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 May 2015
Lynn For Now
My memories of you
of us
of our life

Is like a cancer

My memories are me
parts of me

That grow
destroy
consume

the rest of me.

These memories
these tumors

start in the middle of my own memories
my own happiness
my own strength

and one small connection
synapse

sends the memories
the cells

rushing forward.

And when I think I might be able to stop them
fight them
forget them

it is too late, and my body has already been taken.

And thus, my memories, which are made of me,
destroy the rest of me, *which is also made of me.
Inspired partly by John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
 May 2014
Jazmine Moore
If
I could keep writing you poems you'll never read

Or I could put my pen down and bandage my own heart

Either way, I would still lose because I wouldn't have you
 May 2014
kyla marie
I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]
 Apr 2014
Lynn For Now
Fire
It isn't just destruction,
It is warmth
It is the sun
It is life

Fire
It gives me drive
It gives me passion
It gives me feelings

Fire
It creates the spark
It creates excitement
It creates jealousy

Fire
It holds me to you
It holds me to people
It holds me to life

Fire
It dies
It turns my face
It ignites for him

Fire
It draws me to him
It forces my hand
Forces my lips

The fire in my heart that burns for you is dying.  It has been doused several times, but refuses to die just yet.  

The fire that burns for him grew too quickly and is now a poison
Ripping me apart
Eating away at my body from the inside, out
It's ruining my relationship with you, with Rose, and with myself

This fire is burning my heart alive.
I can feel it roasting
At least, I think that is the ache I feel in my thoracic cavity

I am miserable.  
But I have no idea how to change that.
 Mar 2014
Lynn For Now
I have found myself in this dark place once again
Everything has worked itself out
Or at least, as well as it could.  

Life is good. I enjoy my school, my friends, and my beautiful partner
He and I take on the world together, one day at a time.
And sometimes, talks of the future come up, but that is to be expected.

Everything could be great.
Everything is great.

But then, you get drunk, and say things that make me lose my confidence.
And that lack of self confidence has made you lose interest.
You always accept the intimacy,
You sometimes accept me.

But you care enough to take care of me after we break up.
You say you will make sure I am not alone, And I believe you.
But then why do you have contempt in your eyes?
Why is there boredom and annoyance on your face?
You seem to detest me, and I can't help but take every passive aggressive comment as you saying,
"******* *****, go away."

I am reading too much into this.  This, I know.  
But I am not delusional.
I see the way you meet my gaze and then dart away immediately. Afraid that if you look too long, you'll love me again?

I want to be wrong
Please, just prove me wrong.
Say you don't mean any of it and that I am still important to you and always will be.
I can't stand to think that my misinterpretation of you looking at me looking at you looking angry at me for being upset towards you for misinterpreting your words towards me has ruined everything I fought for.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
I need to figure out this whole "alone" thing.
Because every moment away from you,
feels like an eternity.

I am sick with a cold, and cannot take care of myself.
And as tired as I have been all day,
This twin sized bed is too big without you.

This relationship will last.
If even just to prove wrong all those people telling me
that none of my relationships are a serious thing.
I want nothing more than to share you with everyone in my life.

I have moved on from my own past.  Why must the people around me dwell on it?

In one group, you are the celebrity.
Everyone looks to you as the nice guy, the funny guy, and the awesome guy.
To me, you're my hero.
You make me the person I've always wanted to be.
Together, we are invincible.

Around my group, you are the 'other guy.'
I'm supposed to be with Preston still, and I just can't be.
He changed as soon as I dumped him.  
Apparently I wasn't important enough for those changes to happen earlier.  
Or he finally has discovered the log in his own eye.  
For all the splinters he accused I had in mine, maybe now he won't be blinded by his own ignorance.

Yet, you are punished for all of this.
For everything that happened between Preston and I.
I am happy being with you, and you are hardly allowed to set foot in my room here,
let alone stay the night.
It infuriates me how my own roommates would rather me be alone than happy,
because I proved them right.

Both of them told me I was too good for Preston.  
They were secretly the votes that helped me decide to move on.  
But it wasn't their way.  

So why must you be punished?

Please come back home soon.  
I need you beside me, whispering in my ear that everything will be okay.
I need you telling me that we are invincible together.
Logan, I need you.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
First things first:
I have not lost interest.
I am not bored.
I am enticed, ready to live my life my life with one.

With THIS one. Forever.
I could marry him tomorrow and be the happiest person alive.
SERIOUSLY.

So, why am I so interested in knowing the person right next to him?
Why am I using my time to research this other person's life?

Neither is more attractive than the other.
Truly.
Both faces, both bodies, both appearances are identically entrancing to me.

I know who mine is; we have talked, laughed, shared ourselves with each other,
and I love him.  
Stop telling me I don't understand this word.
Love means you would do anything, even die for another, and risk everything you have.
And I would.  I always will.

But I love meeting new people.  
I always have, and always will.
I know you, but I don't know him.
I'm hungry to learn more about this person.

