I cannot stop writing about you. Every little thing I can remember, I've written it down.
I've written you down.
A permanent stain on these sheets.

When the skies rip open
the tears start pouring
the world not knowing
what is wrong

When your heart starts breaking
your whole body aching
that's how you know
she's really gone

I can read your fears
I can hear your cries
you're down on your knees
begging to know why

Why she'd have to go
why'd he have to die
what was the reason
for ending their lives

Is this all real
or just an illusion
trapped inside my
Ever twisting mind

When the skies tear open
the tears start pouring
the whole world not knowing
what's going wrong

When your heart keeps breaking
your whole body aching
that's how you know
he's really gone

I know that you're afraid
you will forget
the color of her eyes
the laughter falling from his lips

I can hear you crying
when you think no ones around
I can see you drowning
when your standing in a crowd

When the skies burst open
the tears always pouring
the world not knowing
all that is wrong

When your hearts left hallow
your hope so shallow
that's how you know
they're really gone


-ARI

You have to leave
I have to accept
Go
Embark on this journey
But please
Don't ever forget



© maria.who

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Young lovers stand in my shadow
I watch them from a shattered tenement window
with glowing eyes they reminisce the places we visited
with you as tour guide sharing the vows and kisses we once kept

as I wander alone down old memory lane
I'm walking past that house we built
where some things are hard to remember
and some things,
                            *I'll never forget.

In the dark places
haunted memories
of you and me
linger,
as I slip into a deep reverie
that although you're gone
and I'm here all alone
I can never be
truly free.

I wonder what what you're doing
In Heaven at this moment.
I wonder who you're seeing. I know it's much more than you expected.

Are you playing basketball?
Or singing your favorite song?
Are you looking down on us?
Or just on the golden street walking along?

Ten million dry tears
Nine million fake smiles
Eight million different faces
Seven million manipulations of the truth
Six million screams of anger
Five million unthrown punches
Four million days of anger
Three million hopeless thoughts
Two million buckets of effort from me
One million from you
One hundred thousand thoughts about how you will hate yourself
Fifty thousand apologies you will never hear
Ten thousand apologies you'll hear
Five thousand tears
One thousand itching lips
Five hundred itching lips
One hundred itching lips
Fifty itching lips
Twenty itching lips
Ten itching lips
Five itching lips

Breaking through rows of hull grins
Taking the midnight train to the brain
But it seems impossible to the naked eye
'I can do this' he said
A storm of chuckles burst into the night
Leaving eminent traces of happiness

Grappling on dear life
She wonder if she’ll survive
If she can pull this through
Breaking amends and grazing on truth
The imminent outcome to foresee
What speaks and what lies beneath

He still remembered that day at the library
Where she fell and he yelled
His left foot swollen due to her pointed heel
But it was worth the pain
Millions of other fragments could never beat this

They started spending a little each day-
Bartering hilarity on lame anecdotes
Reading together without imparting words
They both felt it
This intense chemistry

Pretense running weary
Who would make the first move?
The fear of getting rejected
Injected to the head
He finally confessed
But it was too late
He will never be hers
She will never be his
She made him promise her relentlessly
That he’ll find someone again
Her life filched gradually
And finally came to an end


Fragments lingered till this very day
*The ones who came after will never be the same.