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Nov 2 · 32
gabriel
sage Nov 2
i hated him at first.
he was short and annoying and stole my book from my table during english so i hated him.
that was how easy it was at age eleven to decide how you feel.

but we became friends, very good friends, actually. he was still short and annoying, but so was i, so we decided it was okay. he was the only boy who would still playfight with me even though i was a girl, and i was glad that at least somebody didn't treat me differently, dangerously. i was glad i stopped hating him.

we were playfighting once, right before first bell, when he jabbed at me and i forgot to move and he got me in the eye. it was an accident and i yelped in pain and he held my head like puppies do, im so sorry and are you hurt and i didn't mean it falling from his mouth quicker than i could tell him i was okay. there is a single bloodshot line perpendicular to my right iris, seven years later.

in year nine he dated the girl i had a crush on. it lasted two months and he sent her a christmas card after the break up, laden with curses and swears and wishes for a terrible new year. she showed everyone, even the teachers, and laughed at his immaturity. i asked him why he did it. he said he didn't know. i told him it made him look stupid. he didn't tell me anything back.

he dated my best friend in sixth form. she said she was relieved i was gay, or else she would be insecure. i spent two years hearing her stress of whether he wanted her, and i began to hate him again. she begged me not to speak to him about it. if he thought that she had ruined my friendship with him, she said, he would get mad. i said nothing. we stopped playfighting.

he texted me a year before their final break up. he told me he wanted to cut it off, but she kept threatening to **** herself. i told him he had done enough and it was time to walk away. he thanked me and told me he missed me. they got back together three months later.

they broke up after nearly four years of on and off. he abused her. he spiked another girl's drink. he let his friends assault women he was dating and told them they were crazy to be upset about it.

he's named for the angel. somewhere in my heart i think he can still be good, but i know that love is for a boy long dead. the man that wears his face is someone i never want to be near. he was always good to me, and it made it hard to hate him. i don't like being the exception. it leaves a terrible taste in my mouth.
gabi if you see this i hate you. please be a good person. i miss the way things used to be.
Nov 1 · 36
thread cutter
sage Nov 1
i sew. i own a pair of thread cutters, tiny scissor blades on an ergonomic handle. it's very easy to cut thread, paper, tape, whatever you need to trim down from tailoring.

last month i took the cap off of my tool and stabbed myself in the forearm. it sounds worse than it is. or maybe it sounds just as bad as it is, and my radar for what is normal is off-kilter from years of slicing back and forth across my skin. i had done it a few times before, and told myself that it was shallow, and did not draw blood, so it didn't count as self-harm. i'm not usually this willfully ignorant, i swear.

i heard a pop as the points dug in. it terrified me. i had looked away as i plunged my hand down so i wouldn't hold back on the pain. i wasn't looking, and pushed far deeper far closer to the blue stream of blood vessel millimeters from the surface.

there was a terrible split-second where i thought i had just killed myself by mistake. everything went white, and flashed in technicolour, and the beat of my heart raced to stratosphere and drowned out the neverending buzz of electricity until i could hear, see, think of nothing but blood blood blood.

but i was wrong. i popped my skin, but the vein was untouched. i got lucky. it barely bled, but the bruise flowered about two inches around the twin punctures and didn't fade for a fortnight. blue, purple, brown, yellow, gone. the punctures are still pink and raised, but they are small and easy to hide amongst the constellation moles across my body.

i can feel the tunnel of the wound between my fingers, underneath the skin, where it hasn't fully healed. i roll it around in my fingertips like the scar of my umbilical cord, but i can't place what it connects me to. a better poet would make a metaphor of it, but i am not a poet. i am a self destructive, impulsive, stupid girl that pours her sorrows onto a ****** laptop keyboard in an attempt to make it beautiful, because if it's beautiful it's not just pathetic.

i asked my girlfriend to take the thread cutters, to keep them with her until i felt okay enough to have them around again. she didn't ask questions and i thought of marrying her for it. i told myself enough was enough and this time i was walking away from the rage and wasn't coming back.

i meant it. i really did. last monday i scratched myself with a seam ripper over and over until my vision cleared. the reason i tell myself is that physical injury snaps my brain out of hysteria and forces me to take care of myself. it doesn't work anymore. i just hate myself more for reaching out to metal like a child instead of solving my problems. i didn't tell my girlfriend about this. i know she saw, i know she knows, but she does not ask questions, and i love her for that. answering would make us both feel worse. but she holds me, and makes me tea, and listens to podcasts she doesn't care about so i can fall asleep. at this rate i won't have any ****** sewing supplies left.

in the dark she heard me crying. felt it more than anything. i can cry in complete silence, but the stuttering of my chest under her hand gives the game away.

