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Irate Watcher Dec 2017
It bothers me,
but I have nothing more to say.
Short poems are OK.
Irate Watcher Mar 2018
I've walked many late night walks.
I've talked many late night talks.
I've watched the sun drop,
and the people fall.
Their struggle like mine.
Their monotony refreshingly tired.
Their chaos a sign --
entropy is alive and well.

Their pain is salve to blisters,
cracking and dry.
Their frustration, a relief.
Their stumbling words --
a little too deep.

Their patience enfolds.
Their perspiration consoles.
Their broken pieces pump a heart.
Their meandering is a straight shot.
Their ***** cleans shoes
Their malice graces you
Their cringe softens faces.
Their flooding tears wash it.
Their pride, a humility.
Their turbulence, a gliding
Their purposelessness, a divine right.
Their flounder, a vibe.
Their past, a present.
Their fans, a famous.
Their selfish, a gracious.
Their falling, a falling up.
Their pretend, a realization
Their sadness, a joy.
Their stumble, a freeform.
Their tired energy.
Their weakness, a strength.
Their plain, an eclectic.
Their dull, an electric.
Their screen, a seeing.
Their absorption, a being.
Their terror, a bravery.
Their whining, a safety.
Their fear, a fearlessness.
Their rock bottom, a peak.
Their peasant, a princess.
Their settle, a refusal.
Their stiff, a flexability.
Their tough, an ingenuity.
Their pale, an ivory.
Their hail, a haloing.
Their *****, a clean.
Their fortune, a fiend.
Their silver, a gold.
Their waste, a sold.
Their clutter, a space.
Their trouble keeping pace.
Irate Watcher Jan 2018
she learned the words
anarchy
and
freedom.
Irate Watcher Dec 2014
Big Oil
the kid at the birthday party
who smashed the cake
with a stubborn fist,
cause he didn’t get enough.
Environmentalists
nerds studying
ants with magnifying glasses
radical methods
to peaceful madness.

Meanwhile
webbed chains
splash like tired confetti
light steeps a seeping cast,
sun-blind eyes fret liquid darkness,
shadows whisper poison.

a necessary evil,
when fingers of ink
strangle ice puzzles?
we say it was *not intentional

             but selfish risks
under laser lights
for sonic boomers
that will soon die,
leave a deaf horizon.
idk
Irate Watcher Aug 2017
In the pit of my heart,
I yearn to learn
your not dead.

Even if I'm dead to you.

People are always dead to you
if they don't exist in your life anymore.


I was a girl
with paradigm abreast,
shared world hater, lover,
frolicking in the clearing of disenchantment,
pleased beneath your rounded shoulders,
our first breath together
was dark green water,
and I was parched,

and I feel weak,
when I think about
the shadows of our feet,
frozen to the pavement,
that cold California February,
your fingers opening my pilot jacket unabashedly —
my soft belly exposed and stiffened —
a waste to hold on before you leave.
Want to add more to this but am having trouble
Irate Watcher Dec 2017
I am not a number in your game of chance.
Irate Watcher Oct 2014
Arcs of electricity
crackle above streets.
Fields of inefficiency;
noise of power lines
taser misery.
All I crave is silence.
All I crave is silence.
But please don't silence me.
Irate Watcher Apr 2018
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                          t a l e n t
                p u r e
   s o l i p s a r y.
Irate Watcher Dec 2019
When hunger subsides,
I’m *****.
After I *******,
I’m thirsty
I can never feel
ok with just sitting.
If I’m not entertained,
I’m a slave to my
head  where all I want
is to quickly digress:
A new distraction
A new reaction
A new way of living.

I tell myself drink
water and be stoic,
but changing taste.
is my addiction
I can’t even enjoy
that nice feeling before...

I’m worrying about
acquiring the next.
A haste of comfort and confinement —
when will I tire of it.

My vision is blurry
and I’m happy
and everyone knows it.
The kitchen’s a mess,
but smells like heaven
My throat is closing
and the mucus is drowning me.
I wonder what condition afflicts
me, but keep on singing...

Anyways.
Irate Watcher Aug 2017
Lately,
just the bumps
and the grind
no outlet anywhere,
just outlets everywhere.
turning everyone off,
please let me just focus
on the brightness in the dark.

