I failed to mention my frustration
when I told you "no" without hesitation,
but you pulled me in with determination,
and left my body full of devastation.
I laugh when you're brought up in conversation.
The truth is that I'm avoiding confrontation.

I don’t want to get high off of drugs.

I want to be high on life,

the crisp october breeze outside.

I want to be high off of you

breathe into my lungs.

you are the blood in my veins

so warm to the touch. 

whether you’re here or not,

your body will forever haunt mine.

a ghost, a soul, always on my mind.

when you scavenged my virginity,

you also discovered my heart.

I realize now these things 
aren’t far apart.

I can’t separate love from lust.

I don’t mean to bite your neck-

but when our bodies ****** as one,

I feel like a vampire.

I am plagued with thoughts of you
that keep me awake at night
until ungodly hours.
I am forced to remember the good times.
My brain chose to forget the bad.
I hope you perpetually think of me too,
like a virus that you just can't get rid of.

I want to kiss your lips.
The ones between your hips, I mean.

he searched for her
he found her
he had her
he loved her
he no longer loved her
he left her
he lost her

it is of utmost importance
to not be afraid of yourself.