'what is it?' she asked me.

i waited. said nothing for a moment.

'it's been eight years,' i whispered, 'i'm scared i'll be like this for the rest of my life.'

'you won't be. you're the strongest person i know' she said.

'i don't care about strong. i just want to be happy.'

she whispered something into my hair, but i couldn't make out the words. she has things she is afraid of being for the rest of her life too, and as sick as it makes me, i'm glad we understand each other.

this is not a poem. it's a confession. everything is. i don't deal in fiction. i walked out of the church at sixteen and four years later I'm trapped in the booth with the voiceless father, spilling sin after sin and he opens his mouth but instead of absolution, viscous black pile drips from his lips. i've searched for god more times than i care to count, but he is determined to hide from me, so the answer must come from elsewhere.

i'm trying to get therapy. i decided years ago when grieving a friend i would never take my life, so if i am resigned to endure it i am determined to enjoy it. i'm bored of suffering. i want sunlight and happiness and a balcony with a view. i don't want to hurt myself. i want to be kind to her, because she is fragile. i'm working on it. sometimes i will fail, and that is okay. i write this down mouthing the letters as they go, convincing myself each one is true.

i will fail but it is okay because i am trying. i will recognise when i succeed. people love me and i love them too, and none of us deserve this. i am excited to look backwards one day and be glad i am no longer this version of myself. i'm excited to meet the next one. in the end, whenever that is, i will be okay.
i am going to stop self harming on GOD i will stop. like to charge reblog to cast.
sage Jul 11
i sit upright, cross legged, chest heavy with ghosts
and transparent in a trapped beam of daybreak.
my back against the nightstand that was my grandfathers before mine.
he is dead and the top two drawers do not close right.

in the first lies a razor blade i have not used since i was 17,
it sits atop a birthday card from someone i can’t truthfully still call a friend
we don’t speak
but there is still a home for her in my life, the bed made and warm, should she ever choose to return.

there are a hundred pictures strewn around of someone i no longer am
i feel the weight of her in this place
i paint the walls and strip the bed and throw away my clothes
but this is still her room, not mine.
i can hear her crying late at night when the tissue paper curtains let in too much light to sleep

i don’t look like her anymore
she feels dead, is dead, was dead the moment i stopped being her and became someone else
but when i flip through my life like a waiting room magazine i cannot find where it happened

i know she was afraid of losing herself
i remember the fear, heavy and cold wrapped around my spine, crawling into my rib cage
i don’t know how to tell her i did, and i’m happier for it
she is lost and she is gone and i am free so WHY can i not escape
why does my head fill with static when i think about my life for too long

i clean her things, finally throwing away the memories that mean nothing beyond the act of rememberance
letting go of a life that no longer feels like mine
grieving a death that didn’t happen
i wonder if that’s why my friends don’t speak to me
because i am not myself, and yet i can’t be anything else
i put that thought in a box with the other things and set it aside for the dump

this room is mine for the next two months,
after that i’ll run back to the damp safety of another city where her ghost cannot find me
and i’ll find the peace she could not
and, just maybe, one day i will catch my own eye in the mirror
and she won’t be dead at all
she’ll be right where i left her

until then, i’ll throw away her things, paint the walls again, exorcise my cell until i can lie down and breathe without the hand around my throat
i don’t know how to feel about my younger self. i know even less how she would feel about me
sage Apr 3
something is rotting inside of me.
i feel its heaviness spread from the centre of my chest
i know it is not my heart, for it sits right behind my sternum.
but it has made its way there.
and through my blood spreads its crushing static
it follows me. the decay.
i am never alone.
even when my door is locked and my window is bolted and there is nobody beside me.

i fear i am losing my mind, losing my grip.
i fear more so that i am not, and i am completely within myself,
and this is myself.
i cannot touch someone for too long,
in case i am catching
and i infect them with whatever is causing my skin to hang from my bones in ways that do not fit

but my lord i am so lonely, and i am so tired
though it seems all i do is sleep,
and i am begging for someone to hold me long enough to push my muscles back into a shape that looks human

i am afraid i will ruin everything i love because i do not know how to love it.
and i will be back where i have always been, alone at a party, with people at every inch around me saying nothing.

