I couldn’t possibly die today
I haven’t given Dr. Itoh his keys back
Or read the book he told me to
I have not smelled the November sunflowers
Or gone to that concert
That plays in the beginning of October
Live reggae
I could live a little longer for that
I still owe Kevin ramen
And I still owe my sister a visit
In her hometown
Next month
To see the stars far away from city lights
I could stay another month
For the stars
And my sister
I haven’t shared my novel
Or poems
I think someone might like them
And if not, at least
Someone could understand
Where it went wrong
Someone could understand why
I drink for my happiness
And sleep for my sanity

mid saturday morning
drowning in coffee
lost in thought
alone again

the thought of you
makes me shiver
what we once had
is lost forever

wounds heal my darling

a nod of acknowledgement
as you walk past
that's all i get from you now
once you were my everything
now we are merely strangers

you seem to know
exactly who you are
and i find that beautiful
but i cannot
find who i am
i don't know where to begin
to discover myself

and I don't know /if we're keeping each other / afloat / or drowning hand in / hand