
In my soul
Revolutions cascading
Mocking all and making
Teaching and reminiscing

When the sun stops shining
And the thunder starts
When the winds start blowing
And the hope departs

Stones and ashes, blood and bones
All remains buried and broken
Walking necropolises
And seemingly lovestruck zombies
Loving in despair
**** your heart before you love
Loving in despair

When the seas stop grinding
And sickness arrives
When the orbits dwindling
Shall all collide

Cruel and despondent slaughter
Ritually cannibalistic
Talking brevities of pain
And seemingly awestruck corpses
Loving in despair
**** your heart before you love
Loving in despair

When the stars are exploding
And the dreams shatter
When the trees stop flowering
And the Earth denies all

They say you are born
Naked, with no identity
No name
And no face
Like any other
You are born, crying
A brand new star
Another unknown amalgamation of all that gives life
A fresh start
But not to everyone

For some of us
Are born closer to the earth
A genetic result of a thousand generations
Manifesting its way into marks on my being
Unseen
Unknown
Unwanted
We have a name for us
By Birth

Wherein we are doomed to the fires of hell
If hell were on Earth
And it is here for us
A simple cage with no bars
The burden of a thousand years
And markings made by routine
Justified by the Great Souls
Deeming it but mere control

And even if I change
Resist and break
They say I was born this way
That my mother's womb has left indelible marks I can never erase
A curse that made me wonder
Should I have been born at all?
To feel as deserving as literal baloney
Never to be touched
Never to be felt
Never to be heard
Never to be seen
Dehumanized to an extent where I cannot even believe any more that the sky is blue
Or that there exists the air around me which I need to breathe, to live
I'm no more than a pollutant
Upon the back of whom this world works
But who never sees the light above
Who was supposed to be filtered away into oblivion
Who was always supposed to be the nonentity
The stubborn stain that will not go away

I can never erase
My name
My identity
Even if I pretend
Or literally rip the skin off my face and wear another
If I achieve anything in this world
I shall be put up on a wall to showcase
The marks my mother's womb left
The marks that I can never erase

For some of us were born to hug the earth
Make it our home and heart
The backbone of this whole wide world
The wombs that faced physical retribution and degradation
Of the cruelest kind possible
To be told you can never be better
Than irrelevant specks of dust
Swept beneath an apologetic herd

For some of us are born closer to the earth
I bear my marks with shame no more
I shall take what was mine
I shall bow no more

What is my motherland?
Is it the dust that ravages my lungs
Or the bones of my ancestors
Humming softly the old and forgotten
What is my motherland?
Is it where I was born?
A piece of land, a group of people?

Or is it the place where
It's mothers are graded
In layers
Where some wombs only give birth
To sub humans
Where some wombs are scarred
Born from the ashes of a thousand dreams burnt down
I'm a survivor
Of all they could throw at you

Of all their insults
The predicament
My mother's womb that withstood all it could
And some more

They tell me this is my land
That it is my mother
The birth giver and sustainer of life
I spit on their faces
My motherland never was this piece of land
Or the people who **** on its soul
Each and every day
My people lived in a different world
On this piece of land where we were  worse than animals to you

Where is my motherland?
I have none
Robbed of it since my birth
Where is my motherland?
But in the hearts of all who are like me
Set in stone
Yet defying gravity

You're the half-sun,
in the sea and in the sky
so behind a vessel of clouds
You make rainbows

You're the half-sun,
drifting through the shallow seas
go over and under, and over
spray your light and run

You're the one half-sun
in a sea of stars
your might and your heart
You're the one, the one half-sun

Come under this shield of mine
Hold on so very tight
Excruciation may turn you down
Though you may go back in time

The seeds of frustration around your feet
Let go of all but this shield
Embracing all but this defeat
Let go of all but this shield

Never ask what you'd never tell
Come as close as you might
You might still turn the night down
Holding back, you never fell

