hi. hello. how are you? i’ve watched you live your life from behind a screen, and can i say that I think it’s beautiful? can i say that you are beautiful? that your existence is beautiful? the way you laugh. the way you think. the way you breathe. beautiful. you remind me of wildflowers and the color yellow. you remind me of a child’s innocence and mother’s finest china. you remind me of all the pretty things. is it wrong to say i’ve started to hate them? the pretty things? because they remind me of you? i can’t escape your beauty and it’s suffocating. what am i suppose to do with it? it feels like an offering that i don’t have the strength to hold. everywhere i turn, there you are. in the eyes of my love. in the voices of my friends. in the most damaged parts of my heart. hi. hello. how are you? can i say that you are beautiful? i’ve certainly heard it enough.

If someone asked me
what happiness looks like,
I'd describe
you.

Hannah Hannah Hannah
won’t you smile for us
cuz when your sad
i feel like I’ve been hit by a bus

and it was a big bus

Because I’ve watched you die
A hundred times before,
And I’m no longer afraid
To see it happen.

there are so many words
that i wish to tell you.
there are so many thoughts
to slip from my mouth.
i want you to know
the entirety of my being
and the deepest corners
of my soul.

strip me bare.
and see who i am.