Its lonely here,
and stifling sometimes.
speaking in brief
interjections,
my voice grows stronger.
no release of inarticulate
thoughts in small talk -
just dealing with them.

Waking up with
no aftertaste of moving
at someone else's pace.
barely noticed how I
was trained til
re-lax and just be me,
that extraordinary feeling
of being me,
in that place where
there is no try,
Just climbing,
just a smile
at sentiments
similiar to mine.

And my,

We're all just dropping in
and saying goodbye.
wondering what each other's
private life is like.

This is mine.
Irate Watcher Aug 2014
Until the rain melts
and clouds bump
into the sun,
you can try
and elude me.

Until rabbit ******
is outlawed and
Alice grows up,
you can try and
outwit me.

Until horses
stop galloping
and cheetahs are fat,
you can try and
outrun me.

Until beggers
choose and choosers
beg,
you can try and
turn on me.

Until down is up
and up is down,
you can try and
outreach me.

But I will continue chasing you,
around landmines,
hopping rabbit holes,
and fighting currents,
until you are mine.
Irate Watcher Apr 2019
I changed my name
to a pseudo name.
I don't know if it's empowering
or sad,
but those poems aren't me
anymore.
Once they're out
they're behind me.
I want them to exist as standalone
treatises, free from me.
The only reason I
would attach them
would be for attention.
I don't want that kind of attention.
I don't want them to know me.
I can't say...
what I want to say.
It just doesn't feel safe.
It just doesn't feel like there is space.
Irate Watcher Jul 2014
I want you like the Colorado clouds
want to pour rain over the Californian desert.
Please, I am thirsty. Quench me.

Let me drink your nectar — it tastes like sunshine.
Loyally I will suckle your pistil,
even after the reason you ignored me did.

Relax — I want you...at ease.
It's OK  — I want you...happy.
Don't worry — I want you...dreaming.

Come to bed with me
Grab my cheeks and squeeze them.
I am a child.
Tell me my eyes are galaxies
you want to swim in.

Your breath tastes like stale beer
but I steal kisses selfishly.
They tickle my ******,
short-circuiting me to a cloud.

I am in your cloud.
I am rain.
Cross the ridge and
let me pour.
A person I had been dating told me he just wanted to "be friends" last night. He told me not to be sad, and flirted with me after. I left him confused and with an appetite for a pen and paper and this is the result. I am still confused.
Irate Watcher Jul 2017
Am I not pretty or witty enough?


Am I not pretty or witty?


Enough.
Irate Watcher Sep 2014
When the beat of your heart
is the alarm clock of my dreams.
I still have three more hours of sleep.
Crusty eyes nod off
as I put off the inevitable —
to empty your promises
of being faithful.

Cause last night I couldn't hide
red sober eyes that realized
I just wanted the wings
from your back.
I just want you to text me back.
And you did for awhile.
I kept you from texting your ex
for a while.
And for a while,
the strings of my heart
sewed yours together again.
Broken wings healed,
but fearing flight,
tearing mine.
Irate Watcher Aug 2015
You say I'm "reckless."
I take the subway alone at night
And walk past alleyways
I bike without a helmet
and accept rides from strangers.
I travel alone
to faraway places
with governments
America has flagged
and stay with strangers
I met on airplanes.
I have had casual ***
with lots of men,
I get my heart broken
from those who don't give a ****.

You say I'm "reckless."
My apartment is in a rent controlled complex with sneakers
stuck on the wrought iron fence.
I have water and electricity,
but not internet.
My neighbor was
in a hollywood gang
back in the day
The rest speak Spanish.
I find myself justifying
to you it's temporary,
but secretly am upset that
it will be torn down
just as I finish decorating.

You say I'm naive
when I say there is no evil —
just broken people.
It is people like you
who break them.
You say I'm idealistic
when I don't feed the system.
Why not eat the same rotation cause
it's efficient. *******, daughter!
Follow the recipe!
You say I'm "reckless,"
but I am just living,
and you are a scorpion
poised to attack
anyone who turns over
the rocks you live under.

When you say I'm "reckless,"
I flashback to moments
I'd never sting you with.
Like the time I opened
the window screen
and wondered how far
the fall would be,
crouched upon
a second story balcony.