Is that what this obsession is? Nothing more than pure curiosity?
If so, why am I not content combing through the photos you two share?
Why does sending him a short message saying "it was great to meet you!" put my stomach in knots and make me sweat?

Why do I see you and, if only for the tiniest millisecond, wish it was him?

No way do I prefer him to you.
No way will I EVER choose him over you.

No way will I actually fall for your own twin...

But I NEVER intend for you to see this anyways.
I have no convincing to you to do.  
You haven't accused me of anything.
I guess the only one who has accused me of this
is me.

But why try to argue with myself? I know I love YOU.  That's what counts.

So I'm not lying to anyone.  I'm not even lying to myself.

I just might not be telling the whole truth.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
As I lie awake at this lonely hour
I discover just how much you are to me.
I can't sleep knowing that you are out there,
Trying to reach goals that can never be reached.
You work towards the impossible:
Perfection.

I long for your warm body beside mine
And your gentle yet firm embrace that keeps me warm.
You need sleep more than I, yet I am wrapped in my blankets
while you continue to work.

You don't realize that not only do I want you now,
But I need you later.  
I need to know that you will live to see a lifetime after this.
That you will not waste yourself now,
and decay from the lack of daily rejuvenation your body is craving.
You need to realize that I worry for you for us.

I need my Preston more than I need anything else in the world.
With every moment you lose sleep, I feel like I lose part of you.
Please don't detach from me.  
You know I love you,
more than anything else in existence.
I die without you.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
When the alarm sounds
I will wake,
Rub my eyes,
then see yours.
I woke up before you, so I shake you awake.

Press snooze

"Good morning"
groan "morning."

Cuddle these few minutes

30 minutes until class
27 minutes until class
22...

When the Alarm sounds,
We release each other.
Roll off of the bed,
Be pulled back onto the bed.
hands locked, legs entwined, lips sealed.

19 minutes until class...

Grab granola, cereal, juice,
Clothes... search for them.
Where did we throw them?

13 minutes until class...

Brush teeth, hair, grab deodorant,

10 minutes until class...

Come back you....

6 minutes until class....

I love you.  I'll see you after class.

**This is how I want to spend every morning.  I want to wake up beside you every morning, and embrace the day with you. Every morning and night is ours to share.  Every kiss, we dissolve into one.  We shall part in body, but never in spirit.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
The friend zone has two sides:
On one, the poor soul is trapped
Hopelessly longing for one who turns a blind cheek.
You sympathize with them,
because they suffer for having emotions.
They cannot be asked to stifle their passion.
Yet here in this pit, all emotions are paralyzed,
Who could be so vile as to banish someone to this place?

The other side is much different.
Not many strong emotions.
But there certainly isn't happiness, or even peace.
The overwhelming feelings are pity, solemn, and overwhelming power.
This vile person has so much power over the poor soul.
But did they ask for that power?
Did they even want that power?
No, they want to be equal, not above.

Fully aware of the pain they have caused, they are sorry.
To all of you.  Not just the people they have personally caused pain,
But to all of you who have fallen for someone like them and was burned,
It is unintended, and is painful for them too.
They feel evil and wrong, but have their own obsession.  
They love their partner as much as you think you love them.  
And they want nothing more than for all of you to find the person who is really meant for you.

Like I have.

You won't be happy with me.
Because I won't be happy with you.
But someone will.  
And while you're wasting your time over me,
the person meant for you is waiting for you, longing for the hole in their own heart to be filled.

Don't continue to suffer, and don't keep them waiting.
I feel responsible for your scars. But only they can heal them for you.
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
How did you know that I was scared?
Was it in my voice?
Was my voice timid?
Or shaky?

How did you know I was scared?
Was it my body language?
Was I curling into myself slightly?
You were in the other room.  How could you have seen?

How did you know I was scared?
Were there clues in our previous talks?
Did I tell you that would frighten me?
Or do you just know what what I was thinking?

How did you know I was scared?
I spoke and you got up to help.
You never question my fears.
You merely vanquished them by protecting me.

How do you know me so perfectly?  
You make me feel safe
Wanted
Loved
Like I will never be alone.
**Never stop loving me.
Dedicated to my beautiful partner Preston
The most wonderful partner I could ever be lucky enough to have
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
I don't care if it's just a piece of string
I want a ring on my finger
I don't care that I'm only seventeen
I know our love will make us stronger.

I don't care that we have only been together 3 months
I have known you for almost a year
I don't care how childish or foolish I sound
I want to spend my life with you

Let me spend my life with you
 Jan 2014
Lynn For Now
Help me understand…
What I did
I never heard a word
Of discontent
Until I walked away,
And you changed everything
If I was suppressing your character,
Why didn’t you stop me?

Help me understand…
What I was missing.
You were always upset
I always made you miserable
And you said it was
The happiest time of your life
Why did you lie to me
And let me crush your spirit?

Help me understand…
Why you gave up
You stopped caring about us
You got your ***
Then left me to recover
My nearly broken hips
Left beneath cold sheets
In need of comfort, support
But only your computer held your attention

Help me understand…
Who the **** are you now
Because I have no idea
Who you are
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