Strings sing blunder when
I'd wished you were there a cold,
Cold night years prior.

I can't unlove because I am
Impatient, selfish.
I love as if I cannot be hurt.
Going on as if nothing is wrong.
I cannot unlove because I know not how.
I spend my nights awake dreaming of how everything should have been.
The speeches I have amongst myself
Lost in complete darkness.
Accepting the sound of my voice as an I told you so.
Seeking a dream that seems so far away.
I can't unlove because I accept disappointment.
The contempt of putting others first without fear.
I truly believe I cannot unlove because I am in love.
Young again in thought running wild, free.
I consider it a perk.
Being the only other person I know how to be.
No longer embarrassed of facing the opposite end of the mirror.
Finding that the most important things bring the most smiles.
I am far from perfect
But I cannot unlove as if I made some sort of mistake.
Purposely mistaking myself as a fool

9 months have passed and I still feel small
I threw away everything, photos and all
I felt empty for months, angry this fall,
but now I'd give anything to be your next call.

Your tactics were perfect, like beautiful seas
I was so eager to let you control me
Because surrendering felt like ectasy
And your grip around my neck had warming properties

If there is
Just one thing I could do differently
I would go back to that night
And catch every single tear
That fell from your eyes

I don't know which is worse,
Feeling okay despite of the devastating events happening
or do nothing because you can't change anything.

~ Fools Gold ~

There's no
Fool like
An old Fool;

Fools deserve
Only
Fool's gold;

A Fool and
His heart
Are soon parted;

do Fools
deserve
Anything...
But
A Fool's pardon?