No, I am not "reckless!"
I just can't understand
The point of fearing death
Or pain
Or suffering
The best art
is created by the ill-content,
the gonzo
the sociopath.
So why not let them live?
Please...just let me live!
Cause I can't take
your eyebrows raised
and the turned-down corners
of your pursed lips,
fearing I am "reckless."
Worried sleepless.
Your puffy purple eyes,
assuming I am floundering,
repulsed by marriage or a salary.
You should just accept
I will never have social security.
As a child...
you taught me I could be anything,
but frowned when I said I liked poetry.
To you, anything meant
a corporate ingenuity
To you, warriors
work hard and succeed.
They needn't take risks,
just business classes.
You wanted to pay for them
and then dine at
an overpriced restaurant afterward.
But I prefer the Bolivian markets.
I want to take you,
but you say it's dangerous
and you'd be rude
to the waitresses.

I know, when you say
that I'm "reckless,"
you are protecting —
a supportive parent.
But saying I am "reckless"
is starting to become overbearing.
You can stop now.
Cause you wont.
Stop it.
You will not **** my instincts,
only augment my rebellion.
You will not make me
in your image 'cause
I don't want to be like you —
Complacent in a bubbled,
grass-fed existence —
cows may live in comfort
but all they do is
pollute the environment.
The day I fear
is not your judgement,
but the day I stop living
and just say people are "reckless."
Even though I never
talk with anyone different.

No, I am not "reckless."
I ride the bus
and forget my headphones
I meet strangers
who become fast friends.
I learn about a world
filled with joy and happiness,
and pain and suffering,
and I love it ALL.
And I will continue to love
all the "reckless" things too,
just as much as you love me
when you tell me:
"Now, don't be reckless."
Irate Watcher Jan 2019
I break it into
p
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e
s
until they mean
nothing.
Irate Watcher Jul 2017
i put my heart in my soul.
avoid food and water,
and drink the red water.
Listen to Kendrick and Tyler,
Tupac and Tyga.
Jump and leap,
barely eat.
fake it till I make it,
listen to song everyday.
stare blank into that white space.

till I feel
like I didn't just wake up as me.
liquid or life:
an empty studio
with white walls, bricks,
and hardwood floors.
Me by this glass
of cabernet - ill be fine.
ill be great.
ill soar for days.
till i don't,
till i destroy
everything that's hard won.
till i dizzy and
pass life on.
Irate Watcher Apr 2018
I don't know
if I should even try.
he will probably be boring.
she will probably
want to move in.
Irate Watcher Dec 2017
The frame is too big
for your painting.
It has fallen through.
It is deep,
and dusty.
The canvas
naked,
the colors faded
to ash.
Irate Watcher Jun 2018
Ambitious
Always looking to improve
Follows through on what he says he will do
Patient and kind
Loves my body
as much as my mind
Looking for a partner in life.
(not a token, soon-to-be wife).

Serious, passionate,
but knows when to let loose.
Makes me laugh,
his personality
eager and endearing;
his humor
absurd and sarcastic.

He doesn't ask what I want to do,
but if I ask
he'll be down to do it too.
He wants me to be apart
of his friend group.
He's charismatic but grounded.
My parents and extended
would adopt him in a second.
He helps my dad in the yard.
He helps me when I'm stuck
in a broken down car.

He's cute and insanely smart.
His kisses leave me weak from the start.
He always honest and upfront,
reflective about any harm he's caused
to anyone.

He's everyone's doorman,
but no doormat.
A attentive confident.
A best friend.

He is well-read
but can see
what's missing on
the page.
He isn't afraid
of what he hasn't read
or what he doesn't know...yet.

He's not a hipster
or pretentious
but isn't against kale chips
or anything equally ridiculous.

He has a passion,
maybe two,
but isn't so absorbed
he forgets
there are other things too.
But isn't just floating either.
He has some direction;
He is looking to inspire.

He's a feminist
and not because
it's PC and cool.
He empathizes
with the issues
and is interested
in talking WITH
women about them.

He's comfortable
chilling with my friends.
Even the most
difficult people
don't bother him.

