Why am I so scared?
When will I be able to be who I really am?
Will I ever be accepted into society?

You're like the moon.
Some nights you show your full beauty.
Just being present for everyone to appreciate and see.

Some nights you get anxious,
You hide a bit of yourself from the world.
Worried that people are tired of you.

And some nights you don't show yourself at all.
You stay in darkness, weeping.
Feeling better if you were just a secret.

There is so much, I want to say, but where do I begin?
So instead I'll drag a knife across, my fragile, pale skin.

i sat
in the
bathtub
staring
at the
broken
blood vessels
in my legs
and wondered
if they were
whole
before you left,
too.

A man sits in his boat alone
And yields no riches from the river
so he is lost on what to do
until he sees a fisher.

This fisher brags his perfect catch.
"This fish looks far too big for YOU to catch"

The fisher then gives a reply:
"I'm offended that you think that but I shall help you"
The fisher gives the man a net to try.
He says:

"This net is only a tool, you cannot use anything but your own strength if you want to catch the perfect fish"
The man thanks the fisher for his help in accomplishing his wish.
Days go past with no results for the man with the net.

He meets with the fisher from time to time
each time the fisher tells him that only his own strength will help him catch what he says: "Is mine".
In all this talk, the fisher's perfect fish escapes.

The fisher is devastated.
The fisher is wrecked.
"How could I have let her go?!"
The man sees despair in his friend's losing his perfect.

The fisher and the man now sit alone along the shore.
They sit with their nets in the water.
No words are spoken.
No support because they are both broken.

The man then sees the fish that the fisher lost.
He knows the fisher begins to miss her
And uses this loss.

The man runs out, he tries to catch her.
He tries to take what the fisher once lost.
To take from a man he calls 'brother'.

The fisher is betrayed.
The fisher sees the desperate man.
The fisher moves away.

Because only a thief steals
what his brother loves
A brother never tries to steal
The only love a brother has.