i knew, when the sky finally cleared, that the rain would come again.
but the sunlight was warm and easy,
so i did not seal my roof tiles.
and now the buckets on the kitchen floor are full
and the water has nowhere else to go.
i’ll be okay
Mar 1 · 181
atoms and self love
sage Mar 1
years ago, when i would climb fully clothed into a dry bathtub to cry, i would think about atoms.
my own, specifically. though whether any of them are still mine, i do not know.
the atoms making my bones, my liver, my lungs, are older than stars.
what were they before me?
that's not the question that scared me. what scared me, scares me still, is if i am made of anyone else. and if they should despise what they had become.

but at the end of history, for it has finally come, it seems silly.
who cares what i am made of?
the world is full of death and fire and shoes with separate toes.
why waste the time to care about the history of my skin?
and while this voice who belongs to nobody makes an excellent point, and i am aware of my ridiculousness as it pours down my face, i cannot shake it.
our minds have not evolved to fit the whole world. i cannot visualise it.
the great, stomping, climate-change godzilla is transient. he phases through the walls of my brain like a ghost, chains scraping along the floor as he goes.
but he finds me, as he leaves me, alone with myself.

and that, i can never run from.

i can cut my hair off with fabric scissors in the middle of the night. i can fill my empty hours with meaningless, instant content i forget as soon as it ends. i can move houses, cities, entire continents. but in blasted spite of every effort, it's still me.
of course i preoccupy myself. it's the one thing from which i shall never escape.

there is no way to trace my body backwards through time. that i know.
i will be myself for the rest of my life. that i also know.
planet earth may not outlive me. makes a trinity of knowledge i have.

so where do i go? stuck inside a body who feels like a stranger, hurtling ever forwards on an increasingly broken world.
i would love someone to come to me, preferably accompanied with a cloud of smoke and ****** of crows, and give me the secret of a life that never feels like static.
but that's only because I'm waiting for a quest that won't come.

no, the solution is far less fantastical, far less the stuff of poetry.
i have to learn to like myself. to know them, trust them, to build a foundation stronger than anything i can break it with.
and though i have already started, i am nowhere near finished. maybe i never will be.
but that is a fear i am letting go of, finger by finger, releasing my grip on.
eventually the wind can sweep it away, and i can forget.
hehe idk
sage Dec 2020
several months ago, i wrote about love.
how i thought it would be fire, sunlight, a single candle in an empty room.
i built a girl to put all my love into so i had a way to let it out,
but i had never loved then, and now i have.

i love a girl with short hair and dark eyes who is allergic to all my favourite foods,
and she made me realise that loving was easier than i feared.
i love her without hesitation, without waiting, without restraint.
but when she loved me back i was afraid. i'm afraid now.

because what happens when - not if- she wakes up and sees me as i do?
she sees she was wrong, and i am not warm or kind or anything she thinks of me.
and a voice whispers above the fear that maybe she's right, and i am wrong.
if she does not see how awful i am, how awful could i really be?

she thinks i am good to her because i am good. but its not true.
i love her because of her, not myself.
i am good for her because i want her to be happy with me, and i want to deserve the esteem she holds me in.

and in the core of my heart i know i'm just scrambling for reasons to ruin things,
because i'm happy in a way i've never been before.
and i hold onto her like i am afraid she'll vanish once my brain stops screaming at me.
i wonder how she can look at me and not be repelled like i am.

but i don't think i would hate myself if i were somebody else.
if i was a stranger, what would i think?
the truth is, i don't think I'm a bad person.
i think i am loved and that terrifies me.
because what have i done to deserve it?
it cannot be enough.

i was used to dealing with myself at my worst,
to licking my wounds like a cat in silence
but now she is here and determined to stay
and i want her to.
so if she wants to see everything i will let her,
and the rest is her choice to make
i love my gf but not myself it seems
Aug 2020 · 253
imagining time
sage Aug 2020
the future is a recent concept to me.

i spend my entire life looking backwards, to worlds and people that left me behind long before i was born.
reaching into water i can't see the bottom of, down on my knees in the mud, just close enough to the edge to sweat.
i thought of futures sometimes, occasionally, sleek and chrome with wires peeking through each rusted corner.
but they were never futures i was a part of. always for a generation whose parents were yet to exist, a century i couldn't even count to.

