I know its forbidden, wish I could stop it
Never felt this way before.
With just a look I swoon
the longing to see your silhouette
The lust buds, yet I can't stop it
When you look at me, my heart skips a beat
Wish I could tame it.
Your smile ignites my demon, if only I could train it.
I Chained it in the darkest hue of my desire.
My dreams is where I could have you, just all to my self
I dream you pinning me against a wall
Your passionate kiss just shudders my soul
and there I stand all melting in your arms.
Yet again its my dream, a forbidden land of my desire
I know my virtues have become blind
but I'm a victim of my dark passion, a crime.
Forbidden it is, I know.

Laying on the bed, reading your wedding invite.
I recall the day you went silent and I threw my crown.
Stepping down and lost myself.

Today I let you go, my love.
Not because I give up.
I believe you cared and you still do.

Your silence did cut through my flesh,
Your strangeness burnt my heart.
But here I stand today ready to let myself heal.

Years of gathering broken pieces of my heart.
My lost pieces of love, wailing to be found.
Stranded I searched, and I still do.

I held on to you, like a stubborn child.
Your memories engraved, your doings encircling my thoughts.
Strangely never remembering our fights, I was partial.  

My heart wanted more, my soul was thirsty.
I found pleasure in pain.
I kept you alive.

What a splendid journey, my love.
The impeccable high of your addiction.
As I drowned, I found myself.

One day I chose to revisit my past.
Regretting the time lost to stupid fights, blaming myself.
I never felt, keeping you alive.

Stupid were my acts, unreasonable was my anger.
Childish were my demands.
A sinner, at your altar I confess.

Sleepless nights, result of a restless brain.
Blaming you for the love I dreaded I deserved,
For making me feel worthwhile.

Keeping your memories alive,
Redoing my past, for an escape.
As the odds increased, so did my grief.  

For the broken promises, and the endless thoughts.
U left without a word, so did my Tears.
You coward, I pushed myself to oblivion.  

I saved our love when the world sympathised.
I held on to respect, for u and our love.
Wishing you the best, I kept u alive.

My futile attempts to blame you, was a curse.
A part of me found pleasure when they blamed you,
My stupid selfish heart.

But today I let you go my love, I allow myself to heal.
You meant so much, you still do.
But life is more than just you and me.


A part of my soul is still with you, it’s yours now.
Keep it safe my love.
I’ll nurture what is left of it.

As time flies by, I’ll heal.
For a better tomorrow, for a better me.
I’ll strive with a hollow heart and a partial soul.

Thank you love, for the heat.
For never cheating my heart.
For the never ending  euphoria.

I know u cared and you still do.
When you found me, I found myself.
For your breath of life, I’ll keep u alive.

You made me believe in good.
To Love someone more than my being.
Surprised I’m to know my strength.

Entwined souls, living in the moment.
We headed together, Insane and reckless.
Towards our predefined end.  

I’m glad it was you and no one else.
You were the one, my wildest decision.
Oh my wings, my strength.

But today love, I let you go.
I was your princess.
Now it's someone else.

It’s time to put back my crown to rule.
U won't be forgotten my love,
but like any life chapter ours has come to an end.

I know you're not mine to have
I know you were never mine to have
But your eyes invite me
Your moves tempt me
When you glance, I wonder if you can hear my fervour
When you stand beside me I remind myself to breathe
my brain gives up on its rectitude
The closer you come the more my thoughts lure, I'm merry
my morality leaves as it blames my desire
I blame it on your alluring scent
you have to shut it, screams by brain
you're just human, consoles my heart
Again before I know it, I'm yet another covetous being

Rain pours, as the car skims through the clogged streets.
In the bask of your presence, seated in the back seat I listen.
You go on and on about your thoughts, as always I'm smitten.
Your thoughts so personal yet so impersonal, giving nothing away.
A veil of carefully crafted mask guards you.
As my thoughts start to linger, wondering what is behind it.
That's when you run your fingers through your hair.
Ruffled hair, child like smile, so may words, so much enthusiasm.
I'm drawn back tempted to gaze at those pretty deep eyes.
As rain drops trail their way on the rear glass ,casting a shadow.
The occasional yellow light, as it braces you.
I'm allured by their enchanting dance on your face.
Just a touch away, so close yet so far.

Let me tell you something
from my sinful dream.
They were just buttons,that's what it would seem.
Blue and white, made a good team.
so small with a alluring sheen
like an evil eye resisting my scheme.
There they were on my coveted being.

In my dream they fly across the hall
when I rip them all
My fingers trail through his chest
As my lips do the rest.

Here I'm glued to my seat
trailing back, counting each heart beat.
I wonder what I would dream next?
will I surrender to my lust with my very best?

I shudder at the thought.
By taking deep breaths, I try to sort.
Here I was sure to resist
But my heart craved to persist

There they are my Sapphire, my desire
Mocking me as they leave. I retire.

You entered. You sat
I felt my pulse rise.
Our eyes met.
I left my hands shake.
You smiled.
I left warm.
You enquired how was I.
I felt belonged.
You tapped your feet.
I felt my heart sway to your beat.
We sat there in time. Just on our seats

Girlhood was fun when you were a part of it
It was fun just because I lived it with you
We were in the prime of our years, I was smitten
It was not just love, it was so much more
I was a tamed bird in an open cage, you were free
You flew in the sky, I was perched all shy
Beneath the cloud of my darkness
I was scared of the open gate
Your light made me see the world
You made me believe I could be so much more
The cage was all that I had, my world
You told me to give it a try and let my heart fly
you made be believe, I look the leap
There I was singing song of my freedom
Spreading my wings like I have never done before
There I was flying high in the blue open sky
You set me free by letting me know you’ll always be with me
Here I am in my new world.

It is raining...
lush and green again, the barren concrete land is alive.
Seated in a glass cube,
Gazing through the window I see, rain drops trickling slowly trailing its way.
Even before I realize, Its slowly seeps into my soul
The darkest happy corner, a corner that craves
It questions my barren soul, demanding for love to sprout
With hopes of having to hold, having to feel, having to connect
My Chained heart agrees, desire to be set free
A flood within.
sun shines and the raindrop is gone, a faint trail of its journey remains.
I console my heart, its just a journey, happy destination awaits.
gazing out again, Wish I could feel the rain, the drop on my skin.
another day, along with another soul, a hope
till then, a search for my happily ever after...
journey continues.....

I dreamt things that could never be possible, I am blameworthy
But as time passed the line I drew became blurry
I thought I could carry the weight of your world on my shoulders
But who knew the time would make us colder

There I lay beneath the swaying limb, with birds singing on every tree
Sun shimmering above me, you and the kids is what I could see
How happy I am, I thought to myself
As the watch clicked twelve
Only if this dream would never end
But this time I couldn’t fend
Laughter of my family chiming, a distant sound
As I lay on the soft ground
I dreamt of two little angels, the ones I would coddle
A boy with your hazel brown eyes, a girl with my soft curls
As my dream slowly unfurls
Chasing the ball, feeding the ducks
We played, as the little ones squeezed through the ruck
Laughter, giggles was all I heard
As my dream slowly blurred

Woke up, I lay defunct
So many thoughts that I couldn’t shut
I pick myself up, grabbing a tea
I look at the endless sea.
All that I wanted was just you and me

your not something I need
your just an old book, that I would love to read......