All I want right now
Is you
Right here
Lying beside me
In my bed
Sleeping innocently
The way we did at camp
The way you played with my hair
And stroked my arm with your thumb
Gently running it up and down
Feeling your breath on me
Your chin resting on my head
Listening to the steady heartbeat in your chest
Feeling safe in your arms
Genuinely happy
With the light flutter
Of butterflies
Moving in my stomach
The smile creeping in on my face
As you move your hand to my back
Pull up the back of my top
And gently rub my bare back
Your foot curled over mine
So even if you let me go
I could still feel you there
And be able to sleep
I want to go back to that time
All I want is you
Right here
Right now
With me
In your arms
Feeling your gentle touch
And listening to your heartbeat
Resting on your chest
I want you
I miss you
I need you

Fake a smile darlin
They'll never suspect a thing

i've lost more people than i realized i had to lose

So they cut
These words
Like the blade that sung your melody
As you cast it from your razor
Or your plethora of phrases
Come backs
Snarky remarks
And stainless steel
Like frost bitten angels we wail
And spit words like knives
If insults could sever arteries
We'd be less
Left
For dead
So we cut
With shaking hands and quivering jawlines
We cut with our moms good sewing scissors
And bitter cusses
And self defecating tunes
To save our souls from being cut by someone else
We are our own
Worst enemy

I am happy
I am sad
I'm a happy kind of sad