i didn't imagine my own adulthood at all until a week before my 18th birthday.

when i was a child it never crossed my mind. i didn't realize yet that youth was a state that all except the tragic move beyond.

i pried a disposable razor apart with nail clippers when i was twelve, and pulled it through my skin.
once the anger drained itself dry i stared at the scratches, the edges, the angles between them,
as if i was investigating a cave painting, making guess after empty guess at meaning and motivation and reason.
until i remembered that skin would scar.

and suddenly every year of an average life hit at once, and i panicked.
it was long, unbearably long. minutes stretched into days and a decade sounded unending.
so i resigned myself to simply
                                  
                       ­                                         not make it.


and i told myself that, often, for years.
i would set a date, tidy my room, make sure i had all my arguments settled.
then i would cry, and fail, and come up with an excuse to postpone it a few months.

i tried twice, on the same day, four years apart.
i even tried to go to school the morning after each overdose, but i never made it past midday.
i ran off the morning bus the first time, puked and cried and stared at strangers who walked past thirteen year old me, unflinching, until i was done.
i was half dragged, half carried, half conscious to my classes, until i got sent home. but i said i was tired, and nobody asked questions.

when i was seventeen i made it to the alleyway by the school gate before vomiting, eyes watering from the force and the fear.
a man in a van bought me water and offered to drive me to hospital. i wondered what he was doing four years ago.
but the hospital told my parents, and gave me a counsellor, and a month into therapy she asked me why i had nearly thrown away an entire future.

i couldn't answer her. i cried, and we were silent, and she changed the topic.
what could i tell her? that the future always cut off a few vague months ahead whenever i tried to look at it? that i had never even expected myself to get this far? that my entire life has felt like borrowed time? no, then she would only ask more. and i just wanted to leave.

so i left, and somewhere along the way i stopped going back, stopped answering her calls, her letters, her voice asking my mother if i was still alive.
it was a week before my 18th birthday when i realised i would actually live to see it.

but i've made it through a whole year of university so far, despite never thinking i would leave school. it's been one year and four months of winging it now.
time still passes when you aren't looking,
and somehow i made it this far.

i've accepted the rest of my life, however long it is. i hope as much as i fear. i'm tired, mostly. i'm angry at myself for wasting so much time. but there's nothing i can do about that now, i just have to move forward.

i wonder sometimes, often, if i will ever get to a point where i will be okay forever. where i can take the sad little piece of myself that i carry each day out of my pocket, put her down, and walk away.
i don't think i will, but i'm trying to make my peace with that.
if u actually read the whole thing number one thank u and number two pls tell me so i can thank u
sage Aug 2020
it's too late to call you, but i stare at your number anyway.
with a picture that no longer looks like you staring back at the dark,
clouded by a fuzzy head and wet eyes.
as i desperately try to tell myself that it's okay to be strangers sometimes.

but i'm lying.

i can't live as a stranger to you. i don't know who that leaves me to be.

i want you to look me in the eye and see me down to my soul so i don't have to embarrass myself by telling you,
because i always sound pathetic out loud.
i want you to know me so i don't have to know myself
i want you to love me so i never have to look my reflection in the eye and feel my insides turn at the sight.

every time that i tap into the sadness it threatens to pour out of me at once.
and i cannot touch the wave that crashes inside my chest for fear that i will splinter,
and everything will fall until it is broken.
and i have nowhere left to hide.
and you will see me.

as i am, anything other than as i am.
i feel like i have been waiting for something for my entire life.
i have been waiting for an okay that will never last
for something to break
something to give
to fix
feel
wait.


                 breathe.


i will be okay.

in some hour of tomorrow who feels so impossibly far from now.
and i will be okay until i am not.
again and again until the cycle comes to me like water
the hardest part of getting better is realising that 'better' is a lie, and working towards it anyway.
but there are times when i want to be alive so much it makes my lungs ache.
so i will carry on for the me who lives in those moments, fleeting as they may feel.


it will pass.
i wrote this in one go while crying. it is not good, but it is a lot.
Jul 2020 · 161
sunshine
sage Jul 2020
i had always thought that love would feel like fire.
not in its rage or destruction,
but the heat, the light that flickers across her face
when it's all that i can see.

