Hayley Coleman

Hayley Coleman May 2014

Dear Mother I am sorry
For all that I've done.
I've used your love, your money, and your home
Without bothering to apologize or thank you for it all.
And now you are weeping and I feel ashamed
For using you and abusing you in the most horrible way.
You gave birth to my every existence
And to that, all your children are grateful.
I see you are aging but this cancer is a terrible thing,
It's even worse knowing that your children and I have caused it.
We're trying our hardest to take it all back,
Make you all better so we don't have to worry anymore,
And hopefully make your eyes shine brighter than they have before.
I hope that's a good enough apology for you.

Love, the rest of us

mother is a word representing the Earth and the environment

May 2014

adshimabuko

The taste of you

Most of us write
of how bitter
our first kisses
tasted

Mine
tasted like
a limited edition candy
found in an old candyshop
after three years

Like
exhaled smoke
of your first
mentholated cigarrete

it tasted
like home
after years of
being lost

#love #kiss #broken #life #girl #lust #lips #lovely #guy #missunderstood

Hayley Coleman May 2014

Peach

And these years turn into moments as I see my memories fade
Just as the smoke from my lips slowly wisps toward the ceiling;
Hazy, and seeming to slowly deteriorate as they venture forth.

As moments once seemed so vivid and real
I see them vanishing before my eyes in a cloud of bittersweet nostalgia
Never to return but only in those blissful moments when the smoke just barely releases from it's hold in my lungs.

And if I were to remember this moment as my fingers translate my thoughts into words,
Maybe I wouldn't feel so sad.

Hayley Coleman May 2014

Reflections in a Plane Mirror

I have never met one so broken,
So raw,
So completely exposed.
But, maybe that is only because I have found my way beyond your steep walls.
I have somehow dug under, or floated over, one method or the other,
And found myself here staring at someone I have never seen before.
This girl was important and she seemed very sure,
But something in her eyes told me otherwise.
So I stared and I cared and pretended to listen as she told me the truth from start to end.
And at the end of her story, I found that misery was not only found in her eyes,
But that her eyes were mine and I was seeing myself
For the first time.

May 2014

kyla marie

15 texts I (almost) sent you

I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]

Hayley Coleman May 2014

Hello, June.

I long for the heat and the rain and the green
Of the leaves as they blow in an August breeze;
With that smell of fires, and propane, and smoke, and the ocean
And the excitement of children when the fireworks light the sky.

I crave the affection of a carefree attitude,
The utter perfection of love and appreciation.
I want to listen to the sound of the days passing by
And hear my life be completed by each passing moment.

I want to lay in the grass and notice the sky,
Not for the color but for it's incredible height.
I wish I could forever remain in the clouds,
But I will surely shoot back down once September comes around.

Hayley Coleman May 2014

Safe

Loves sees no boundaries,
Love sees no limits,
So why is it that I feel my heart quit?
Every so often, I feel so alone,
And I feel myself close,
And become a body
That no one can hold.