the boy that cried over you: Poems

months

the boy that cried over you Jan 2016

months

it's been months
and I'm still not sure
if you were worst thing or
the best thing
that ever happened to me

I wrote this a while back when I was still crushing after this girl but I think it's still relevant
---
idfc by Blackbear

music to my ears

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

music to my ears

She's an American beauty. I'm an American ******.
My discothèque, Juliet teenage dream.
You are my sunrise. Even in the middle of the night.
My stomach screams just when I look at you.
I dreamt about you nearly every night this week.
I think I want you more than want. And no I need you more than need
I only wanna be with you.

For you I'd bleed myself dry, For you I'd bleed myself dry.
Why can't you want me like the other boys do? They stare at me while I stare at you.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia. And forget about the stupid little things.

I'm a walking travesty but I'm smiling at everything.

I guess I kinda made a poem from song lyrics about someone.
High five to anyone who can name all the songs and artists without looking it up.
(You'd think this is easy but I have so many songs that it's hard to choose)

#love #music

my friends

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

my friends

I don't mean to brag but
My friends are the absolute best
They'll beat the crap out of the person to hurt you
They'll protect you from the storm that is life
They'll make you smile when you just wanna cry
They'll give you that one thing you always wanted just for the hell of it
They'll get your fav author to send you a letter and a bunch of autographed stuff
They'll listen to you go on and on about your endless crushes
They'll set you up with someone
They'll allow you to go to your house whenever
They'll take your apple and do some weird stuff with it
They'll listen when you just need to vent
They'll love you unconditionally when you hate yourself
They'll hold you closer when you push them away

My friends are the family I never got

Love you guys ^~^

#friends

my mind

the boy that cried over you Nov 2014

my mind

My mind is a complex little thing.
Many things happen in there but
You need to understand one thing,
One little ******* thing.
I always blame myself.

When I see long-sleeves or bunches of bracelets I think,
What did I do this time?
When I see tears falling down faces I think,
Now I've done it. I've gone and them cry.
When I get the new you killed yourself, my first thought will be,
It's all my ******* fault. I could have saved here but I'm a stupid, insignificant, good-for-nothing little kid.
And I'll keep thinking that no matter what.
Because my mind has been made to think that it's always my fault.

So please.
Please.
Don't do this.

#depression #selfharm #selfhate

nothing

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

nothing

Please don't ask
if I'm okay,
I might do something
stupid like open up
to you
and I'm really tired
of getting close to
people and watching
them leave me like
I'm nothing

numb

the boy that cried over you Jul 2014

numb

That's the only way I can get over you
By being numb
That way I don't have to feel the pain of you ripping out my heart
That way I can finally leave you and be on my way

#numb

opposites

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

opposites

You were everything I wasn't
Beautiful,
Graceful,
Quiet,
Everything you did was showered with applause

I was the bad seed.
Reckless,
Hateful,
And oh so angry.
Everything I did got me a scolding

And somehow, I fell for you harder than anyone else.
Too bad you didn't feel the same way.

American Beauty/American ****** by Fall Out Boy

#love

painting

the boy that cried over you Apr 2014

painting

I paint a picture.
"Quite beautiful," I mutter to myself
Tears rolling down my cheeks.
The picture cries with me
Its ruby tears rolling down.

My brush glints in the sunlight
Rusty and stained as always.
My canvas filled with other paintings.
Some not even a day old.
I wipe the red tears and wrap it.

My brain says to stop this horrible painting
but my heart refuses.
It's gone through too much.
It wants to let it all go with these paintings.
These horrible, scarring, painful, disgusting paintings.

#suicide #cutting

pieces of you are scattered everywhere

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

pieces of you are scattered everywhere

Every love poem I read
Reminds me a little of you.

The way your eyes twinkle
The way your smile makes me incredibly clumsy

The way my heart races
The way I keep waiting for you to reply

These love poems are puzzle pieces
That form you when put together.

#love #poems

re-re-repeat

the boy that cried over you Feb 2016

re-re-repeat

my mind is a jukebox
playing music on repeat
for an audience of one
and for free
some days it's a new song
other days it's a commercial jingle
but
most days it's your laugh

love you like a love song by Selena Gomez
---
sleep? what is that?

#love

scarred

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

scarred

I'm scarred
By the childhood I never had
By the love and care I never got
By the love that was unrequited
By the hurt I felt
By the pain in my heart
By the emptiness in my soul
By the lack of happiness
And abundance of sadness
By the blade in my hand
By you.

#suicide #sad #scarred

Self-Titled

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

Self-Titled

I'll Be Alone Now
Daydreaming of the Future
"Ain't It Fun Moving On?"
They'll ask.
But I haven't moved on.

It was some Holiday when we last talked.
You called me an Anklebiter
And I told you to Grow Up
You told me that I was just another One of Those Crazy Girls
But
I'm Not Angry Anymore
I'd just Hate to See Your Heart Break

This is Proof that
I'm Still Into You.
This song is my Last Hope.

