It's true that I'm lost
through a dark and lonely cave
and it's true that I have myself
stuck deep inside of its misery
I'll admit that I love it and want
to be there for as long as possible
my friends say that it is unhealthy,
that I'm ruining my happiness
but what could be more happier
than being ten thousand feet away
from the troubles of the world?

When my body aches in pain,
When my loved ones leave,
When my hair turns gray,
When my brain loses memory,
When my heart beats no more,
My love will be as pure and whole
As the day that I first met you.

There's no more room to breathe,
No more stories left to be told
I've been living in the same place
For one too many years now
It's a harsh world to face,
And I'll need to figure it out
Moving farther away from my past
To bring me closer to my future
Here I have such a history to carry
I must sit and accept that the people
I love the most will leave me
To find their place in this world.

Where's mine?

Within us all lives a spirit
There is no easy way to decipher it
It creates feelings inside of you
That you never thought you could have
Your spirit leaps from brain to heart
In a matter of seconds like a tick
And makes your life choices
It chooses your first kiss,
Your first feeling of true despair,
Your first opinions of other people
And yes, it will choose against you,
But you will forgive and forget it,
For it is the bravery you don't have.

We all begin life floating in an endless bubble,
Looking for something to save us
Some of us find solace in divinity,
Others find the warm call of love
But we all have our spirit to thank
For finding our bubble and bursting it
Even when you live in the corners of the dark
And have no way of being saved,
It will find you.

It found me.

I cry for my past self
As I search through the wreckage
Of past mistakes to find him
In this world, I am left with pain
And a reminder of my history
It is an archive of mistakes
That stands at the forefront
Of this abandoned earth.

I find him cold and naked,
Laid down in a manger
He looks so emotionally pure
I wish I had found him sooner
I pick him up and cradle him
We cry with all of our might
And synchronize our heartbeats
To remind each other that
We're the same human beings
Then his fragile body collapses
And I'm left with ashes in my hands.

In this moment, I am left with closure
But I will never have another chance
To fix my past loneliness and troubles
So I walk back home, where it is then
I will find enough strength to crawl my body
Through the depths of pain and be set free.

I trust in the calls of the fallen.

They are the ones who landed
on the cold ground;
I wish I could have shown them
the big blue ocean
that had lay not too far away.

It's crippling to see people,
even when in agony and despair,
sleep through it all.
How do they even handle it?
Is it hard to wake up from it?
Do they ever wish for an escape?

Like many of the near-fallen,
I lay in the sullen shadows
It's not a very healthy place, I know,
but I suppose no one is in perfect harmony.
If I could find an easier life to live, I would;
To dispose of this body, however,
would defeat my purpose in this world.

I trust in the calls of the fallen.

She's inside of me
And I want her out
My guilt is floating past
Like troubled ghosts on Earth
The past intertwines with my brain,
Twisting apart my limbic system
Truth is, life ***** --
Pain is more than pleasure,
My incessant memories overlook happiness...
My forks in the road all carry my signature.

I wish I had indecisive tattooed
And inverted across my forehead
So I could look in the mirror
And be able to understand my decisions.