He is healthy.
Does some sort of physical
activity. Loves getting physical
with me. Is not opposed
to going down on me.
But isn't like obsessed with it.
That's just weird.

Interested in actively
deepening our
physical and emotional
relationship.

For him,
everyday is an adventure
he'd love to spend with me.

He plans at least half our dates.
He rarely complains.
Am I asking for too much? Lol. My mom told me to write down my requirements years ago and I finally did it. I like the poem form because it feel less abstract than a list of traits or qualities.
Irate Watcher Feb 2019
He's headed to the roller rink
She's headed downtown
To see no one
to be around nobody
a perfect night to themselves
doing nothing for nobody.

He sits in his car
the music blaring
softly sighing
hoping to
drown out
the latest saga
Why must others make their
problems his problems.
See, he has his own problems
But he doesn't put them on other people.
He prefers to purge then on paper
Get them out and forget about them
Because these things aren't important
When the night is cool
and it's about to rain
And the lights stream by like bolts
speeding down a empty road.

Wanta
Drown it out
dance in the moonlight
and shout
shake his hands
whip his hair
ridiculously.
Forget the world
for awhile
walk alone at night,
anything to extend this quiet
anything not to go inside.

She's biking in Noho
It's 2am and it's
that California cool outside.
Riding with no handlebars
playing some Dorian concept,
burning a natural high.
Another sleepless night
remedied by impulsiveness
and exercise.

She don't want to go home
seems like this bike path
could stretch till the end.
And anyone who stares
is just a pedal away
a pedal behind
makes her feel so safe.

Wanta
Drown it out
dance in the moonlight
and shout
shake her hands
whip her hair
ridiculously.
Forget the world
for awhile
walk alone at night,
anything to extend this quiet
anything never to go inside.

He hears a song
nostalgic it travels
him in time,
head back he closes his eyes -
trying to remember
what it felt like to ride
open and exposed to the
elements, his headphones in
jamming.

She feels the bright
of headlights.
just one more block to go,
her hands cold
and forehead sweating.
Her thighs burning,
her back aching.
Her hairs standing,
her face clammy.

Wanta
Drown it out
dance in the moonlight
and shout
shake her hands
whip her hair
ridiculously.
Forget the world
for awhile
walk alone at night,
anything to extend this quiet
anything not to go inside.
A little song for my introverted self
Irate Watcher Aug 2014
Coffee or tea
perks me.
Too much!
Wine time.
Wind down.
Morning time
is round the clock.

Coffee or tea
perks me.
Too much!
Wine time.
Morning time
is round the clock.

Round the clock
R
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t
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Time.
Round clock.

Too much!
Wine down clock.
Irate Watcher Aug 2018
Everyone is sad
in their own little sad way.
Puppies cry and babies wave
goodbye, wishing the moment
hadn't passed.
Fresh and new,
always a wasting them
with drugs and *****.

No,
it's time to go
when there is no snow
and the spring
and the fall
and the summer
******* change
too fast.
Slow down he said
I want to see your face
glowing that sheer
white dewy skin
shining somehow
in the light.
Irate Watcher Feb 2018
Stop that

~~SNICKERING~~

you filthy children!
Irate Watcher Jul 2014
This isn't your mother's dance.
The wooden clave
seduces the naive  
into suave arms
of the night.

Quick quick slow
exalts wooden caderas
and untames silky locks.
Wrinkled hands
caress the caras
of clumsy coquetas.

In the name of the dance,
vestidos apretados
replace pants,
which men outgrow,
steeling blue eyes
in rusty miradas.

Mirandla.

Mira la guera,
como se toca,
como se mueve,
comos se salta el vestido suyo.


Mirandlo.

Look at him,
how he touches me,
how he swings me,
how his feet mock me.


Mirandnos

Ella me quiere.

We are JUST dancing.

Ayyy, como me pega.

We're close, but Salsa is intimate.

Oooh mami...

Does he think it's more than a dance?

quick quick slow,
quick quick slow,
quick quick slow,
quicK quiCK quICK qUICK  QUICK...

...silence.
they shake hands,
and thank each other for the dance.
Irate Watcher Jan 2015
He says he is home now.

That we should get snacks together.

But I already ate a salmon filet.

I am not hungry.

I ate too fast.
I have a gut.
There is nothing left.

