How should I know
if this is true
or just a lie
if you behave not the same way
as your mouth does

(I wish your mouth would be lying)

it's always the same thing every night
we meet.
we embrace.
our lips touch.
our tongues play.
until night is upon us
and we go our separate ways.

my body longs for more.
my lips call out yours
until my mind does its wonders
and makes doubt enter my core.

and the anxiety flows
from my trembling heart
thru every single artery, vein, and nerve
that makes my eyes water;
my back tense;
my body shiver;
and my mind lose sense.

it closes in on my arms
and slowly creeps its way
to yesterday's cuts on my wrists
and reaches its way to my fingers.
then forces itself to rhyme
on a crimson-splattered piece of paper.

on and on, I will continue to write
until I hear your most beautiful good night.
even if I feel I'm not your only one
the illusion kicks back in. a poem is done.

Still cries
Whispers of misfortune
"It'll be okay"
He promises so lovingly
"What's mine...
Will always be yours"
I don't want...
To be like this...
I just want to have equality
We're the same aren't we?
Why am I treated less?
I want to be you
Not this... brokenhearted
He kisses me gently
And warms my hands
"I give you
All that I have
Because nothing in this world
Means anything to me
Compared to your smile"

I guess I won that stupid fight of "I love you more."

I loved you from the very first time I actually laid eyes on you I know it's kind of weird cause I just met you but don't you believe in love at first sight or look or glaze I do I mean I have to believe in something so why can't it be you

I know you're hurtin'
So am I
I think it's time
To say goodbye
We must admit
Our love's a lie
I can not love you
If you won't try

I will not share you
With someone else
You can not know
The pain I felt
Like a whipping
From a leather belt
When you kissed him
My heart did melt

It's time that we both went our own ways
There's no trust left in our lives
The love we had is gone for good
I can see that in your eyes
There is no way to start again
What we had once now is gone
It's time we went our own ways
And admit that we are done

A cheater cheats
This I learned
This time it is my cheek
That's turned
Another relationship
is burned
A cheater cheats
It's now my turn

I could see
deep in your eyes
A love you could not
help disguise
For someone else
And not for I
Let's end this game
And say goodbye

It's time that we both went our own ways
There's no trust left in our lives
The love we had is gone for good
I can see that in your eyes
There is no way to start again
What we had once now is gone
It's time we went our own ways
And admit that we are done