I may not look it here, but I am Royalty , for my Savior told me so.
I will always have what I need because he shall provide it to me.
So my trust is never in man, but in the Savior of the universe.
He gave me much, I ponder many thing that he has done for me.
I seen it first hand, the miracles of belonging to the King of everything.
For this I seen first hand his wonderful gifts for me from him.
So when he says trust me, I ask him how high should I jump.
For he has given me so much already in this life that I live.
He does it not only for me but for all of his people everywhere.

Change me, into the man that you created me to be.
Help heal me of the man that keeps wanting to be married.
Let me dwell in your Love, help me to overcome this.
I know that you have your reasons why my life is this way.
Do what only you can do to change my life to be a much better one.
Please put a heal me of all of the unnecessary brokenness.
Do what only you can do to restore me into the man.
That you originally created me to be revealing you through me.

I may not always be the best choice.
I have made my share of mistakes.
I am far from being perfect but...
I have an savior willing to work with me,
I have fail him more then succeed.
I should have died yet here I stand.
I at times, wanted to give up here.
But Christ would not let me go down in defeat.
So here I stand in his approving love for he is good.
For I am nothing without him , only through him.
Do I stand in victory for he is my everything.

If only my main Heart desires, became reality.
If  only Christ would use me to save lives too.
If only I was an NCIS agent being use to help others.
This is my heart desire, to be use to help save lives.
For people lives are far more important then things.
For people do matter to God and to me as well.
For what good is life, unless it is a doorway leading others to Christ.
For only he can give to us true life in him alone.

I am going to keep speaking healing into your hurt.
I am going to keep speaking life into your life not death.
I am going to continue to speak good things not bad into your life.
I shall not falter, on this because I have a most powerful God.
That tells me that you are worth the determination that it might take.
To make your Life a most precious and worthy one to live always.
For you deserve to have great things to  happen in your precious life .
For I am so very blessed to have each of you in my life, I am thankful for you.

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    It's here again...
   Heavy downpour...
   I inhaled the rain,
    cloying with petrichor.

      Standing at my window,
     looking out...
    Street lamps struggled aglow.
   People with brollies walking about.

   My eyes reached out to the heavens,
    tracing these glassy beads
      as they'd free fall...
        Falling by the sheets,
       the pattering hastens,
      periodically punctuated
     by the thunder's call.

     Mind is drifting and floating,
       intently listening to a
          million love wishes...
             Liquid beauty...melding, sketching...
           In light entrapped splashes.

         Raindrops descend and come,
         into my still life tonight...
          Won't you will me numb,
             with your chilly bite...

             Wide-eyed enamour...
            Catching a stray droplet or two.
             Riding the tail of a zephyr,
              finding a place where
                no trouble could ensue.

            An errant gust blew
           to meet with me.
          The refreshing moist
         meets my parted lips...
        Inhaling deep in this reverie...
       Into a sea of tranquillity,
        my mind slowly dips...

      Sigh... If the droplets were kisses...
      I would savour each and every one.
      If the moist wind came and caresses
     I would meet it in a tight embrace
   till the break of sun.

  What a sight...
   Almost surreal it seems...
      As the light from the surrounding
         lamps dances playfully...
        Dispersing and exploding into a
     barrage of shattered beams.
    Before it gets subdued in the drops
   caught by the leaves on a nearby tree...

   The drops would trickle
     and fall before merging,
      forming stranded puddles
       unable to flow...
        Rippling... Splashing... Reflecting...
      An image...
     Borne out of a fantastic show.

    An image of beating hearts,
     overlapping one another...
       Speaking of consequential love
          and feelings so true
        Intertwined...
     in the promise of forever...
  Slowly retrieving itself into an...


  image of you...