i would watch her smile as it slipped through the cracks.
she laughs like sunlight, even now
but i am hopeless and hollow and beyond all divinity,
i wished i was good enough to give her to someone better.

she looks at me like candlelight through glass
as if the fluorescents could never wash me out,
as if we lived somewhere that never existed,
like she would love me if i let her.

but there is no her.
she is the construction of a poet in despair.
she lives in my chest, hollowed out and filled with kerosene
and her fingers graze the matchstick in my hand

i think of her hair under moonlight
i think of her eyes closed in a midday heat that only dreams have
i think of rain, a rain that pours for weeks without relief
the match is lit and i swallow it whole.
i sure do write a lot of love poems for someone that has never been in love
Feb 2020 · 96
kishiro
sage Feb 2020
it's been nearly three years.
i hate myself when i remember because it means i forgot.
and i swore i wouldn't.

knowing never made it any easier.
the moment you texted me, words messy with tears that fell on the other side of a screen.
a terrible, quiet voice in me spoke its name already.

i never knew why, of our little group, you told me. they knew you better.
i don't even know what you look like.
maybe you're still out there after all.
i would never forgive you.

you told me about the boys.
about the names they spat as they held you down.
you told me how the poison dripped into your ears to rot you from the inside out.
he said you felt like a girl.
i sat. i listened. and i spent the rest of the night retching into the toilet until my lungs hurt.

i spent an hour looking up animal facts when you told me you wanted to be distracted.
i didn't put my phone on silent for three months in case you needed me.
i wouldn't chase you if you disappeared because you said you needed space.

but it had been three months and i wake up to a message from someone else inside your username.
who told me because i was the only one that had asked where you were.
i missed you by a few weeks.

i spared the details.
your friend told me about your parents, and how they cried.
because they didn't know what you said to me until they searched your phone.
before that, he said, they couldn't understand at all.
until they did.

all my useless miles away, i know there was nothing i could do.
but i knew it was coming
and knowing never makes it easier.

and i'm an adult now, in name if nothing else,
lying awake at night still crying for a fourteen-year-old boy who hasn't finished rotting yet.
from the inside out.
i had an internet friend a few years ago. he died. i miss you kishi.
sage Jan 2020
Red and Blue sit down
on a pier at the end of time,
to watch the fires.

Together they wait,
as their lives drip back like water
through a leaky roof.

Red's shoulder is burnt,
a scar that never truly fades,
'Was that me?', Blue asks.

Their eyes do not meet.
And the silence that hangs still
is answer enough.

'Do you think,' Red starts,
'there has ever been a time,
that this was simple?'

Blue takes a minute
to roll the question around
before she begins.

'I think you and I;
we weren't meant to be simple.
That's the way things are.'

'After all,' she grinned,
unashamedly staring
at the other girl,

'What would be the point,
if everything were easy?'
and Red cannot say.

It doesn't matter.
Everything is ending now.
Soon it will be dark.

When Red looked at Blue,
she saw a thousand faces
the other had held;

but Blue stared ahead
into the glow of rapture
they lived outside of.

'What happens to us?'
Red did not understand her.
'Do you hate me now?'

'I didn't hate you.'
'You did, once. You must have done.'
'Does it matter now?'

Quietly, Red knows
that every single lifetime
she waited for Blue.

'If something comes next
I don't want to hold you back.
And no, it doesn't'

How could she think that?
Each incarnation was just
time to spend with her.

'You drove me insane
but you never held me back.
It's always been you'

'Even when it hurt?'
And Red feels her shoulder burn.
'Especially then.'

If anything comes
after the fire burns out
they'll be together.

So Red and Blue sit,
content with all their attempts
to find each other.
Oct 2019 · 327
a halloween ritual
sage Oct 2019
My body holds in it the bones of a goddess whose worship was murdered by Time,
When fatal religion of midnight's mistresses comes alive again for tonight.
The veins of this country spread out from under me and carry the weight of our lives,
As distance between us is bridged for the evening and your years collide into mine.
Under the same Moon that looked down over you, I cross the river to the dead,
Who wander the road laid down so long ago that trees have sprung from where they tread.
You followed too readily gods dead and buried and traced in their footsteps the path.
Breathe your life into me, speak to me freely, let not my plea echo the dark,

