She's got more issues then Vogue

everything is so ****** up
I'm bleeding enough blood to fill a cup
I hate you
but I need you
I gave you my all
my love for you was tall
but its crashing down
all over this ******* town
they say let it go
as they watch me cry like a show
I want to rip my eyes out
saying I love you with a shout
**** love
give me diamonds

i can't help but feel worse
you put my heart under a curse
my eyes are weary, heavy
and tired
but I can't sleep
knowing what I said
to that creep
your ecstatic blue eyes
knew about my lie
now I'm terrified of you saying
goodbye

It's raining hard
Cooling my hot skin
You played me like a card
And you never seem to win
I take the glass shard
Across my wrist with a spin
I left my heart off guard
Trace your fingers on my chin
Your fingers mean as hot tar
Loving you will always be my personal sin

I loved you a lot
I still do
But my words to you are cruel
You beg for me to stay
I'll try to ignore you at school
But my eyes can't drift away
I want to keep your heart
I want you to keep mine
This poison is tearing me apart
A gun shot to the spine
I won't leave
I promised forever and always
No more tricks up my sleeve
I'll love you for the rest of my days

the wind is harshly blowing
slamming into my window
the sound is growing
louder and harder
the sound makes me feel empty
my heart feels cold
even though the blankets hold
me

I MISS YOU SO MUCH MY HEART FEELS LIKE ITS PUMPING BURNING ACID THROUGHOUT MY BODY I MISS THE TASTE OF YOUR LIPS; CIGARETTES AND HONEY

you words buzz through my head
how do I get out of this mess
maybe with a metallic shot of led
I gave you my world, nothing less
my heart is beating with awful dread
a bullet can stop this stress

My face did not flourish with beauty
Not spoiled with glamour
My eyes told truth
While my mouth told lies

My heart beat was off
Always crashing down like a glowing white avalanche
Thumping like the drummer boy
On Christmas

My body did not spring up
Like a flower on a spring day
It wasn't a creamy color
Like the coffee you make on early Sunday mornings

I hair frail like a old women's bone
Not soft like criminson blood colored velevt rapped around a neck
Thick like a very hot humid summer day
Tangled like your Christmas lights in the basement

But I loved him more then tide who always came back to kiss the sand
More then the kite who effortlessly tried to reach the sky
Then the flower who designed its self in vivid bright colors
So the bees could find there way

Maybe I am the sun who rises every morning to just find the moon has left

Lost in your mind
Your thoughts should be more kind
You are beautiful
You are amazing  
Don't deny
Open up your heart
And see yourself
As I see you,
Beautiful.

(k[r])

Your crystal blue eyes
I ask myself why did I even try?
To make you mine
I thought your love I could acquire
My hearts only desire
Drowning my lungs in nicotine
Passing out from morphine
Just wish you could lean in and kiss me
But you'll never miss me
Like the sun tries to reach over the horizon
Just to awake to the moon gone

(k[r])

The wind blows back your hair
--
The snow flakes land upon your lips
--
I whispered "I love Christmas"
--
I kiss your lips
--
They drown my sorrows
--
My heart you can more than borrow

(k[r])