your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

all the fireflies have gone
and I am abandoned in darkness
here, I can feel the emptiness
of where love used to live

We're so broken inside
that we're suspicious of
everything that makes us happy.

I sink
deeper and slower
into emerald
and turquoise so dark
it's almost black
the water claiming me
finally, as it should
pressuring my lungs to collapse
under the lightest weight
engulfed in deep blue
love

my desire for you is like a dead language
it aches that you can't understand it
and I can't speak it.

- A Secret

Everlasting madness,
distinctive chaos,
yet I still crave you more.

Do you think god
Hides in heaven
Because he too
Lives in fear
Of what he's created?

she is a happy ending,
not everyone can wait for.