So I turn my phone on mute.

Tempted, but astute
that I will ravish you
again, and,
feel more empty than
the wine bottle
next to this pen.
Part 1
Irate Watcher Mar 2019
I keep it to myself
and I keep it small
little mentions
here and there
enough to intrigue
you to want more.
I'd never bore you
to death I'd ****
myself first.
Irate Watcher Jan 2015
I worked on poetry for three hours. It felt great.

Art is me breathing, not rationalizing me breathing.

I created a melody, then cried. It was beautiful.

I practiced it and felt hollow. I moved on.

I created a GIF for work and then wrote this.

I am still in sweats.
Irate Watcher Jul 2017
JUST DECIDE WHO YOU ARE ALREADY!!!
Irate Watcher Feb 2019
I wake up and think...
all of those were dreams
none of them matter
gotta move on
go take a shower.
Irate Watcher Aug 2017
They say never stare directly into the sun;
It will burn your eyes and you'll go blind.
But sometimes when I stare into the sun,
it ***** the sickness out of my mind —
and I have been nauseous lately.

The worst part is that I don't know why.
It could be the food or drink,
or the lack of food or drink.
It's bad, but,
not enough to complain,
just lingering,
annoying,
though it makes my throat close up sometimes.

Maybe I'm allergic.

Regardless, that's not what I'm writing about.
I'm writing about the way the clouds hang in the sky at sunset.
How their underbellies darken and grow more dimensional as the sunshine dissipates.

As if everything has come into focus.

So effortless, yet so heavy,
like a woman's breast hung over an anxious mouth.
A vague feeling of before...trying to remember how and when,
but the feeling is not as colorful as when.

Something like how silent the city feels.
As if we're all alone looking at the sky.
It's quieter than 3am or any other hour.

It's calm.

Before  I was anxious,
but the anxiety has melted away.
This day relieved of atrocious puns^

To make room for poetry,
one hundred feet off the ground,
in pink light,
on two feet,
with chest open,
absorbing everything,
in spite of everything.

I turn back periodically to see how quickly
the blue and the purple and the lavender are becoming more vivid,
as the sun dips behind the valley and just glows there.

It's almost all gone.
Evaporating more quickly than spilled ink on paper.
Irate Watcher Aug 2014
Writing is like Ebola.
I consume it.
It consumes me.
Ok, I'll stop now.
Irate Watcher Aug 2014
When the
mess bred
by ancient
logicians
is put to rest
and we dicover:
The chicken
and the egg
hatched
in two
different
places at
the same time;
Love was
an inverse
relationship
between lust
and time;
Infinity was
a universe
we couldn't see.

Will conversation
cease?

Will silence
replace
speech?

Will the larynx
become a vestige?

How will
we debate
the notes
that compose
silence?
Irate Watcher Jan 2018
When I see that look on your face,
I smile and know there is space,
for you and I
to be safe.
Irate Watcher Jan 2019
I'm a spinster,
sick of seeing my
sisters treated as
flowers
picked and wilted.
Their petals
ripped and ragged.
In a cloudy vase --
the water needs changing,
but what's the point,
at this point?
She died when
you picked her --
cut from her roots,
She is lacking nutrition,
She can no longer absorb
the wind's wild sustenance.
She is too preoccupied
trying to survive,
under-appreciated,
and ill-cared for.

Soon,
when she is dry
brown,
brittle,
into the compost,
she goes.
Fertile,
rooting another
devastatingly
beautiful,
flower,
told to wait
for someone to
pick her.

But if you think
a flower is beautiful,
let her remain
with her sisters.
I have many wonderful, smart, independent women in my life who deserve better from their partners.
Irate Watcher May 2018
You tell yourself
and the other person
they are perfect.

You see no flaws,
where there are flaws.

You feel lifted,
and enlightened
when you're around them.

Everything is new.
Everything different.
No controlling it.

It is just happening -
like it was meant to.

They are just perfect
like they were meant,
for you.

You wait and wait
and ride the wave
knowing it should end,
eventually.
But it doesn't.

So you just keep talking
and talking about
the perfect, not so perfect,
perfect things you do
And they just keep
telling you what you
want to hear.