A poem in honor of Paramore's Self-Titled Deluxe album coming out. Pretty bad but whatever.

sparks

the boy that cried over you Aug 2014

sparks

Everytime we touched,
I felt a spark.
Eventually it grew to a flame
That destroyed me slowly.

Sparks ignite into flames, good or bad.

#flame #sparks

stargazing (at you)

the boy that cried over you Feb 2016

stargazing (at you)

I wish we would go stargazing
so you could see constellations,
while I admire the one right next to me

**** I hate Valentine's Day
---
Freckles and Constellations by Dodie Clark

#love #stars #astrology #latenightramblings

stars [19w]

the boy that cried over you Nov 2014

stars [19w]

I wish NYC had more stars so I could compare them to how dim they are to your eyes.

Plus stargazing is cool.

#love #stars

stars [21w]

the boy that cried over you Oct 2015

stars [21w]

I wonder if there are so little stars in the night sky,
Because they decided to live inside your shining eyes.

Yellow by Coldplay
---
I'm cold and feeling emotions.

strumming

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

strumming

I strum this guitar
In a methodical way
Like you did my heart

Learning to play the guitar...Yay

#love #guitar #strumming

the death penalty for me

the boy that cried over you Apr 2016

the death penalty for me

some say that death is a fate
not worthy of even
the cruelest of killers
yet here I am
waiting for the sweet release of death
from this world
which has left me only
in pieces
and in pain

what what what what the actual ****
I'm not sad as much but this is an old one I've been meaning to share but I haven't so here you go
----
Human By Of Monsters and Men

#sad #death #latenightramblings

the first

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

the first

you are not the first girl
that I have fallen for
and I know I'm not the first girl
that you'd ever choose.
you are not the first girl
to have led me to longing
but you could be the first girl
I don't manage to lose

#love #first

The Houses

the boy that cried over you Aug 2014

The Houses

Ravenclaw:
The intelligent ones
For those who may be missing a few screws
Or are like no one else you have ever met

Hufflepuff:
The amicable ones
For those who aren't afraid to work hard
Or would give $100 to the homeless

Slytherin:
The cunning ones
For those who will do anything to achieve their goals
Or are willing to do anything to protect what is theirs

Gryffindor:
The brave ones
For those who will never give up
Or laugh in the face of terror

Where shall you go?

I'm a Gryffindor. What are you?

#hp #slytherin #hogwarts #ravenclaw #hufflepuff #gryffindor

the truth behind us [10w]

the boy that cried over you Oct 2014

the truth behind us [10w]

We're all just suicidal people
Telling others not to die.

Thought I would finally do one of these.

#suicide #truth

this is how you keep her

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

this is how you keep her

Kiss her.
Slowly, take your time, there’s no place you’d rather be.
Kiss her but not like you’re waiting for something else, like your hands beneath her shirt or her skirt or tangled up in her bra straps.
Nothing like that.
Kiss her like you’ve forgotten any other mouth that your mouth has ever touched.
Kiss her with a curious childish delight.
Laugh into her mouth, inhale her sighs.
Kiss her until she moans.
Kiss her with her face in your hands.
Or your hands in her hair.
Or pulling her closer at the waist.
Kiss her like you want to take her dancing.
Like you want to spin her into an open arena and watch her look at you like you’re the brightest thing she’s ever seen.
Kiss her like she’s the brightest thing you’ve ever seen.
Take your time.
Kiss her like the first and only piece of chocolate you’re ever going to taste.
Kiss her until she forgets how to count.
Kiss her stupid.
Kiss her silent.
Come away, ask her what 2+2 is and listen to her say your name in answer.

- Azra T. (via http://5000letters.tumblr.com/ )
Guys: This is good stuff write it down.

#love #her #kep

tinder heart

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

tinder heart

why won't they
leave me
alone?
don't they
realize i
have a
tinder heart
and a
paper body
and that
any spark
will turn me
straight to
ash?

triangles

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

triangles

I would part the seas
just so you don't get wet
but you would rather they did it.

I would fight every monster in Tartarus
just to keep you safe
but you don't care.

I would go to Hell and back
just cause you asked me to
but it doesn't matter, does it.

I was there by your side
when you were crying
but it's them you have your eyes on.

I love you
no matter what you say
but you love someone else.

I hate love triangles...

#love #triangle

unsaid words

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

unsaid words

the engine is revving
the headlights are beaming
and I find that I'm losing
my hold on the thread that binds us together
that ties me so tightly
that keeps me attached to
the things left unsaid.

#unsaid

untitled

the boy that cried over you Jul 2014

untitled

Please,
Don’t eat less, eat right
Don’t hold it in, it’s okay to cry
Don’t hurt yourself, there is always an alternative
Don’t shut yourself away, speak up
Don’t be your own bully, be your own hero
Don’t give up, because you’re worth so much more than you think

Eh. Could be better but it could be worse.

#quickie

untitled

the boy that cried over you Mar 2015

untitled

The fact of the matter is that
I love you in a way that
You do not.
I will sit here with my bouquet of roses
Waiting for you though,
Cause you still matter.

