Be happy!
Dance in the rain,
And sing along to the songs you love!

Smile when it starts to rain,
And stare blankly at the stars without blinking.

Stay home, watch movies,
And slide across the floor with socks on.

Enjoy the little things,
And be happy!

i have days where
i don’t smile
my tears fall
like raindrops
my voice breaks
everytime i try to talk
only seeking comfort
in my dreams
it’s impossible to
cheer me up
spending a whole day in bed
my thoughts are hidden
just curled up in the dark
i have days
where i'm just in a dark place

*(s.m)

I need help,
anyone that can take me away from myself.
Someone to say that I'll be okay,
that it'll all go away someday,
and that I'll see the old me again.

I wonder if she knows she's losing me,
My best friend reads my messages and forgets to reply,
Just as I scream out 'I want to die'
And I wonder if she knows how close she is to losing me.

I swallowed a box full of pills,
Swished a glass of whiskey in my mouth.
Still I haven't been allowed my easy out.
Every message I send feels like rocks in the pockets of the drowning,
I only sink ever deeper into this dark.
If I felt joy maybe I could smile at her jokes, her attempts at distraction,
But all I feel is this weight in my chest,
The weight of a heart that can never rest.

She tries to remind me of God,
of the love I should let surround me,
But I am incapable of comprehending an ethereal kind if love when even human affection remains a mystery to me.
How can I feel His love when I don't even feel worthy of human love,
When I reject the love of creatures that are here and palpable to me?

I wonder if she knows she's losing me.  
Can she see how hard I'm trying to let go of the dark parts?
Can I still have a best friend if I have no soul or heart?
And I wonder if she can tell that she has already lost me.