As I drift in the middle of this body of water

This vast abyss reminds me of our time on the earth


The waves unpredictable 

Yet you can see them coming


The sun cool at first

But then grows hotter

These people that either give you hell or give you help


This storm of bad fortune

Makes the waves grow taller and the people grow smaller


As they go away to their shelters to leave you at sea

Because when this place is at it's worse

That's when you are left alone 


That's when you must fight the wind and the waves all by yourself 

To get back to where you belong

I must be lost inside myself

I cannot escape this unreal reality

I am stuck in a world that does not exist

In a world that will never exist

But I don't think I can find the pathway out

And even if I did I'm not sure I'd follow the light

picking and scratching
my skin bleeding
the scars all over remind me of certain times in my life
when the stress got too much to handle and I sat in the bathroom for hours
destroying the body that was given to me
burning down my humble abode
just picking and scratching away at my sanity
which I'm not sure I ever really had
the scars that I get comments on daily
'Did you try to hurt yourself?'
'Are you alright?'
'Are you being abused or unsupervised?'
no answer really just staring at them;
whilst picking at my scabs in that blissful agony that I love to feel

Grief consumed by vampires
Ravenous for pain and loss,
An arm around the shoulders,
A rictus grin, another gaping maw,
Then a quick flash.
Acknowledging their hunger, he has none of his own
And no-one else to feed,
He is the son of a new angry tribe
And a father of none.

Set ease in soul
and rest your mind
Take time to listen
Take time in time

Risk for achievement
set worries aside
Failures false
Just expectation lost

Learn to ride the waves
No matter how high the tide

For if the worst becomes us
Or threats or harms us
At least you we're embracing your dream of life

Come out of comfort
with faith it will all work

Treat yourself with kindness
Welcome challenge to create change and
  really try this!

In practice we learn
In passion we burn

The clock still ticks
You still exist
Now go succeed
Feel greatful to breathe!

You possess the gift life
And the birth given right

To truly and absolutely be
Completely

Happy:)