Do I Wanna Know by Arctic Monkeys
---
I should think about sleeping.

#love

untitled

the boy that cried over you Sep 2014

untitled

I'm a little tired,
So I think I'm going to sleep.
I hope you understand that,
Sometimes it's hard to breathe,
When my thoughts race,
Trapped in my mind.
It's time to say goodnight.
Please don't forget.
That you mean everything.
I'm sorry. I'm no good,
With words but I love you.
Please don't forget that.

I stumbled upon this little gem and I thought y'all would like it, I definitely did.

#suicide #sadness #note

Untitled

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

Untitled

The day is green
And these chemicals are making me feel romantic.
I’m watching the children blink their eyes 182 times
A minute while the pilots of twenty one planes pass by.
The boys have fallen,
There has been a panic at some sorta disco
And the world is at the lowest of all times.

#bands

untitled [10w]

the boy that cried over you Nov 2014

untitled [10w]

You love not with your heart but with your soul.

I really should stop being a hopeless romantic.

#love

virus

the boy that cried over you Feb 2016

virus

you were a virus,
polluting my mind and veins,
and I'm the fool that trusted you
now I left digging deeper and deeper into my skin
just trying to get every single piece out of my system before it kills me

similar to You're In My Veins but pffffttt
---
Therapy by All Time Low

#love #heartbreak

“what do you love about me?”

the boy that cried over you May 2014

“what do you love about me?”

I love your eyes,
Shining like the universe in spring.
I love your kind gaze that's like the spring's sunlight.
I love your hair.
I love your smooth, silken hair that waves in the wind.
I love your lips.
I love your lips that give honey kisses
And let me hear lonely sighs.
I love your voice.
I love your high, sweet, pure voice that echoes in my heart.
I love your body.
Your slender waist which might break if I embrace it.
But what I love most is your heart.
Fragile and easily broken
But endlessly pure and beautiful.
Your soul, filled with kindness
Which never blames others and forgives all.

#love

“what is a soul mate?”

the boy that cried over you Jun 2014

“what is a soul mate?”

It's like a best friend but more.
It's the one person in the world that knows you better than you know yourself.
It's someone who makes you a better person.
Actually they don't make you a better person,
You do that yourself because they inspire you.
It's the one person who knew you and accepted you and believed in you
Before anyone did or when no one else would.
A soul mate is someone whom you carry with you forever.
And no matter what happens
You will always love them.
Nothing can ever change that

This was inspired by the season premiere of Rizzoli and Isles. Love that show.

#love #soul #mate

“what is love?”

the boy that cried over you Nov 2014

“what is love?”

Love is everything right and wrong with the universe.
From midnight phone calls because you can't sleep to
Midnight fights because you came home drunk.
From telling your crush you like them to
Telling your vows to the person you plan to spend your life with.
From spontaneous picnics on a starry night to
Surprise proposals.
From going to depths of hell for them to
going to the flower shop to buy them a rose on Valentine's Day.

But most of all
It's for anyone,
Regardless of
Gender,
Race,
Age,
Religion,
Location,
Fandom,
Fashion sense,
Music taste,
ANYTHING.

Love is for anyone.
No matter what.

I decided to take TheCreepThatLovedYou's challenge to redefine society 'cause why not.

#love #redefineverything

words? what are those???

the boy that cried over you Mar 2016

words? what are those???

not even words can describe
the mess you make of me
with just one glance
one smile
one laugh

fuckity **** ****
---
Without You by Oh Wonder

#love #latenightramblings

you are the sun, lighting up my world

the boy that cried over you Mar 2016

you are the sun, lighting up my world

seeing you
is like watching
the sun rise;
painfully beautiful

#love

you hurt me without even knowing it

the boy that cried over you Jan 2015

you hurt me without even knowing it

Nothing hurts more
Than loving someone with all of your heart
While knowing they'll never feel the same

That every glance, touch and word
Is just another trivial event in their day
Yet any little exchange lights up your entire universe

And how you can accept every ounce of their being
For all their flaws, scars and broken pieces
But pettily find beauty in every imperfection

Stupid heart. Liking people who can feel the same. Tsk tsk tsk.

#love #unrequited

You're in My Veins

the boy that cried over you Dec 2014

You're in My Veins

I don't know how to stop writing about you
How to stop picturing myself with you
How to stop seeing you behind my eyelids
Each time I blink

Maybe you're in my bloodstream
Flowing to my heart, reminding it to beat,
But it is more likely you are simply
Each thought that I think

And I guess this is all there is
And maybe I'm out of luck

But in the words
Of the famous Kate Moss,
You're in my veins,
You ****

I kept looking through all the old messages we used to sent each other. And now I can't stop thinking about you.

#love #angst

you were more of a muse than i knew [8w]

the boy that cried over you Jan 2015

you were more of a muse than i knew [8w]

None of the words seem right without you.

^Reason as to why I can't really write anything.

#love

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