Im separating love from friend
Real from pretend
A heart you could crush
Or one that you could mend
A letter dotted ps; in which my love I must send
This is a moment I use
To see why I'm confused
In which both hearts lose
Due to...the time of pick and choose.
Yeah
I just needed a moment
But I know how I feel…
Sooo
Are things getting to real?
Are you scared?
Afraid of me?
In what we could be?
Please, why can't you just love me...
Why can't you...

The toxins in her lips are slowly killing me...
Infatuation in the air starting to make me weak...
When I was all alone, I was fast asleep
But since you came around, I've been up for weeks.
****,
Is she tryin to purposely hurt me?
Is it all my imagination?
Maybe this all inside of me.
Cold sweat in me bed, thought I turned on the heat..?
Past wounds from long ago are starting to reopen on me.
The end of the bed starting to feel so steep...
She knows I'm afraid but is daring me to leap.
I, I know you're mind isn't thinking clear
Have you ever tried to drive, while your emotions are impaired?
Love drunk from the shots that she was serving..
Can't see straight.
Now I'm swearing.
Arrived safe...not sure where I've been.
Knock at the door, do I let her in?
Is this the devils temptation?
Cause I'm addicted to the rush, all the hard breathin.
Knowing she's tryna take me life with every kiss of seduction...
This woman...is made of pure corruption...
But don't stop.

Addicted, dicted, dicted

Forcing me into her rehab,
Pills are her persuasive lies
Belief makes me relapse..
I finally act up, try to leave
Her body forces me to reeeeeelax.

Now I'm stuck

Stuck, in this place

I'm confusing hugs with ***
Love starts to transform to hate.

Will I ever get out?

The doors open...yet, I can't escape.

Talk to me baby*
You said you adored my confidence, but now I'm a bit to cocky
I'm just knockin out the bad qualities
So no one can stop me
Keep talkin babe
Tell me you don't want me and I'll write you a song called "pretty lil liar"
As you look into my eyes and see all that you admire
As I lay it down and give ya all you desire.
Keep talking baby..
Girl, This ain't no comfort inn
Let your arms travel through this Persian rug as the fur warms ya skin
Yes, yes, Babe!
Oh lawd girl, bust it one more time and bring it back
And make sure you don't fall in love
I don't have the time for that
I'm chasing money and a dream
Ain't no questioning that
I can feel my time coming
Progress the essence, ain't no questioning that.
I know you want it babe
Keep whispering sweet nothings all through my ear as you sit on my lap
This liquor numbs the *******, as the crown places all my kings on the map.
(And I'll die for my team!)
It's easy to find a bad girl, my question is "where all the good ones at?"
End of conversation. (I Walk away)
#GCK
A.$.O.F||

I don't have much to give but a heart made of gold
What use is material things, when you need someone to hold?
What you have is priceless, a love that can't be sold
The way to someone's heart remains to be untold.
I feel the distance and this lonely open road...
Can you please let me in, in from out the cold?

You'll never understand this pain,
My sunshine turns to rain
I just want you to call me at night
But watch you call his name

Get up and leave everything
Can't you see what I can bring?
Can't leave...this wandering heart astray
Please just take a chance on me,
I will give you all of me

Just leave your lover, leave them for me
Leave your lover, leave them for me

I sit and constantly think of us growing old
Cause I'm in love with you, and you will never know
And if I can't have you, I'd much rather be alone
My heart can't hold on anymore, and slowly letting go

You'll never understand this pain,
My sunshine turns to rain
I just want you to call me at night
But watch you call his name

Get up and leave everything
Can't you see what I can bring?
Can't leave...this wandering heart astray
Please just take a chance on me,
I will give you all of me

Just leave your lover, leave them for me
Leave your lover, leave them for me

These final words are for you, hoping you hold on
So many sleepless nights, of the thought you may be gone
I know your heart already feels love, I'll try to convince mine to move on...
So easy to walk away, it's just so hard to...be strong.

You'll never understand this pain,
My sunshine turns to rain
I just want you to call me at night
But watch you call his name

Get up and leave everything
Can't you see what I can bring?
Can't leave...this wandering heart astray
Please just take a chance on me,
I will give you all of me

**Just leave your lover, leave them for me
Leave your lover, leave them for me

For if I closed my eyes
I wouldn't of ever saw you
But my open heart
Still, would've let you in
Therefor...
Disaster was inevitable
Pain was destined
Disappointment was always near
But growth was promised.

Her deception

Her lies

Her stare

Her eyes

The look...

Why do I still fall for your look?

It's because,

I want to believe you...

It's because...

I don't want to leave you.

The look...

She will watch my heart die.

The look...

Why won't you stop staring and help me?

Why?

(Guitar playing)
It's the twinkle in her eyes...

Her love that she sings...

The idea of happiness, that she brings...

The picture she paints

The writing on the wall......

Girl you're so gifted and I want them all.
(Ohhh yeah)*  I want them all.

"Stop trying to force it
Stop trying to control it
Stop trying to make it, break it, or fake it
Stop trying to hold it
Let it go, let it fly, let it be free and if you stop trying...love will always return
You can't control love. You can't force desire. You can't make happen what doesn't want to be made.
Stop trying, start believing...let go."

"You don't just walk away when it gets tough babe! You work it out together when it comes to relationships and lov...tha...peerrrsonnn..." (her voice)

Yeah,
But I guess I was just dreaming
You see I wrote this first part weeks before the news
Because it was you - I still believed in
Regardless of the paid respects
You can't buy someone's love for any less
Can't clean up the previous mess
I was the problem when I had you at ya best!
(Dayum)
I hate the way you would avoid a text
The truth was between the lines
But the lies were all that were left
Thought I was drowning in your eyes but really it was just time for me to reflect
Ended things calmly but feel like I was just  in a vortex
Can't be afraid of goodbyes when hellos seem to be the hardest

Truth is I wish I deserved it
Asking all the time to see her only to get curved in
Silent treatment to someone who only tried to treat ya
Knowing her life was getting tough and I was trying to keep ya.