And you bask
in the light
of their gaze
like an estranged
puppy with a new home.
Drinking their praise praise praise
like it's water and you're ******* thirsty.
Irate Watcher Jun 2017
I take my time.
When I was five,
I got my first bicycle for Christmas.
It had training wheels.
I stopped every few feet and looked around.
I don't know why I did that.
I think I was trying  to make sure I was doing it right,
before moving forward.
When I was ten, my coaches told me to
have more confidence after they told me to **** in.
When I was 19, I cried in front of my philosophy advisor and told him I had no idea what I wanted to do the rest of my life.
He listened and then told me I was brilliant.
He was the most brilliant man I knew.
I try to convince myself I still have time to figure all this out,
But my bank account says otherwise.
All I want to do is learn.
All they want me to do is do.
All I want to do is pedal a bit and look around.
All they want is me flooring it to be on time.
I hate this culture.
I should have been born somewhere else.
Why doesn't anyone want to take their time?
Why does everyone want to skim over life,
and jump to conclusions about it.
Why must we learn for some end.
Why don't we have more time to sit and read books together.
Why does it take me so long to read a book now.
Why do I sometimes forget what the moon looks like.
Can I jump into that home video and be that girl with helmet again?
Can I jump back into my father's energy,
when he told me to keep going?
We all know the 90s were better, but what if now is much worse.
I don't know anymore..
I don't...
know.
Irate Watcher Sep 2018
Slowtar,
the monster,
is black sludge.
He engulfs
all alive,
complaining
begrudgingly
about the ongoing
construction.
striped
cones
only
tell
us
where to go.
Irate Watcher Oct 2014
I am just scrolling through people's lives,
wasting mine.
Irate Watcher Feb 2017
The dormitory of routine ends,
clouds form in purple sky,
silent air absorbs
into the soft night. 
The black palm trees,
a welcome void,
The wind,
a lonely whisper,
the chill,
a curious reminder
of your cool palms
caressing my warm skin,
in a crowded parking lot,
where no one could see us.
Still, you hid your hands
in the folds of my jacket.
My favorite part of LA is the purple sky
Irate Watcher Oct 2014
Soldier,
I won't be your red dot,
my body the coordinates
you hit or miss.
What if you say no?
What if you say yes?
What if I could care less?
I won't hide me behind uncertainty to
compliments camouflaged
as criteria
I must fail or pass
this ****** up social game,
no one seems to change the rules.
So I'll hide in my bunker cynically.
You might say I have PTSD
because too many bullets skimmed me.
But you are just another ******,
most comfortable with late nights
and green lights,
killing souls of girls
who just want to run home
and sleep alone,
not held in your hands,
nor held in your eyes,
and certainly
not scaled from 1 to 10.

You're violent.
Irate Watcher Apr 2018
There is no one left.
I haven't been held
in months.
I need your touch.
I need someone's touch.
Irate Watcher Sep 2017
There's no one here
in the cool dark air.
Everything's clean and tidy,
for visitors presumably,
but no one drops by.
The bar is stocked,
the light is ambient,
tea's a brewin',
jazz is playing,
and I look cute.
But I am tired.
Tired of seeking
the company of those
who ruin this mood,
this solitude.
Wish we could all just chill
Irate Watcher Dec 2017
From those who only think
one
thought
at
a
time:

Clip her wings; don't let her fly!

Keep to the solo paradigm.
Irate Watcher May 2017
Always someone wants not you.
Irate Watcher Jun 2017
Sometimes I sleep with my guitar

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it fills the space.
Irate Watcher Apr 2018
I don't know
if any of these poems
make sense.
But I'm binging.
Call it soul food.
Irate Watcher Oct 2017
I'm sowing my oats.
the Craigslist ad said.
Just a normal guy in my 20s
in great shape looking
for people to sow my oats.
Irate Watcher May 2017
Am I:

enlightened or crazy?
eccentric or weird?
self-aware or selfish?
insightful or long-winded?
introverted or isolated?
passionate or obsessed?
conservative or *****?
minimal or drab?
organized or ****?
alive or hyper?
wise or clever?
careful or worrisome?
powerful or power hungry?
meek or subservient?
good or bad?
here or there?
right or wrong?

Guess it depends who you ask.
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