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Just breathe
If you can't do anything else
Just breathe
Even if I have to do it for you
Just breathe
I was thinking multiple things when I wrote this
 Apr 2014 camila annette
M
10w
 Apr 2014 camila annette
M
10w
everybody needs somebody,
and I've only got myself for company.
If I walked up to you and
asked if you were happy
and you said no
and I asked you
what would make you happy
again
would you reply
us?

but I guess
shooting stars were made
for better wishes
than the fixing
of my shattered
heart.
She's dark, yet
moonlight glows
inside her soft-eyes
& despite her
tragic-aura,
I still want
her blackness,
to taste her magic,
to kiss
the devil inside her.
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
absent
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
they announced it on a monday,
in our school's old sweaty hall,
that a girl that i had math with,
wasn't coming back at all.
you could hear the silent questions
she was perfect, wasn't she?
what demons was she fighting,
that we were all too blind to see?

i sat on math that monday,
beside her now abandoned desk,
while our teacher warned us not to fail
our fast approaching test.
i remember she once whispered
that she was envious of me,
my parents knew the work it took
just to get a simple B.
i wish i'd noticed earlier,
or had the decency to ask,
because her world must have been crumbling
behind her "perfect student" mask.
and i wonder if on that sunday
it was the last thought in her brain
that the only A+ she could give
was the blood type in her veins
this isn't real, it's based on a book i read
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
they told her she was ugly
so she believed it
(even though  she was the most beautiful girl i had ever laid
my eyes upon)

they told her she was loud
so she stopped speaking
(even though her  wise words commanded my attention)

they told her she was dumb
so she stopped thinking
(even though she had the most brilliant and curious mind i
have ever encountered)

they told her she had no talent
so she stopped having fun
(even though she could light up an entire room with her
energy)

they told her she was lazy
so she stopped sleeping
(even though her life was a nightmare)

they told her she was too sad
so she faked another smile
(even though she was far from being happy)

they told her she wasn't enough
so she became nothing
(even though she was everything to me)
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
now?
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
so i fake another smile
and blink away the tears
i'm supposed to be strong
i'm supposed to have no fears

but the tears just keep rolling
it's so hard not to drown
i'm such a strong person

*why am i breaking down?
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
not
 Apr 2014 camila annette
lia
not
BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY I TRIED MY HARDEST AND YOU STILL DIDNT FEEL A ******* THING ITS NOT MY FAULT OR MAYBE IT IS I REALLY DONT KNOW AND IM SORRY IM NOT ENOUGH BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME CREDIT BECAUSE OH MY GOD AM I TRYING MY BEST ON PLEASING YOU
im sorry im losing my mind
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