Raindrops falling down on us
All I have now is my shield
Fueled up by my desires
All I have now is my shield

Fires want to consume you
And I would gladly burn down now
Taking your miseries out of town
Can't let you feel the blue

Demons and Gods and everything else
Nothing can touch you now
My heart, My shield won't let you down

Justice lay dead
Lying on the floor
The three that died inside

All I felt was
Desperation
I wish I could deny
The bullets that would
Hail around
Still felt me yet alive
I still lived
But for a reason
A bloodlust deep inside

I took my gun
And went to war
I killed till none survived
Looked around
There were a million smiles
As though it was divine

But justice lay dead
On the floor
And I saw my face inside
Demons My Divine
But I'm his own criminal

Corsing through the veins
Another being inside my skin
Scarred and revealing
A diminished white dwarf
Or a shiny black hole
Dreams never radiating

I cannot breathe any longer
As I did
Another being inside my skin
Making me stronger

Souls with shady stains
Relics from the darkest reign
Ravaged yet remaining
Jupiter pulling at the seas
Or the desire of the lovelorn moon

I cannot live any longer
As I did
You're the being inside my skin
A chalice of harmony
And an aura angelic

Unruffled,
those feathers tell me
how rough its all been
But it can never be
can never be,
the same again

Disastrous
Your skin is so cold
Take away
All you're told
How can it ever be
Can it ever be
the same again

A silence in the breeze
A hope thats reeled
Just a steely mime
But I have no regrets
No regrets
This time

Rag picker on the street
Dust eater and maggot breather
She can tell the smell
Of burning plastic and paper
Of turning dung to soil
She knows the ways
Between the hills of refuse
Between the footfalls of her children
But who cares who she is
The lost and never found
Inherited a kingdom thrown away

Who cares what she thinks
She finds meanings in a bottle
Looks at a glossy magazine and wonders
Her slightly bent back aches
Sun ravages her skin each day
Brazen with resistance like herself
Her skin glistens with labors each day
Filling her heart with hazy dreams

Who cares what she sees
She hears those kids play faraway
A world insulated from her own
Where plastic is used and thrown away
And the worst smells won't make you sway
She sees the worth of this world
For what it truly is
She lives in the belly button
Never forgetting it was the beginning
And it may be the end

But who cares what she says
She's just another sweeper
Another rag picker
Treasure hunter and bounty filler
She sings old forgotten ballads
Songs with no beginnings
Songs with no creators
As she looks for something
An old school bag, a plastic earring

But who cares who she is
Just another one of these
Souls in an eternal sea
They never were
They never will be
An entire generation
Of nonentities
Forgotten children of Destiny

Sorry
I feel nothing else
Drowning in disasters
Complete release
I feel nothing else
Repeated blunders
And running into tree trunks
I feel nothing else
But regret

Slowly filling all existence
Like a slow implosion
Without the slightest resistance
I see life and death
Unworthy of reminiscence
Unworthy of acknowledgement

Sorry
I feel nothing else
Sinking under the weight
Anchored among wishes
I feel nothing else
Anymore

I was born
A raised fist
A superman
A self-esteem built through
Tender love
I was born
A commitment
A future
My eyes carried a flame inherited
Relentless struggle
Scars and shadows that underlines
Everything that we are

As time leaves us behind
I understand
My fists opened up
They come together
In a series of
Shame and regret
Missed opportunity
A wasted life
Wasted dreams when I heard
Nothing because I closed my ears
Shut my eyes
Spoke no more
Dead outside as within
I understand but I cannot
Accept
Reject this being with all its glory
Glory and an endless sob story

I was born with a flame
I will extinguish it
Keep the coal warm till it crumbles
With the ashes let another write
Write my sins down to remember
Write me down to remember
Remember
Fist
Fire
Forging dreams
Feeling love

Forgiveness is a gift
I refuse to take with me
Remember to bury me under
Flowers of Passion
Remember to bury me