Tell me who was trying to push away who?
Maybe March 17th was the last time I really met you.
And I don't believe that the last time we spoke that was really you
Sometimes **** just gets hard and you gotta get thru.

(And I know you'll make it)

Can't give into love's strain and conviction
I hate that I love you...without the realization of my false contradictions.
Given up on me - yet, add another to the list
My mind boggles these days but not in the thought of you - but when things with us took a sudden switch
Crazy to think you give someone everything you got to just be forgotten
The way you handled those last few weeks were foul girl - spoiled rotten.

Why comeback only to leave?
To showcase who you "truly" are but only for yourself to see?
To reach out to someone who just can't be reached
This seems to be a pattern of one's personality
I don't need clarity.
The pen is loaded - the target is set
Why can't I pull the trigger!?
You quit on us and deserve the shots!
Why am I trying to be bigger!?
...
Cause I've learned a lot
Took some deep breaths
saw what was hurting me temporarily instead of making me feel blessed
This isn't shade
This is honesty and telling the truth of ones false reality
A lot of stars in the sky but figured you and I were the brightest in the galaxy

This letter to you is for you to see what you can do to someone when you make decisions based off emotions
Stop pulling the next person with you just because you can't swim in your own painful ocean
Let go of that anger
You're too pretty to frown
Let go of her legacy too - you won't make the same mistakes when you finally fall in love and pick out a gown.

Disappointment - for sure but you live and you learn
Need to stop holding on to the firey moments
Maybe that's why it's so hard to let these memories burn.
Lessons were taught and two people found growth within each other
Let's not pretend like we are rooting for us to simply find another.
Our bond was special
But the timing was off
We'll never know what could've been
And sadly that's our loss
I only want the best for you
And that's on my heart
I'd be lying if I said I saw the day wed truly fall apart

But

At times I wonder - when it all unfolded that day,
did I say all that I needed?
why didn't I beg you to stay?
Cause you loved the old me and I'm a different person these days.
Still hard to look at the woman you loved
And tell yourself it's time to walk away.

You wipe ya face quickly - put up a smile...and just go....(eachos out)

But doug wait...
Hol up let me quickly say my final word
If this piece ever reaches you i need this part to be heard
I love you to death and would re up with you in a second
If you were mad after reading this you didn't decipher the love from pain in this message
I pray for you all the time, hope you get all the good you deserve and tell god to keep you safe from any harm or danger
But I gotta leave ya on this final note
"If only we could go back again...and become strangers."

Thank you (echoes out)

Light up the medicine to help heal the minds core
Drink up no worries until you don't feel the pain anymore
This ain't addiction
This is conviction
Trying to prove my point to the old and ignorant
But what's the point in such a dull time
Me speaking my mind is probably a federal crime
Allow the vice to loosen up as I raise the price of my forbidden confidence
To say what's on my mind all while dealing with the consequence
Half man and half dead that shuffles through
Feeling alive on a cloud but probably looking dead to you
Hm
Don't take these words for granted
The weak and simple minded will look at them hella slanted
I'm feeling great
Food for thought all stacked on my plate
I see the stars align, old heros who were once great
Imagine if I could pick apart their brains,
I bet we would've relate

Hungry for power - should be hungry for knowledge, like what book can I devour?
Old girls still acting all sour
Claiming I'm not doing ****t
I'm doing everything but you, she just can't cope with it
But back to program back to these Jordan's
Back to the money and back to the slow jams
Nah
Increase my value to issue out more than materialistic value
And see the battle in which my heart, mind, soul all decided to scatter
My heart was beating for certain meaning that my mind couldn't quite understand
And my soul was tired of both of them trying to manipulate the decision of being a certain type of man
Did you struggle?
And feel the faithless wonder disappear?
Praying to god but the devil is constantly whispering all in your ear
Hearing voices, making bad choices but it all apart of growing up.
No one dies a ****** because at some point we all gave a f$@k
High as the alps, lost in my thoughts
Found in my prayers
Wondered if I fell down, who would be there?
Wondering if I have my heart, who else willing to share?
Wondering if I died tomorrow, who would truly care?
Questions we all ask, while trying to complete the task. Are you truly living your life? Are you afraid the good times won't last?
Are you happy right where you are? Don't look at me like that.
You haven't asked yourself these questions until the last time it all went bad...
I bring the realization to life and call you out on your problems
You keep responding with "a new day same ****t" but continue to never solve em.
People these days lack evolution
Settling the new trend - life is the real movie and all ya playing pretend.
I'm playing a role to
And it's called contradiction...
I've yet to try change but expect everyone else to listen?
These words - yes, yes these words are to be nothing more but understood
Turn life into your own - make life what you should.

My mind
Whispers through the nighttime
Voices always keeping me up
Telling me I need to give up...
Cause lately
I’ve been in the backseat...to my own life
Trying to steer - and take control...but I don’t always know how to.
Is that alright?
For sadness is in our cup
And we tend to sip it slowly
What’s life worth...if everyone’s around but you feel so lonely?
No tears for the sorrow,
when we aren’t promised tomorrow
So why self indulge on our pity?
Attempting to heal our wild minds in this painful, structured city.
Searching for riches - to numb those who are morally poor
Standing up for those who are/were down, including myself...because I’ve been there and quiet frankly... I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad anymore.