Children of Morrigan now will we call upon as the Earth ceases to grow.
Seek now your answer and through the Arcana give justification to know.
- With my tongue asking thee, my soul commanding thee: accept my hand through the veil,
And if I am heard; spirit spare not a word and reveal then what secrets you may.
Oct 2019 · 754
spiderweb
sage Oct 2019
in the great arching web where all souls reside, and knowledge is shared like starlight. each one takes its turn to be human, to see the world more than as a mess of highways glittering white. and we each bring with it a piece of that knowledge we share as one.

there is a collective of human experience, in the great prehistoric brain we all share, and each little life we live, taking turns to experience each wrinkle of our planet, is simply one step in getting the bigger picture.

you and i are the same. it is my turn to be me, and soon it will be yours. and then you will write my words and i will sit in your chair and we will connect again through opposite sides.

there is a part of my soul that did not enter this body with me. all my life i have searched for it. i am still young, and maybe one day we will meet. for now, i am immortal. but when again i fade into the spiderweb of all things, i hope i shall find again the piece of me that stayed behind with you.
Oct 2019 · 117
coffinwood
sage Oct 2019
Abandoned factories reach up to god.
Outside them lay a forest undisturbed,
Choked by smog it struggled still to grow,
Like armies camped around enemy walls,
Waited for the weight of years to fall.
And as I passed within its maze I asked
Out into the silent afternoon:
Who will stand victorious in time,
And which of these shall be the first to go?
How soon will they then be discarded if
A suitable replacement can be found?
If that philosophy stands too for me,
Have I already seen the tree from which
The wood that will hold me forever comes?
Oct 2019 · 85
come back to the end
sage Oct 2019
heavendrunk i stand at the edge of space
waiting for the Great     [    NOTHING    ]     to swallow me whole

me and my body stitched of ugly thoughts,
i wait for the spirit of life to fill my mouth with beautiful words.
but the rain doesn't come.
i will never be enough for you, will i?
i wrote this when i was v drunk last week
Sep 2019 · 157
love reincarnate
sage Sep 2019
i wait for you on the altar
drenched in jasmine
stained fingertips coloured with incense

your ritual will
fill me clean me make me whole
in the flickering candlelight the moon is hung invisible
there are no stars to guide me

the angels of a religion yet to be written will say
do not be afraid
we love in a time now lost

somewhere, your altar lies broken in the seabed,
where the sands whisper our names
and when all is dead, the earth will keep her secrets hidden.

i have waited my entire life for you
and i would wait a thousand more
if our blood is born of stardust,
you and i must have shone as one before the fall

she stands like GOD at the first horizon
when beauty ran unpolluted,
stood screaming I AM UN-IN-KNOW-AB-LE


pull the veins from my body and there is her portrait
rip the beat from my heart and there is her name
steal the air from my lungs and there is her kiss

my throat is torn ragged with words i will never say aloud
we are the star drawn lovers only known by the sea
but i will find you again.

my love, i will wait on the bridge where all worlds collide,
one thousand lifetimes to go.
Aug 2019 · 172
life after her
sage Aug 2019
Orpheus crawled from the ground upon his hands and knees,
His days he faced in bitterness without Eurydice,
He wiped the bloodstains from his face, coughed up gravedirt and leaves,
And tore the music from his throat, resigned to silent be.

Surrendered to the quiet, he deprived the world of song,
Without her harmony, he thought, the melody was wrong,
Perverted echoes tried to sing but they were never strong.
When silent in a violent world, where then could he belong?

Returned then to their wedding bed, alone he lay and wept.
Moonlit air betwixt his wretched, ragged sobbing crept.
His weary lungs began to slow, and at birdsong he slept,
Dreaming, saw a horde of women, manic and godswept.

Her melancholy wails resonated throughout Hell.
Sat upon his throne there reigned the King that knew them well.
Under the crooked back of grief the riot could be quelled,
For dangerous is Orpheus and his melodic spell.

The maenads came for him as prophesied within his dream,
Tore his body limb from limb, a cloak ripped at its seam,
A mad and Bacchic frenzy blinded the infernal team,
From witnessing his dying smile, as if at last, redeemed

Two lovers’ outstretched hands reach now across the murky water,
Drowning out the souls who shout in mourning for their slaughter.
The bridge of years they passed apart was, in an instant, broken,
They did not trust themselves to sing, so ‘I love you’ was spoken.
the first poem i actually wrote with a set metre, so i  already know it's not great lol

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