I miss spelled you're name purposely.

You're always there when I need you urgently.

I don't think you realize the impact you have on me personally.

5,474.7 km away yet your still by my side.

Thank you for listening through all the times I have cried.

or even confessing to you when I have lied.

you took my passion for aggression

I only come off that way because of my depression


I miss you

and that is my confession

How can I even explain how I feel

I've known him for years,
because of him I've drowned in tears
because of him I've sinned and lost my peers

everything changed within two days
and now I just wanna see everything in a blue haze

I somehow see a strange sign
why are we always associated with one another?

no matter how far we drift
somehow there becomes a shift

what will happen next?

it was at it's peek when i was with you
cherishing every conversation and every syllable
our bond was perfect and needed nothing additional

i wanted to be a part of your journey
although ur life wasn't perfectly pearly

fights with your dad
watching you turn mad
calming you down was the power i had

i was never bothered
your love was enough and was what you had offered

my mind is a board game
my feelings are like the dice ready to be tossed
and in the end, i feel though i have lost

the first move that sparked the connection.
i began to gain affection
thinking of him was nothing but perfection

i became a victim of your love
and i could never ever get enough
ur silence hurt me more then violence
ur my drug
i keep crawling back for more
your unhealthy toxic
i wanted to believe the love we had was firm
trying to text you like we are on good terms
i lost myself through this all
your smiling while watching me fall
i've tried and tried
people tell me to stop wasting my time
they say saving our love is just like saving a crime
a small part of me still has hope
hope that doesn't seem to fade away