that smile of yours
was the start of it all
it caused war zones
down my chest
up to my head
how beautiful you are
could I compare?
a thousand diamonds
laid out up there
a simple glimmer of your eyes
with the swift gesture of your hand
you swept me off my feet
you, turned into my world
I’m a satellite
orbiting around a planet called ‘you’
I will look out for you
through the ends of time
till the last bits of flames
the sun can ought to fume;
to the brim
till my heart can no longer take it
for you, my eyes formed rivers
turn into the clouds
I look up high
your eyes dark as the night sky
You shine the brightest
A star I ought to reach
And down low, I turn
I fell
along the teardrops of my heart
for you, my heart belongs, my dearest
for you have taught me what is more
to be in love
‘thank you’
you not only thought me of the word
but the meaning
to the roots so deep
but love can be cruel
more when you have to be sorry
I just want to pull you close to mine
to stand side by side
without having to think
of where I stand in line
— I have accepted it.
la douleur exquise
(n.) the exquisite pain of wanting someone you know you can never have.
180611; 5:47 AM
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180814 | darling, it's been 2 years since I've met you up close. I will always cherish that moment with you. ♡
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This is a weird conclusion to it all, but after all the heart has beaten to, one must let go of the things that meant the world to them.
11:11 PM | l.jh, my love. my world, you deserve all the happiness and to roam free to spread your wings as you already do. so must that I let you go. mostly, from my faith that it will be the two of us in the end.
this once, I won't be ashamed to admit. I do love you, truly. but I am also doing this for me to /also spread free.
I still love you, each passing day. but I am growing more to love you as I was supposed to; as an admirer, and I know you love me too dearly. As we coexist with one another, a diamond to a carat; we are one of a kind. We still are, and will shine forevermore.
I'll keep looking after you for you have lifted me up and took a long wild journey with you.
I'll be your hero, as you told me I am. Please look out for the world as it has once been you and me. — elle
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"I have learned to love a star like him in a way I'm supposed to in the first place— love him in a safe distance.
I forgot the very essence of that but now I know."